The Things We Don't Say (Until We
Almost Can't)
floatyourboat1997
Summary:
Buck freezes.
His heart stutters, then slams against his ribs. Silence rushes in, thick and oppressive, like the room is listening now. Watching.
Whoever put him here might be just outside the door. Or behind him. Or nowhere close at all-which, somehow, feels worse.
This wasn't an accident, Buck realizes, the idea fully formed and undeniable.
This isn't a bad fall at work, or a wrong-place-wrong-time situation.
His hands didn't tie themselves. The rope didn't appear by magic.
Someone brought him here.
Someone took him.
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Or: Buck goes missing. Everyone reacts about as well as you'd expect.
Iβm on a Buck kidnap fic hyper fixation right now with the next episode coming up and this was a great one! Loved the kidnapping and trauma post saving of both Buck and Eddie. Check it out!
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12.03.2026 01:24
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Handle With Care feelingcynical
Summary:
Eddie furrowed his eyebrows as he picked up the small book, tilting it back and forth under the light of the lamp on Bobby's desk to reveal four small letters simply written across the front in black ink.
Buck.
or
Eddie is helping Chim move into Bobby's desk and he finds a little notebook left behind with Buck's name on it.
Another fic req. Loved the idea of this one and it was a fun cute read!
archiveofourown.org/works/78365961
16.02.2026 00:45
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Published: 2025-06-11 Updated: 2026-02-06
Words: 68,675 Chapters: 18/21
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Kudos: 400 Bookmarks: 88
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The Way Forward
Beaner61517
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Chapter 18: Chapter 18
Summary:
It's not like Buck didn't know something bad could happen. He was a firefighter for God's sake and had his share of injuries. He just doesn't understand how he wasn't prepared for bad news. Buck knows that life doesn't seem to like him very much. The moment he has any bit of happiness; it is taken away.
Bobby. Rebecca. Why not Eddie. The only difference is that he doesn't think he will survive this one. How do you survive losing the love of your life. How do you continue every day and be happy.
Chapter 18 is posted! Itβs a bit of an intense chapter and poor Buck is going through it again! I canβt help myself!
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06.02.2026 20:15
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Published: 2025-06-11 Updated: 2026-01-31
Words: 64,388 Chapters: 17/? Comments: 72
Kudos: 379 Bookmarks: 83 Hits: 10,948
The Way Forward
Beaner61517
Summary:
Bobby died and Eddie left. Bobby died and Eddie left. It was like those words repeated in his mind over and over. Nothing was the same any longer. The thought of working at the 118 made Buck feel like his chest was caving in and he couldn't breathe. Sure Hen, Ravi and Chim were there but the feeling of home was gone. Buck didn't even know if he wanted to be a fire fighter anymore. He didn't feel the joy or purpose any longer. The fire had burned out, no pun intended.
Or
What if Bobby really did die and Eddie did leave to go back to El Paso? What does Buck do when everyone leaves??? He packs up and runs away only to come back 3 years later. A changed man with a daughter. Will he and Eddie be able to figure their shit out and finally get their happy ending? Of course they will because this is my story and only HEA's are allowed. Though the first chapter is pretty sad so you are warned.
A little self promotion⦠Finally updating this fic again! Chapter 16 and 17 are up and hoping I can get 18 and 19 done I. The next week. I feel like there is only a few chapter left. She has been a beast to write! Check it out!
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01.02.2026 00:43
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would you lie with me and just forget the world
colonoscopys
Summary:
Eddie Diaz is 7, and 13, and 14, and 18, and 34.
And he loves, and he loves, and he loves, and he loves, and he loves.
This is one I have had in my TBR pile forever and finally read it! So good and heartbreaking at the same time. It is a spin on Buddie love story that is a great read. You should check it out!
archiveofourown.org/works/399855...
05.01.2026 19:11
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Dead Moms Club
unreckless
summary:
Buck's hair is gray at the temples, buzzed neatly on the sides and a bit longer and curlier on top than Chris remembers him wearing it, and there's a new scar through one of his eyebrows. He looks good, like he's living a happy life, and the only possible reason Chris can imagine for Buck to be here at Helena Diaz's funeral in El Paso is that Chris's father brought him.
"Why would you come?" Chris snaps at him.
Buck blinks. "Why wouldn't I come?"
"She didn't mean anything to you."
