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i would’ve fought it too and said no i’m gonna wait til i finish speaking w the dr but i was already sooooo overstimulated i spent that hour i was waiting just straight crying. glad im home but i really just wanna throw hands @ people in charge of anything in this country

went to the ER for chest pain. spent 5hrs there total. eventually got a bed. dr comes in then before he’s done asking me questions he’s paged to another room. then i wait an hour til a nurse comes in to discharge me. i hate america, i hate this healthcare system, and i hate men.

if someone already made this connection my fault i been opening the app to scroll for like 30 mins a day n never at the same time so im missing a lot

too tired to give full thoughts but these songs are connected (+dirty wedding dress connects to i hate it here)

margaret - by lana + jack
opalite
you and forever - new bleachers song
elizabeth taylor

- “when you know you know”
- forever
- hollywood/diamonds/gold
- “minor key” / ET key change

hey so uh dirty wedding dress lyrics

oh this one is especially loud #tome

i am about to be healed until november

i also gotta partake in care activities for myself that involve leaving home such as getting a haircut, getting new jeans, editing somewhere that isn’t home, getting coffee w friends etc…

bluesky lowkey my journal idc typing it out makes me hopeful i can do it (i notoriously let myself down)

spent my first week off just decompressing, doing what i wanted, sleep schedule doing whatever w no alarms + it was nice.

got a day n a half left of that then therapy on monday n we locking back into a schedule. gotta use this time off to catch up on laundry, editing, meal prep, dr appts, etc.

The Great War Line 19 [Verse 2] You said I have to trust more freely But diesel is desire, you were playing with fire And maybe it's the past that's talking

wait a minute @ ‘if you’re the flame i’m kerosene’ 🧐

DRAFT FOR THE WEEKLY TRUTH A series of chalk symbols was found on rocks along the shoreline, along with the words "the storm approaches. There was no sign of wreckage among the rocks, though this humble writer found a lantern -of unusual make, but clearly meant for the prow of a boat. The tide has since stolen the message, but dear Reader, we still must ask: Was this a message from across the sea?

i’ll never know peace bc tell me why i’m playing my lil video game n gaylor all of the sudden at the scene of the crime….😭?

i agree + i think its the face value meaning, like she gives every song but i’d argue that having breakups n dating isn’t “fighting” for anything n if we take her pr w travis as real she didn’t “make” shit happen she simply said yes to being asked out publicly… if only they thought about her words

ik someone who thinks it means she had to make her own happiness by fighting for it through various heartbreaks bc love isn’t easy n all taylor has always wanted is love n marriage supposedly 🤦

love n hate it
do u also have to ignore them at times bc u know when u start u won’t stop at a reasonable hour n have responsibilities? 😭

my interest in different fictional mediums (tv/book/vido game) cycles based on my moods + recently my video game interest hit me like a bullet train

havent played in months n now i’ve spent two days playing college football 25 + am currently playing dragon age veilguard🧍

We Were Happy (Taylor's Version) [From The Vault] Line 2 [Verse 1] We used to walk along the streets When the porch lights were shining bright Before I had somewhere to be

FOLKLORE cardigan Line 49 [Verse 3] I knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired And you'd be standin' in my front porch light And I knew you'd come back to me FOLKLORE betty Line 58 [Chorus] Will you have me? Will you love me? Will you kiss me on the porch In front of all your stupid friends?

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT Peter Line 56 [Bridge] But the woman who sits by the window Has turned out the light You said you were gonna grow up

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT Fresh Out the Slammer Line 31 [Outro] I'm runnin' To the house where you still wait up and that porch light gleams (Gleams) To the one who says I'm the girl of his American dreams

his caption!!! new romantics coded indeed

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ok wait tho i didn’t realize til the reply in the photo that june 13th is taylor’s half birthday….in the chely wright doc she said she felt like it was her birthday after coming out publicly n that made me wonder if taylor would do it on her half bday (but i didnt look up that date) it’s june 13 😲

checking the portal daily. it should all be set before the 15th (end of pay period). sounds good. we can always credit back time if they cover something too...

I can just tell [redacted] to hold any data entry until we know what is going on or have to make a "game time" decision before she has to send the payroll but that won't be until at least the 16th

me n hr 🤞🏻im genuinely sooo grateful
(this the same hr that didn’t punish me at all when a male coworker complained about my vocal support for + sharing of information about palestine in the workplace n he ended up quitting v dramatically later on)

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never mind they called me back thank god

i’m gonna crash the fuck out i was just on hold for over an hour just for me to reach someone and for some reason they couldn’t hear me so THEY HUNG UP?????? i need to get violent actually

not to be capitalistic but i really appreciate my employer sometimes bc i applied for 1mo paid leave + the state is taking ages to get back to me but it starts tmr + my job letting me start leave + if denied i can use my sick time

but this is at least 2 weeks of job security + pay while being off 🙏

chely wright and taylor swift at the beginning of chely’s doc Wish Me Away

Wow, she came out!
I said, "You're living my drеam"

this is interesting bc i noted the times taylor appeared too but i watched on youtube as opposed to tubi and it’s 1:00-1:01 and 1:03 on youtube 👀

i never realized how sexy chely wright is and that’s on me but gd i love women

this is my first time watching it and jaw on the floor tbh

PLS DO!! im 46mins in and there’s sooo much to take notes on n i don’t have the brain capacity bc im in information overload skfkdk

i’m watching it rn n this part…..

“Tell me something awful
Like you are a poet trapped inside the body of a finance guy
Tell me all your secrets
All you'll ever be is
My eternal consolation prize
You see I was a debutant in another life but
Now I seem to be scared to go outside”

either #1 or #2 bc i hold the belief TS13 will be her first she/her pronoun album not in a “man pov” way or any other past excuse but in a confirmed wlw way