Jade Arkadian✨

I started to question myself if what I killed back in the woods was what I thought it was..

It was quite dark... and that strange feeling, the feeling that it wasn't one but several indivuals ,the fear and the rage I delivered...

What did I kill?

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Can't remember their names, but I told them what happened back in the forest. About the wolf like beast and how I killed it.

"That's a very unlikely tale. We know for sure that wood and there are not wolfes around"

GPOSE ◦ GPOSER ◦ AU RA ◦ FFXIV

After the incident in the forest, I managed to get back on road.
Eventually, I met 2 strangers camping in the wild.

They invited me join them around the fire, and even shared their meal with me.

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Thx so much ♥

I had some very bad days lately because someone did something that make me really very very sad, and...well it affects my mood on doing content.

I'll force myself to do something anyway

Looks like bsky compression algorythm doesnt like dark images :(

I was blinded by violence

I hit that thing with everything I had until I realised with horror the carnage that I've just done

- Look at what you've done
- I'm not like this!

I wanted to end them, I really wanted to make them pay

But in the end, I didn't enjoyed that at all

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As I landed my attack, I chained with another, and another one.
Its warm blood splattered on my face... and everything turned fuzzy in my mind.

Somehow, and when all was almost lost, the fear within me turned suddenly in anger.

Anger that fueled a devastating blow that I delivered using my sword with both hands.

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Tonight I've started to repost some of my old NSFW 🔞 content on my alt account (I want to keep this place free of sausages, milk, melons and oysters)

If you are into that kind of stuff, just pay me a visit @jadearkadiannsfw.bsky.social 👀

The wolf which was in fact just parying my attacks till it decided that they had enought.

"Were they just defending from my attacks? No.. impossible. They are monsters! They want to kill me!"

So it delivered me back a blow that made me fall to my knees.

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"Fight! Fight! Fight for your life! Kill them! Kill them before it's too late!"

My heart raced like never before. I was so scared and my instinct was telling me to kill before they killed me.

"They"

Why did I think of this beast not as a single individual in a moment like this!?

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I almost gave into my fears but running away wasn't an option. I fought the monster the best I could but the hellish wolf seemed to be invincible.

He was just toying with me before feasting on my flesh.

GPOSE ◦ GPOSER ◦ AU RA ◦ FFXIV

What I saw was a fierce beast. It reminded of a wolf but it seemed like something that came out of my worst nightmares.

The vision of this monster quickly scared me as I felt my hands shaking and my guts twisting in my insides.

Never the less I prepared for the fight.

GPOSE ◦ AU RA ◦ FFXIV

I just made some photos... but.. huh.. I messed up at the end when I realised that I wasn't wearing the right glamour.
Will have to redo them again tomorrow

Then... suddenly, I felt a presence. Someone... something was lurking behind me..

I had a glance at my back and as I recognised that "thing" as a treat, I quickly unsheathe my sword...

GPOSE ◦ GPOSER ◦ AU RA ◦ FFXIV

It was really quiet.. unnaturally quiet in fact. Only the sound of my own footsteps could be heard in the silent forest.
As I marched forward along the path, I started to feel...fear... of getting lost?
Or maybe I was feeling uneasy in such a silent place?

GPOSE ◦ GPOSER ◦ AU RA ◦ FFXIV

After some days, I recovered from my wounds and was ready to abandon Joaquim's house to continue with my journey.

The voice and my feelings guided this time into a dark forest.

GPOSE ◦ GPOSER ◦ AU RA ◦ FFXIV

One day, while having one of thoses family strolls, he told me something:

- "It might funny comming from an elezen like me, but I think life is too short to expend it in anger."

He said that out of the blue, and had me puzzled for a while.
I believe Joaquim had also issues in the past.

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Joaquim was after, a family man. He lived humbly in his cabin along his husband and child.
I really appreciated the time I spent with them, though family life is not what I really want in life.

"Looks like you finally wake up."

He introduced himself as Joaquim, a humble shepherd who lived in small cabin in the cliffs.

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I can't tell how much time I laid unconscious

But in the end, I woke up in a foreign bed. Someone found me, saved me and took care of me.

It was an aged elezen with reading glasses though he greeted me me with a friendly a warm smile.

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I reuploaded last post because the pics way way too dark (still they are dark, but now you can tell what's going on)

So.... what do you think what's next? Will this turn into somekind of Evangelion like episode?

The answer lies in a couple of days!

In the darkness I had a vision.
- "Who are you?"
- "Am I your past"
- "My past..."
- "Why can't you forget about me?"
- "Because I was happy at that time"
- "But now I am causing you pain"
- "Yes"
- "Then let it go. You can be happy once again"

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The storm in fact, was summoned by the latent rage I had inside me.
- "I can't forget, I can't forgive, I.. feel hate"
- "Drop it, let it go Jade." so my guide replied in my mind
- "I.. can't"
- "Then I can't help you anymore. I can't make that decision for you."
Everything turned to black...

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Will check again when I'm done with my work at the office

Yesterday I wanted to do some screens... but...

No plogons😢

Te entiendo perfectamente. Se lo que se siente y te mando fuerzas. Ojala solo sea un susto :(

I followed a path marked by my feelings thought I met my end in the ocean.

I drowned and almost lost conciousness, then a voice in the void of my mind talked to me:

"It's because you can't let go the past. You are so obsessed about your sorrow that you can't realise the good things anymore"

The tides throwed me away like a straw in the wind.

I desperately fought back the storm, but the weight of my gear was pulling me right to the bottom of the sea.

If only I could let everything go... but I just can't..

"Is this my end? Just like this?"

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