"I'm not here for her," Buck scoffs.
"She is dead. I'm here for him."
or
Chris is forced to grapple with the choice he made eleven years ago when his father comes back for Helena's funeral.
Not gonna lie⦠this is a hard one to read but also so freaking good! Everyone needs to check it out!
archiveofourown.org/works/70408311
03.01.2026 02:59
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Eddie Diaz: World's Most Embarrassing Boyfriend (ik Buck loves it)
giselleslash
Summary:
Buck is surprised by Eddie's behavior after the two of them get together.
God I love this little fic! Itβs so sweet and funny! Everyone needs to read it if you havenβt!
archiveofourown.org/works/69371051
09.12.2025 02:59
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Parents' Night
paleredheadinascifi
Summary:
Naively, he thinks he might be safe.
But right there, smack bang in the middle of the classroom display, is Christopher's story. Proudly titled:
When My Dads Got Married.
"Oh dear god, " Eddie whispers beside him.
Buck's soul leaves his body.
Or, Buck joins his good friend Eddie at his son's Parents' Night.
Platonically. With his good pal, Eddie.
Oh this made me cackle several times! I love stories where they are idiots!
archiveofourown.org/works/75149946
08.12.2025 16:54
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what goes around comes around karatekid1018
Summary:
Private Message: Buck and Ravi,
10/17
Ravi
Ravi Pannikar shared a Note with you: "Buddie Bets"
Buck ...probie
probie what the hell is this
Ravi
AH
that
was supposed to be shared with a group chat
pls don't get the chainsaw im too pretty to die
Buck
don't care, didn't ask, what the hell
is this????
Ravi
so on iphones there's this app that's called notes right
Buck
PROBIE
Ravi
ok look don't get mad
or: Buck and Eddie find out that the 118 have placed their bets on when they'll get together. They hatch a plan to drive their friends insane AND take their money. It goes about as well as you'd expect.
Not gonna lieβ¦ I love a good fluffy text fic! This one was a lot of fun and a lot of Buck and Eddie being idiots! I need this on the show! Theyβve been too serious this season!
archiveofourown.org/works/669042...
02.12.2025 02:03
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β’ I'm Not a Violent Dog, I Don't Know
Why I Bite
floatyourboat1997
Summary:
The first punch Buck throws is a confession.
It's a scream he cannot utter, a tear he cannot shed, an accusation he cannot voice against the universe that took Bobby.
He hits for the years of reckless choices Bobby forgave. He hits for the missing voice at the dinner table. He hits because he doesn't know how to do anything else with this kind of emptiness.
I am not a violent man, he thinks, the words a desperate, silent prayer.
I am the one who finds the victim, the one who carries the child, the one who brings the peace.
But he just can't stop.
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Or, in the aftermath of (supposedly) losing his captain, Buck joins a fight club.
Just finished this fic and so good. Be prepared for some very difficult violent scenes but the writer did a great job showing how Buck isnβt coping well with Bobby being π!
archiveofourown.org/works/723780...
01.12.2025 03:17
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Soul Tied
Bucklleydiaz
Summary:
He is thirty-four and he runs back To Texas, to dirt roads and sunburnt guilt. He is thirty-four and There's a new priest at the church. He is thirty-four and so, so tired of running. There is no one left to outrun. No war. No marriage. No God that'll listen. He is thirty-four and watching Buck's chest stop rising beneath his hands. It's a flash, a frozen loop. Over and over and over. His own voice screaming.
The slick, metallic smell of blood.
The way time fractured.
He is thirty-four and Buck is dead.
Or
A love is confessed. A shot is fired.
And everything falls apart.
This is an absolutely soul crushing story that will make you want to crawl into a ball and cry your eyes out but it is beautifully written and an excellent story! Warning it is a MCD.
archiveofourown.org/works/647033...
30.11.2025 03:31
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Somebody's Son
Buddieaya
Summary:
"You don't have to," Buck says quickly. "You could just leave it.
Don't look."
Eddie glances up at him, and they both know without saying it that he isn't going to let this go.
There's no way he can look away now, not after seeing the way Buck reacted.
"Or maybe just not now," Buck says softly, stepping closer, his hand settling gently over the screen like he can shield Eddie from what's on it. "Maybe leave it for now. You're not... Eddie, you're not doing well right now. I've been so worried about you and this-" his voice catches, "βyou... Eddie, please don't. Just leave it."
