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i gotta brag about my mom. for an early Christmas present she made me an entirely custom miniature Hobbit hole that also has art, trinkets, books and other things from my apartment. she customized EVERYTHING, built it herself, and even sculpted the food. i'm so in awe and love her so so much.

I totally forgot that CritRole's on a break this week and I feel so happy and relieved.

Because if any new revelations shot my crack-pairing-filthiest-smut-I've-written-fic-currently-at-4k-words down I was going to be LIVID. (I'd still publish it, though)

and of course "setting aside time for each" or setting timers does jackshit because i get hyperfocused on something for hours

like i want to do my cross stitch but then i also want to update One Above All and i want to knit a scarf and i want to read a book and i want to bake some apple bread pudding and i want to sew a dress and play video games and it's wonderful to WANT to do things again yes but DAMN

does anyone else get overwhelmed with the amount of things they want to do with their time and then just... freeze instead? is this an ADHD thing? an overall neurodivergent thing?

Not really in SW fandom anymore. BUT I see the value in this and think it is an amazing way to utilize a fandom space. I might not be the best artist, but to contribute to this I will be offering Dragon Age OR Star Wars drawings/paintings. Ex of work included here along with donation amounts 🧵

if you need some hope: one of our patients came up with an article in his hand. most of the time a patient hands me an article or book it's unhinged religious or conspiracy stuff.
NO.
this man, a 96 year old veteran, FLAMED the current presidency in the local paper.
i love him. my new hero.

i got to feed and pet some goats today! some days are in fact good days, despite it all 🥰

I'm thinking alumni!!

having one of those nights where i hope old mutuals who haven't been active in months/years are well. i'm not the best at continuing communication but that doesn't mean i didn't think the world of you and hope the best for your dreams and desires. i hope your life is wonderful.

also thank you to lucie (i can't find your handle i'm so sorry) for mentioning OOA on TikTok and motivating me to update it ❤️❤️

rereading One Above All so that I can update it and I have two things to apologize for.
1. boy howdy there are a bunch of small inconsistencies i gotta go back and fix.
2. the slow burn is killing ME. i'm so sorry (but i'm not going to stop)

love that he gives her no time to react whatsoever. no debate or conversation he just plows through his piece and then flips straight back into “✨we’re having a lovely time at downton✨” before she can act like he said anything otherwise on live television

Fingers crossed it doesn't, but you're human. Things happen. If it's not a pattern, then you deserve grace and forgiveness. If this continues to stress you out this much and you feel like you have to walk on eggshells all the time, they're not deserving of you. Sending such a big hug.

that's not a sign of you fucking up. that's the sign of an INCREDIBLY poor manager. managers are supposed to be leaders and lift the team up, not shove them down, and help you fix your mistake instead of shaming you for it. i'm so sorry you have a shitty manager, do not blame yourself.

keep in mind she was beside me as he was talking to me and out of the corner of my eye i saw her with her hand CLAMPED over her mouth, trying not to laugh as he talked about how the chips in credit cards are the perfect size to put in our brains.

i truly love my boss.
a patient tried to talk to me about politics and religion and corruption for a half hour and after he left i told her "i don't know what it is!!! i'm a queer liberal heathen, and yet they always come to me!!" and instead of judging she started laughing so hard she cried.

this is genuinely amazing and count me in to fly wherever for the opening if you do decide to get it!!
my favorite bookstore in my city also hosts book clubs, they have a queer one and two romance ones (one spicy, one not) and i know those are popular!!

my toxic trait is i found someone's entire embroidery floss stash at goodwill, bought some of it, then went back to buy the rest. each bag had 3-9 skeins. each bag was $1. i spent $231 and got over 600 skeins of thread - at a craft store it would have been $500. only some regret.

how i sounded attempting to explain the love hypothesis news to all of my 35+ aged coworkers who have no knowledge of fandom

I legitimately can't stop laughing. After everything, we're rewarded with this. It feels like a fever dream. I feel like hopping in with two feet again. I feel like writing them. It feels weird but so so good.

thank you!!! i found an etsy shop that's all monochrome patterns and samplers and i'm OBSESSED

progress!

i thought i'd be partying in my 20s but i'm watching Emma for the 500th time and cross stitching a lanyard for my work badge.

need to be more active on here but here have a puppy in apology

I haven't been active on many socials and PANICKED when I couldn't find you on the old one. So happy you're here!

he is mine now i just had to have him

i blame my impending period but i'm feeling nostalgic for the ol' star wars days. who's still around? are people still reading stuff?

i ordered a dagger for self defense purposes and received twelve. i feel like the fact that i'm wearing my Vax "Dagger Dagger Dagger" shirt is too much of a coincidence and the universe just decided to go "dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger dagger"