kieran (NO RTs)

these last few games were so bad, i'm going to do 3D for fun.

i have lost every single comp game i've played since yesterday. what is happening.

I FEEL BETTER NOW PHEWWWW.

prob gonna delete the other posts though bc even though this is a priv, it's not locked and i just rather needed to get it off my chest.

i'm also on edge bc of something weird. i'm sure it's no big deal, but my brain is trying to fuck with me and i hate it. i need to work.

just changed my name again.

time for some more rivals comp grindddd.

also another dumb take i keep seeing from those people lately is "you can't mutual @id people out of genocide." and while i may understand it from a certain angle, it really just mocks people that are trying to do what they can to help others + mocks the people that need it.

like i dunno, i think imperialism is bad no matter what even if the US isn't the one doing it. i don't think it's that hard of a concept to digest and shouldn't really be debated.

there was so much wrong with this dude but TL;DR was terribly xenophobic and queerphobia and racist all under the guise of "progressive values" and that's why i honestly do not fuck with leftists that dick-ride for russia and/china these days.

i'm not even making up this particular scenario. i used to have a mutual on twt years ago who would constantly defend the USSR/russia way too much and try to justify the ukraine invasion. but regardless would whine about being called a russian bot/propagandist.

"no it's actually okay for this country to do imperialism bc it's progressive and they're reasons they're doing it !" like stfu, you still sound looney.

every day i thank god that i do not engage with large leftist accounts bc when i peak at them every now and then, some of them will say the dumbest shit that tells me they're a borderline t@nkie.

TODAY. 😭

80s singer Thomas Dolby on raising queer kids: "the eldest is trans, the middle is a lesbian, and the youngest is a drummer"

The 3 genders

“look at his little beak! c'mere, you doll…”

#bg3 #BaldursGate3 #art #украрт

literally 95 percent of his opinions on other music and shit is just Racist Old Man Yelling at Cloud.

why does FB think i care about anything keith richards ever has to say. i do not want to hear his opinions.

i dropped. that's enough for the night.

ALMOST BACK...

Stadium Rave YouTube video by Mark Governor - Topic

music.youtube.com/watch?v=BDWo...

in other off-topic news, youtube music just put on the spongebob jellyfish rave song and it's actually an original song with a title and shit omg. i thought they made this song specifically for that episode.

i only know that i wanna make it clear to her that i don't feel comfortable immediately dumping my story + i want to primarily focus on tackling my symptoms. because the triggers and flashbacks are what i have trouble managing most, i'm pretty sure. i guess we'll find out later how this goes.

also i think this is my brain acting up. but i can't help but wonder if it's going to go horribly even though i choose a queer therapist, specifically when i want to talk about my trauma w/ my abuser. but i have to do this because i don't wanna sit and let this continue to consume me.

i know i keep repeating it, but i also haven't met with a psych in almost a decade. only had for 8th grade + most of hs bc of my near-institutionalization; i know this is just consultation, but i'm nervous of not knowing what if i get so far with sessions.

consultation tomorrow and pretty nervous.

i guess there is more to how i feel about it, but i think i would feel better writing in a journal about it than posting here.

i don't really have anything to say bc i know my head will hurt but ppl stooping to racism bc they don't get the attention they want is so sad.

well that's another person for the server ban list jesus christ.

and work is done. 🛌 i kinda dunno what to do now, i thought i would be working on this all day.