zapp lover

im getting there, nothing happened but my alter did explode at them after everything so

im so tired, the police were called and theyre out of the house rn. they can go stay at a hotel for all i care

after i said no multiple times.

they really tried using the words "garry had a cptsd episode because they didnt tell us not to be intimate in their bed, they shouldve just told us" when no, i had a cptsd attack bc they kept using suicide/self harm to coerce me into giving up my bed entirely

over the violent usage of language in response despite ppl using that as literal threats against me in the past

my room is the only private room in the house theyd feel comfortable using
-me saying "this shit was gross and disrespectful" is somehow accusing them of r*ping me
-them talking suicide and self harm bc i put in boundaries is them just "expressing their mental health" and i needed to get-

tldr for the entire text chain:
-apparently the "so i should slash my wrists then" in reference to me putting up a boundary is "akin to a minecraft joke"
-i "dont have the headspace to understand sex" because i said dont have it in my bed
-im controlling them bc they "need" sex and-

so this is how its going

HEFBHSHCBSHD REAAAAL

HIIIII SERPH

i laid for a bit reading whilst she just preened me and sat on my pillow <3 shes v gentle and im glad u told me cause i dont wanna squish her!

I HAVE YES her pollinator appendage its soooo gross

LMAO NO ACTUALLY U HAVE A GOOD POINT ive never had a bird before so this is rly good advice thank you!!

Watercolour painting of a black cat with yellow eyes lurking in an empty tuna tin with its lid still attached. The tin is yellow with red edges and details, and there's a bright blue tuna pictured on it. A couple of crumbs of tuna lay beside the tin

🐈‍⬛🐟

bit my neck real hard bc she got stuck as she cozied up

napping with a bird is the worst idea ever

LETS FUCKN GOOOO

koa is incredible. shes so gorgeous and loving and curious and honestly rly quiet as long as she has someone paying attention to her

we've got a home lined up for koa btw with a friend of ours who lost their longtime budgie recently and who has the entire setup + time and space and love for a bird. no cats either!!

im so excited for her!!

also im never EVER gonna let koa out of her cage around the cats + everytime they interact im supervising 100% of the time

i have to clarify: i would Not do this unless i had 100% complete confidence that theyd both be okay. koa has been out around rly excitable dogs (which i witnessed) and is a rly happy and confident bird. libby is stupid.

curious!!

this poor bird has not had apple or even fruit in a long time

am unable to sleep proper i wake up with horrific nightmares

i need to sleep a bit more ugh

awh the card flicking capture motion is so neat too why is it being wasted on such ass

truthfully? Its mainly one of them. the other is incredibly lovely and i hate having to break our friendship bc of it

actively watching them spend money every pay on weed and get offended id ask them to only pay 60$ for cat litter as a house contribution despite them having a 2k income between the two of them

us to have sex in. and when leo tries to bring anything up even small issues we say we're being controlled and we NEED sex to function and why does leo need their whole bed when we're HOMELESS and SUFFERING even though we have a bed in the loungeroom to ourselves