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Hi guys I've moved to egge, lmk your uns and I'll fowwow yew. Kees.

Egge is a very fucking funny name so I downloaded it. I'm .vani on there xoxo

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in a bit of a bind and need to raise $800 USD by february 3rd in order to make rent!! anything at all helps!!!

My $uicidal eps over these past few months have been bitchslapping me across the face repeatedly.

Very low very quiet and monotone "let's fucking go." I called the mental health #, told them I was thinking of doing a backflip and they gave me refs to therapists and psychs in 25 mins. I'd like to think therapy would be different if I'm the one choosing it and not being forced into it.

That and probably losing weight due to being deficit in all else your body needs. Or "water weight."

And I miss vent a shitton but man whatever. I was told to journal instead but my memory isn't well enough to even remember day to day or even hour to hour activities.

I don't think I've recovered from my family treating me like dogshit when I asked for help just yet. But I don't know how I'm suppose to when both my parents called me on separate occasions to berate me. And then didn't listen to a single word I said. My wife got to observe the calls at least.

I just think it's fucked up. And I didn't write the initial tweet correctly but I'm not fixing it. And I've been hallucinating like crazy and sleeping like utter shit since our car got broken into but you know. Getting a job will fix me.

Man. Every time I read up on bipolar I'm like "haha that's me" but every time I'm not in an episode I'm like "well there's no way that's me cause I'm normal." Google search how to unpack self-ableistic views.

I'm realizing that I don't have good perception of myself or my own experiences. Or rather. Not very good at putting together pieces for myself.

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I need to get tossed in the ocean. I also need to sleep.

I don't even fucking know anyone from chicago 😭 and if this was a friend, almost none of my friends would address me in such a manner. And if this was a recruiter this way of texting is much too lax

WHOO A FWIEND HEKPED US WITH THE REST AND WE ARE IN DA CLEAR.

But I have to ask, if you guys got sent a text saying, "Hi, is this (full government name) ?" at 4am in the morning how would you feel like. Cause I'm teetering the edge or ripping my hair out.

I should have recorded the fucking phone call I'm so pissed off.

My mother gives 1k to my eldest sister MONTHLY and yet she says this to me. She guilt trips me and says "I can't always help you, you can't always ask for help from me. Think of what I'M going through." Meanwhile I've only asked her for money one singular time last year.

My friends have been helping me and also my wife has her paycheck but it isn't enough. I called my parents like my uncle asked and my mother just started berating me. She called me useless, selfish, and ungrateful. Telling me that there's "no way" she can help.

Earlier I tried to rt something and it told me I did but I couldn't see proof of it 😭

It makes me so irritated. I understand that I'm not the most well off person but hearing "just get evicted" from someone who IS well off and is family who I trusted to turn to is just . Unfathomable

"Just get evicted" as if that's gonna solve my problems??? I'm not the only one who'd be out of a place to live. And it'd ruin everyone's credit and an eviction on your record us a death sentence.

I really am just. Still flabbergasted from this morning. After calling my uncle to see if he could help me. His advice was to talk to my parents. The same ones who made me homeless. Or to just get fucking evicted. Bro in WHAT world.

"I don't want to be in the dark cave anymore" said flug, in the dark cave

This year is really just the worst ever cause wdym my car got broken into and they took important documents and that's it