kiel

first day of classes since the time change and this has been the longest day of my life

what did she do?

in this horrible place where belting out songs and yelling makes me feel better but I also love my voice and hate damaging my chords

I think it is the employee’s right to be frustrated with upper management i wish she dgafed that im frustrated with her i’ll get over it i just dont want emotions at work

my boss sent me an email AND a text saying she’s sorry help idk

and I don’t even REMEMBER how I organized it in the past because she deleted my section and split up my work into the 6 modules omfg I’m literally so mad

oh my god and literally the entire way I organized it was to reduce the content down to two modules WHY DID I WAKE UP TODAY TO SIX MODULES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

she also was like “this doesn’t need to be published until like April” WHY ARE U PUBLISHING IT NOW THEN BRUHHHHHHH

I get an email from her last week “hey we don’t need to meet” okay so I work in the draft environment. I wake up today SHE POSTED ALL OF MY DRAFT WORK TO THE CANVAS SITE AND COMPLETELY MESSED W THE ORGANIZATION OF IT 😭 and then has the audacity to be like “can u work on the home page” HELLOOOO

my boss is ragebaiting me omg

need a fellow freak who’s going to try and outcringe me with bkdk roleplay (i want to be deku)

i got ribena cocktail and 2nd thumbnail

first meeting with my therapist since early February let’s see how this goes 😬

have to*

as someone of Asian descent I’ve chosen to ignore it ❤️ if I get sick and die I’ll have died doing what I love

I haven’t go through my finals week with no hard podcast ughbfghbbghcg

I am so tired I reallyyyyyy don’t want to study for the next two weeks

this was a big moment for me I have been wanting to fix this for so long like maybe 2 years atp and I finally was like “wait a minute I actually have thread and a concept for how I want to fix this HEYO” and now look how cute he is !!!! I fixed the strawberry on his head that was falling off

ur look is so cool I love ur hair

literally sitting here making myself angry by going “AND ANOTHER THING-l”

weirdest feeling rn of being like chill and so whatever while also simultaneously raging to a fire whenever I think of another angle

also idk wtf a perfume costs I’m not even looking to smell rich I just don’t want to be stinky 😭

I really do sometimes internalize the “maybe u wouldn’t have this problem if you didn’t spend all your money on food and beverage” and I have to knock myself back into realizing like yk what sustenance can be a valid expense (but I could eat out a little less maybe)

if I started actually tracking my expenses I think I would feel so much less anxious abt this but like ughbdjfbfj

I’m trying not to invest too much into like unnecessary things because I’m about to be so broke and jobless in a few months but i really want to get a nice perfume and false lashes and a new clothing style

also hearing everyone say discord for “who should go home tonight” and changing it to a top 2 lip sync LOL

things rupaul has done this season indicating that she loves discord addams soooo much:

- the runway giggling
- helping discord with her walk this episode
- giving her a thumbs up
- remembering that she’s been watching discord’s audition tapes for YEARS
- starting off the season with that punk look

kicking my feet up in the air watching how much rupaul loves discord addams

LOL tyty I’m learning to not take it personally even tho it is soooo frustrating 😾 + after talking w some people at the company I also realized like erm actually I don’t even want to be on this team so it all worked out 😸

in my happy place (repairing one of my stuffed animals that was falling apart in my bed and watching les mis)