🥝 Zulie 🥝

The conviction here is beautiful, thank you.

Im not better, smarter, or more worldly than anyone.

I admittedly have a hilariously low sense of self worth and struggle every day to feel like my own agency holds ANY value, for as much as I love optimistic thinking and champaign futurism, ideas of flowery self actualization.

Im just trying.

Worth saying: I have no idea what the hell im talking about more often than not, Im just an extremely nuro-divergent queer person with an unshakable belief in scientific materialism and mechanistic thinking.

Ive stuggled my whole life, with acceptance, learning disabilities, doubt.

Im just trying.

Honestly? Anger, spite.

Though not in malice.

Self discovery & agency bent towards ones life lights a fire in your heart that may warm you and those around you like no other.

That heat is precious, but ignorance seeks to snuff it out in fear.

So kindle it anyway, because you enjoy the warmth.

Dont lie to yourself for Ideals and dont sacrifice your principles for ease.

Fight when nessisary, grow when theres headroom.

Perfection was never feasible anyway, dont kid yourself.

Wanting better is however, and just wanting it is enough, even in inconsistency and struggle.

Just be earnest.

Frankly? Absolutist thinking is straight up dangerous and unhealthy.

Rules and principles are useful tools, yeah!

But if you work yourself into a state of extreme mental distress over ridged black and white thinking, leaving no room for nuance and the shades of grey most things occupy?

It sucks.

Anyway human compassion and kindness is one of the most powerful forces in the universe observed solely on our one lone little mote in the dark.

We are capable of better, capable of more.

However; Were not grown quite yet, and nobody honest ever said becoming was going to be easy, just possible.

Let them be loud, with humility, gentleness and compassion. But for yourself, most importantly.

Outward expression IS for yourself, and a wonderfully potent mechanism for growth, because in those times when others do engage you can receive pushback, perspective, perhaps even needed reassurance. Ideally growing and changing in the process! But those ideas stuck on the inside are just whispers.

I no longer believe that now. I believe for myself that if I have something to say, that i feel its worthwhile to say, that its articulate, kind, and carries meaning for me. I should say it. if you feel something is worth expressing then express it, as loudly and often for yourself as you need to.

When I was younger, I approached the idea of social media and by extension conversation as a whole like it was a mechanism for "scoring social points" or whatever, like whatever I had or wanted to say had to be "the right thing to say" and if it wasn't I had preformed some kind fatal social error.

Funky hotdog for free, I can move now!

I think the haters are just afraid of loving and being loved for their nature rather than in spite of it, I hope they can all learn to relax and have a little fun some day

Gonna go out on a limb here and say that maybe, just maybe?
If the brain is an electrochemical computer, when your brain is giving you the electrochemical signal that you are horny, like hunger, or loneliness, if you forcibly repress that signal at all costs for no reason... That's bad for you?...

The soundtrack goes unreasonably hard too, Craig Barnes, what the hell man?

I kind of miss when roguelikes were the hit genre of the period, Ive been revising Streets of Rouge recently and that game is such an unexpected gem, Its sequel is basically the only impending release I'm genuinely hyped for, I hope it can live up to and surpass its progenitor.

@aki_st4rz3 *pets you as you scroll by*

Will bite
A million times

Hey guys, if you wanna keep using service our new policy says you godda let us blackmail you, ok? its just policy, nothing we can do about policy so give us your dark secrets so we can blackmail you, were not actually going to blackmail you of course! but our policy says we need to be able to, ok?

I Poi!!!!

Worse if I decide I want to build something a little more ambitious and flex my creativity, engage with the part of the game I really enjoy, and nobody else is interested, nobody even wants to help or build collaboratively, and whatever I was working on never sees completion because i give up too.

Having the co-op experience come to a screeching halt because everyone wants to keep progressing, but I alone am trying to build a nicer base with enough space that looks decent and don't want to be left behind or miss something because that kind of thing takes time feels bad literally every time.

Being straight up, being the only person in a group playing these kinds of games who has any interest in playing toys with the games creative tools sucks major ass, being the group "builder" isn't fun at all for me, I'm basically playing this part of the game by myself every time.

An unfortunate realization I'm starting to have as an adult is that I just may not like playing crafting survival games with other people anymore, 2/3's of the gameplay can be fun and enjoyable and great for group play even, but because of the other often 1/3 of the entire gameplay loop: Building.

Termina the Void Witch

Thankie!!

Its just a personal edit I made of the existing feathered raptor model in the game im afraid.
Base game Hytale already lets you play as this critter with the same functionality though using commands, just a different look! But learning how to make and implement your own edits is a piece of cake! c: