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Hey woofers reminder that im awesome

Omgh i absolutely do not feel like eating and I am starting to get real tired of this!!!!! Every time I eat I feel nauseous so I have like no incentive to eat and I have to force the food down

Yes you know your fruits

Just ate half an avocado for dessert

Hell yeah! I’m trying to hijack my mind to do that. Just late at night I really was tired of how uncertain my day was so I just was super mean to myself. I’m doing far better now, learning how to be very uncertain without this nasty part at the end

yknow what maybe it is good that I had such a hard day that I got super depressed. when I had easy days the depression would just sit in the back and try to hide itself. but at least this time it's showing its ugly face and saying "if you want to live you have to get through me"

this is why no one will ever love me. I hate myself so much that it will just draw them in and pull them under with me

...I guess today was so hard that it made me break down. Took a lot of my precious time away but whatever. At least I can go through something so hard as being outside for slightly longer and only have a fucking mental breakdown

I used to think my life was on an upward trend. But that was just a little island in the miserable fucking ocean it is

If only I could express my emptiness in art. But I'm too fucking useless to try

I am worth absolutely nothing

like seriously what is wrong with me why can't I be happy with my wonderful life, why do I never really feel sure in myself and why do I refuse to improve

I'm stupid and no one really loves me and I'm not even worth employing I'm just an idiot who can't make anything worth her time and it will never change it will plague my entire life how lethargic I am

I tried out something new today. Went out and didn't come back to my apartment until about 9 hours later. Tried to do work. And I just feel like an utter failure cause I couldn't pull this day together. I just feel like a mess now just looking for any shred of reassurance that what I'm doing is ok

I’m so busy that I can’t enjoy my life

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My friends may all be busy but I’m sure not. I can be who I love being

Trying to doomscroll to feel bad about myself. This is bullshit. I’m a girl and I love myself more than anything, even when no one else understands. This holiday manufactured to make me feel bad about not having a wife and kids can take a bucket and go and kick it

God i hate valentines day. It’s a bright sunny day outside and everywhere I go I’m reminded that I haven’t found the person for me and that I get to be alone cause everyone’s spending time with their partners and I just have to rot and do my homework after missing my weekly friend hangout

Feeling like I’m missing out cause I will never fully understand why conventionally appealing people are appealing

Like dude I actually feel like a person again. Like I have some say in who I am. I'm not putting up with being in a box anymore, in many more senses than just being a woman

I've now been trans for a bit. I really love myself. I want nothing but the best for myself! Who knew that saying i was a woman would feel so nice. I get how it feels now to love myself as a woman with a penis and a deep voice. Like heyyyyyyy boys i saw you checkin out my gock

tired in a good way

It doesn’t matter how hard I try I can’t get myself to be trans RIGHT NOW and i am a disappointment to myself and by extension EVERYONE WATCHING ME AAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Sorry you all who thought i was okay who have to see me suffer my own head

AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! HhhahaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I’m going insane again, why is it such a battle to keep my sanity

WoodenToaster - Beyond Her Garden YouTube video by WoodenToaster

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I’m getting back up the hard way, the right way

I’m done trying to live up to a body I will never have, a personality I don’t want. I want to be my unrefined self and have others figure out how to be my sugar and salt