It stings to hear the worry out loud, even if he knew it was there.
He wants to do what Buck says, he wants to trust his friend and give him what he's asking.
Buck never asks for anything.
Eddie moves Buck's hand aside gently, giving it a brief squeeze.
"Can't do that, Buck."
Or; After Christopher leaves for El Paso, Buck decides that he and Eddie should trace their family trees to keep Eddie's mind occupied elsewhere. The results lead Eddie to face a family secret.
Happy Thanksgiving! I have a fic rec if you need something to get you through the day but be warned it is not an easy read and tears may be shed! Also the Diaz parents suck!!!
archiveofourown.org/works/689964...
27.11.2025 16:25
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We're Just Glad You Could Visit
Morganski_19
Summary:
When Buck died, for 3 minutes and 17 seconds, he became a ghost. Or partly a ghost. At least that's how it was described to him at least. He wasn't quite yet a ghost but he wasn't quite alive either. It was somewhere in in between, his soul not sure what to do yet.
All he knows is that ever since then, he's been able to see ghosts.
They think it was because he almost was one.
But again, he doesn't know.
He doesn't know a lot of things.
or: Ever since the lightning strike, Buck has been able to see ghosts.
Now, in the wake of Bobby's death, he's the only ghost Buck wants to see. As the days go on and Bobby is still no where to be seen, Buck slowly falls apart.
A new week calls for a fic req. If you enjoy some supernatural elements this is a great fic. Buck sees ghosts so we get some Shannon and Kevin and a few others. Really well done and enjoyed it a lot!
archiveofourown.org/works/715056...
24.11.2025 14:52
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a man in a white shirt is holding his head in pain
ALT: a man in a white shirt is holding his head in pain
Nothing worse than being in the middle of reading a multi chapter fic and when you hit next chapter you get the dreaded 500 error! Cloudflare needs to get fixed ASAP!
18.11.2025 14:33
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"Oh my god. I was a creep," Eddie mutters to himself, horrified. "I don't remember being a creep."
"I think he just likes watching people sleep," Buck says gently. "You were going through a lot at twenty-one."
"Yeah," Eddie agrees, and then adds dryly, "fucking voyeurism."
"War," Buck says quietly, and that stops the conversation cold.
Eddie can't really argue with that assessment.
If he's honest, he doesn't actually remember turning twenty-one, he can't remember if he celebrated or if anyone even noticed.
Being able to legally drink or visit a casino in Vegas doesn't seem all that important when you're already a husband, a father, and a soldier.
What does sticks in his memory is the endless loop of trauma-holding pressure on someone's femoral artery with shaking hands, shouting over his radio even though it wasn't loud enough around him to warrant his voice being so loud, closing his eyes just long enough to pray the guy beneath his hands, who was somehow younger than him, would live long enough to see his parents again.
"I can't even remember most of who I was then,"
Eddie admits softly.
Another fic req! Well itβs actually a series and it is so good! The first story focuses on Buck seeing a younger version of Eddie aging every 3 years to understand him better and 2nd fic both of them get to see their younger selves! So good! 10/10!
archiveofourown.org/series/4904329
16.11.2025 13:14
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what died didn't stay dead
youdrewstarsaroundmyscars118
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"We found a letter. He was late to pick Christopher up from Mama's so I went to check on him and..." She trails off, new tears springing to her eyes. "There's no body. But the letter... he killed himself, Buck."
No. No. No.
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The day after the bar, Eddie goes missing, leaving a suicide note in his house. Buck and Christopher are devastated and have to face this
terrible loss.
Another fic req! This is sad and heartbreaking but also happy ending! The writer really puts Buck through it!!!
archiveofourown.org/works/383730...
11.11.2025 19:37
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you'll ask me to pray for rain with ash in your mouth
Daisies_and_Briars
Summary:
Whenever Eddie sleeps, he experiences the dreams of those who are dreaming about him. He doesn't tell anyone. But when Buck's dreams start to change, addressing his strange ability may become unavoidable.
I mean no surprise but if you havenβt read this one yetβ¦ you need to put it on your list. Daisies and Briars does a great job spinning this story! 10/10!
archiveofourown.org/works/73841756
10.11.2025 01:32
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Nothing Left But
You
Daisies_and_Briars
Summary:
In May of 2021, 25% of Earth's population suddenly disappears.
Including Eddie.
In May of 2026, they all come back.
Eddie finds himself suddenly in the middle of a world he doesn't recognize, where the people he loves most have changed significantly.
I never get sick of reading fics by Daisies and Briars. My favorite author by far! Here is another one I just finished that was written a couple years ago. I love the βblipβ or missing 5 years troupe! So good!
archiveofourown.org/works/507022...
07.11.2025 23:35
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where i walk alone kermytheefrog (tardigradeschool)
Summary:
Everyone knows that when you touch someone who's going to be important to you for the first time, you'll leave a mark on them. It's not just romantic love; parents and children, siblings, close friends all share marks too. At least, they do in theory. Maddie's the only person who's ever touched Buck and left anything behind.
It's funny, growing up knowing your parents don't care about you. The kind of funny that would get Evan uninvited from sleepovers, which is why he always changes into his pajamas in the bathroom. The kind of funny that he's not allowed to ask his parents about. The kind of funny that makes Maddie look at him so sadly sometimes, when she doesn't realize he can see her out of the corners of his eyes.
This fic was so good! Emotional and I really donβt like the Buckley parents! This is a must read!
archiveofourown.org/works/631150...
06.11.2025 22:22
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The Way Forward
Beaner61517
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Chapter 15: Chapter 15
Summary:
They must have fallen asleep at some point because Eddie wakes up laying on top of Buck and sees that it is the middle of the night. He wakes Buck up and they pick up their clothes and make it back to the bedroom where they both slip on some sleep pants and then get into bed. Eddie helps Buck get comfortable since he still has to sleep on his back with his leg propped up. He checks on Brooke who is sleeping soundly and then crawls in and wraps his arm over Buck's abdomen and snuggles into his side. Buck, already drifting back to sleep pulls his arm over Eddie to bring him in and the sleep peacefully for the rest of the night.
Just posted chapter 15. This is by far my longest fic so far and plan to keep going. Follow along if you want to see what happens next. π
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06.11.2025 00:46
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Chapter 14: Chapter 14
Summary:
Sarah looked through the house and came back to Eddie with some quick recommendations on things he could do to make the house more appealing for potential buyers.
Nothing major, just a quick painting job in a couple of rooms and updating the front landscaping to entice people. They worked out a schedule, and if Eddie could get everything done and the house cleaned, they could get it listed within a week.
They worked out numbers, and Eddie was shocked that he could get a great price considering he hadn't done much to the house in the last 3 years. Sarah said the market was great in the area, and her assistant had already confirmed comps in his neighborhood, and it is a highly sought-after area for young people.
Eddie and Buck decided to stay at Eddie's for a little while and let
Brooke sleep while they figured out what to write in their letter to the owners of the house they wanted to purchase. They had already signed the paperwork for the offer. As they sat at the table discussing what to write, Buck looked at Eddie and said, "Would you be okay if I wrote the letter?"
I just posted chapter 14 to my newest fic and things finally get steamy. ππ₯΅
Iβm not sure how well I did with it but I am really loving this story if you want to check it out. Itβs almost 50k words and not sure when it will end.
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05.11.2025 02:01
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The Way Forward
Beaner61517
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Chapter 8: Chapter 8
Summary:
Eddie had no idea what he was going to say to Chris when he picked him up. He had texted him earlier to say that he was picking him up from school today and not to get a ride from his friend which garnered him an eye roll emoji.
Eddie knew how much Chris had missed Buck and the guilt Eddie had for the last 3 years never completely went away that he had been the final reason Buck had left. Chris had lost so many people in his life and losing Buck that way even though Buck would occasionally reach out had a bigger impact on Chris in some ways even more than losing Shannon. Buck had been in his life longer and had more of an impact on who he was as a person.
Since I canβt watch the show liveβ¦ I just uploaded the latest chapter in my fan fic. Going to work on the next chapter tonight and cry wishing I could was watching my gay firefighter show! Shameless plug for my fic below!
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16.10.2025 23:23
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"Buck," Eddie starts, as soon as he's next to him.
"Hey. Can you tell me what's going on here?" Buck turns to look at him, surprised by how close he's standing. "I thought we cleared everything up yesterday. Didn't we? If I did something this time, I really don't know what and I'd appreciate it if you could just tell me instead of giving me the cold shoulder all day."
