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i am so unbelievably tired of my parents treating me like i’m fucking insane. yes i have anxiety i know, but these health problems i have are separate and they’re not in my control? im not making them up? sorry i’m so unlucky? they say they’re tired of it, DONT YOU THINK IM FUCKING TIRED?

i’m really not using this account like i should be 😭 but trust guys im gonna try and get my shit together

i wish i could stop dissociating. i wish i could just be normal. i wish i could stop having off days. i wish i wasn’t chronically ill. i wish i wasn’t a bother to everyone.
i know i need to go back to therapy, but it’s hard. i’m also too self aware. i know what’s wrong with me already.

gonna try and make a cardiologist app tomorrow with a new one cause i’m so tired of this pain and weird feelings in my heart. my old cardiologist didn’t care at all and just fucking sucked :/ i need someone who cares and whose actually thorough. i can’t take the constant fear im gonna die

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i was already mentally detached from this friends so us talking to her less doesn’t bother me. it’s just the memories that do. then again there are some bad memories too. IDK it’s just weird

my trio has become a duo. it sucks looking back on memories because we’ve literally been friends since middle school. like what do i do with all these pictures? they’re good memories but this person wasn’t good. i just never expected this to happen. i’m not upset we’re distancing from her though

i’m so overwhelmed with everything i need to do and work on. it’s my own fault i’ve been stuck in the same place i know but it’s just so daunting

me and bf had a hard conversation, and it went well. we’re getting some froyo now actually. i’m just stressed, there’s lots i gotta do. i’m really grateful he really is my person thick and thin

i really am a problem. i wish i was normal. i feel horrible for the way ive affected my bfs life. he never asked for this, he never expected this getting into the relationship, he says it’s alright but i feel horrible for it. i know there’s more to it then he lets on cause he doesn’t wanna hurt me