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day two in the ICU, sure would have liked to have gone home today.

I am going to watch Criterion movies on my phone tonight, I don’t care anymore.

started yesterday throwing up blood and spend the day in the ER and ICU. not my favorite place. Gf is freaked out, I’m freaking out, I’m exhausted and tired and just worn out and depressed.

no clue when I’ll be physically able to go to work again.

I’m tired of having health problems. I just want to be healthy enough to live my life again.

finished one dlc, not interest in finishing the others. pretty sure I’ll move onto Village next or start playing fallout 4 again.

gotta see what else I have in the backlog to knock out on switch 2.

I can’t believe they nerfed live mas, game is broken smh

finished RE7 tonight, I’ve got DLC left but that’s a pretty good video game. I liked it a lot more than I thought I would have. Capcom were right to do it the way they did.

DLC next, then it’s on to Village I think if I’m not feeling burnt out.

on the other hand, I’m playing video games since I can’t do much else. RE7 Biohazard is pretty good! I wasn’t sure going in but I’m liking it even though it’s got a little jank to it.

the magic storage box system Capcom deployed in (almost) every RE game really makes it all work.

I love feeling like a feeble old man in my 39yo body as i collapse to the floor from getting up too quick, or I’m just weak from lack of calories I’m having a hard time consuming. It’s great.

I love not being able to work because standing for too long makes my face erupt in pain for some reason.

I love starting every day with a shitload of pain and then just gradually getting it down so I can eventually do something.

I really hope one of my doctors can figure this out because this is ruining my life.

Feels like I’m starting from scratch again, but I can get water down and I can eat ice cream. and I’m starting to think some of my pain issues are actually back related.

I guess more doctor appointments in my future. sigh.

I’ll get through this but man am I tired of it.

well my ENT is fucking worthless. no answers to my issues, just tells me to take mucinex for the mucus that has claimed my throat and sinuses and they'll schedule me for a swallow test.

bitch I can't swallow anything NOW, what do you think I'm gonna be able to do in a few weeks?

roaming around what feels like the Barbarian basement in RE Requiem and some annoyances aside, Capcom definitely cooked here.

anything to distract from the throat and jaw problems right now.

I can’t wait to hit the point in RE9 where I’m like oh this is comfortable now, and I just run like an asshole from room to room, not afraid of whatever is lurking in the next one over because I know how to deal with it.

The puzzle structure is straight up RE2 remake and I’m here for it.

RE9 off to a good start. Switch 2 holding its own pretty well too. I am very bad at these games but I will persevere as my mental health demands it.

I’m under attack.

I grabbed RE7-9 too, time to have some spooky fun 👀

after months of waiting, life issues, cancer treatment, side effect complications, every day life stress, losing my mom, etc, GF and I finally saw Nine Inch Nails tonight in Tulsa.

just an incredible, energetic force of a concert. easily a top 3 show for me for sure.

this one will linger.

It’s on the list to get to for sure!

I broke down and bought a switch 2, I figure if I’m gonna be miserable for a bit I might as well play some games.

late to the party, but Mario Kart World is a lot of fun. completely took my mind off of the dumb health garbage for a while. excited to dig further into it.

oh I guess I'm doing an MRI today. okay

MRI being scheduled, new pain meds being sent out, referral to ENT in progress. covering all my bases to find out why I’m in so much pain.

I just want to be able to open my jaw properly and be able to eat and sleep normally again.

Dragon Ball Ending
Romantic Ageru

Dale cooper headed to twin peaks at 1130 February 24

It is happening, again.

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link walks up some dark stairs

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link looks at an ancient mural of a dream whale

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link battles a shadow version of themselves

A Katsuya Terada Zelda illustration. Link comforts a wounded man in the sewers

The 40th anniversary of Zelda is all the excuse you need to submerge yourself in classic Katsuya Terada art.

doomscrolling as I wait for this pain attack to settle down while listening to This Mortal Coil’s “It’ll End in Tears” record because of course I am.

The Ataris cover reigns supreme by virtue of Don Henley not being there as well as Kris Roe being a pretty cool dude who understood the assignment.

Scans looked good, bloodwork looks pretty good. I’m being referred back to the ENT for the jaw issue, the throat issue I’m told will resolve.

I’ve got this. I got through radiation and chemo, I can manage this nonsense too.

throat still hurts, jaw hurts and I can't even open my mouth all the way right now. really looking forward to doc appts this week to complain about what I've been dealing with and hope for some answers / relief.

meanwhile work just kinda sucks all around.

I'll be okay, hopefully.

seeing news about a "memory shortage." it's not a shortage. billionaires who hate you hoarded it all so they could make everything worse and stupider and more expensive, just like with most shortages