"What are you talking about?" Buck asks, closing the side door.
Eddie scoffs. "C'mon, Buck, don't do this again.
You're glaring at me again, just like yesterday."
Buck is blinking heavily, water still hitting them hard.
"Yesterday? What-Look. Eddie," he says it like he's filling in a blank. "You're not supposed to just come in here and act like you've been here for years."
"What?" Eddie shakes his head, some water getting in his mouth. "Buckβwe talked about this."
Buck takes a step back from him. "No, we didn't. You just barged in here acting like you already know everyone."
"We met yesterday," Eddie throws out, a bit more sarcastically than he intended.
If you loved the movie 50 First Dates then you will love this AU #buddiefanfic! It really good and I love how they used the movie as an inspiration for this fic! Worth the read! Check it out!
archiveofourown.org/works/588160...
13.07.2025 02:45
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It was cracking me up!!! ππππ
08.07.2025 13:36
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"Um, yeah. I'm just gonna - uh. Head out?" Caleb mutters in their general direction as he flees the room, shirt only partially on.
"I'm not uninvited," Eddie hollers back. "This is your home."
"Yes, I'm aware. My home, as in mine, not yours."
Eddie opens his mouth to shout something back at him, but then abruptly closes it and looks at Buck with his big, dumb, stupid brown eyes and has the fucking nerve to look sad all of a sudden.
Sad.
A sad cockblocker.
The. Fucking. Nerve.
They just stare at each other in silence that feels echoey and wrong after all the shouting, Eddie's eyes just getting bigger and bigger and sadder and sadder. They're not his horrible misty Bambi eyes yet, but they're close, and Buck feels a churning in his gut that he's said something really wrong, that he's really hurt Eddie.
"What?" he blurts out in frustration.
"Your home isn't my home?"
Oh god.
This was a quick fun read. Buck and Eddie are idiots as usual with Eddie basically moving into Buckβs new place. Chaos ensues! #buddie #buddiefanficrecommendation
archiveofourown.org/works/67214689
08.07.2025 12:52
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I completely understand. I cry so much with them.
07.07.2025 00:01
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Itβs so good
06.07.2025 16:32
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A tear slips down his cheek, trailing along his smile.
"I think Eddie's the one," he says. "The real deal. The forever I didn't think I'd get."
He leans forward and presses his hand flat against the cool stone.
"And when we get married someday... I'm saving a seat for you. Right at the front. Right beside Athena.
And I know you won't really be gone. You'll be in the vows. You'll be in the way I look at him. You'll be in Chris's laughter and Eddie's eyes and every moment that feels like coming home."
His hand shakes.
"You gave me that. This life. This family. You built it, Bobby. You loved us all into something that survived you."
He closes his eyes.
"And I miss you. I miss you so damn much I don't know how to hold it sometimes. But I'm living, Bobby. And I'm loving. And I think you'd be proud."
I canβt handle itβ¦ get ready to cry!
#buddiefanfic #buddie
archiveofourown.org/works/67188436
06.07.2025 15:18
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Published: 2023-11-15 Completed: 2023-12-04
Words: 62,835
Chapters: 13/13 Comments:
2,020 Kudos: 3,721
Bookmarks: 1,533
Hits:
90,389
β’ Both Blade and
Branch
Daisies_and_Briars
Summary:
The chances of being struck by lightning twice are incredibly minute, but Buck still manages to pull it off. During a double date with Marisol and Natalia, nonetheless.
Eddie manages to resuscitate him, but as Buck recovers from yet another trauma, Eddie can't help but notice there's something very different about him. He's not quite sure what version of Buck he got back.
Notes:
Title of fic from Rilke's Sonnets to Orpheus II.xxiΡi
Chapter title from Rilke's Sonnets to Orpheus II. vili
Oh man⦠I never get sick of reading her fics! Once again if you need an excellent story check this one out! Blew me away! #buddiefanfic
archiveofourown.org/works/516035...
06.07.2025 13:21
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a little girl is holding a broom and asking why ? why ? why ? why ?
ALT: a little girl is holding a broom and asking why ? why ? why ? why ?
Seriouslyβ¦ when is AO3 coming back up??? Iβm so bored. I should be writing but I just want to read some hot smutty #buddie stories!
04.07.2025 01:33
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