Alan Zaugg

This brief few minutes of posts by yours truly is brought to you by... me. I don't hardly pop in on any social media these days. Good to see you all

On a different note, the anxiety has been hitting me a little harder of late. A lot going on in my life. All out of my control. That said, it's hard to navigate. I'm either extremely fidgety or grinding/clenching my teeth a lot. It sucks and is beautiful that I've learned to recognize triggers.

My mind has wandered off to a far distant time. 14 years ago, I met someone who changed my life. In a wonderful away. I'll never forget them. Now they struggle with their own battle. And I am cheering for them. We all struggle with things, we each face challenges. Be kind. Be good. 💙💙💙

Happy Thanksgiving. 🦃 I'm hardly on social media these days, but I still think of you often. I miss you. Truly. My hope is for a wonderful day and holiday season for you all.

I thank you for the impact you've had in my life. A part of my heart.

May the force be with you, always.

*came

I loved the one friendsgiving Tanna and I can't to. It was wonderful. I'm not sure who all has exited your life, but I'm still here and will always be supportive of you. I'm not going anywhere.

I can't seem to do anything right. Lol. At all.

Without fail, my ex still finds a way to pit my kids against me. Not that I need help saying stupid things anyway. 😮‍💨

According to her, I'm a bad father who cares more about my wife and step kids than about my own kids.

Doesn't help that I have just felt like a complete idiot and loser of late.

I love you brother. You matter a helluva lot to me

Thank you for listening. This has been "An Hour of Reflection" hosted by Alan

I supposed I'm mired in regret. Yes, I've forgiven myself for my past. I also avoid living too much in the past, but occasionally I get caught up in this reflection and weighed down with things I shouldn't be.

Reflection: I have spent time reflecting on my past and wondering why I deserve the blessings I have now. I've squandered much and hurt people. I've been less of a man that I should have been. Yet here I sit, with a new chance at life, wondering to myself why I would be worthy of this chance.

Oh, and Keys on Main in SLC has named a drink in my honor. It's my favorite go to drink.
I'll give you a hint. It's a song from one of my favorite bands.

I'm hardly on social media. A conscious choice for my mental health.

Suicide awareness month has come and gone, but the need to care for and check in on those we love is still needed. Don't let them navigate their minds alone. Thank you. Real talk. Love you. Peace.

Hi. Checking in. This is the year of anxiety for me. Yes I've had a lot of stress to bear. I've been met with many a disappointment. I continue to navigate and shoulder it. I've been depressed as hell at times. Even considered self harm again (but said no). All that said, I'm coping and I'm alive.

I hope so too. Thanks Devin

Oh on that note, anyone looking for a new home? I have one in selling. 3k square feet, 7 years old - hoping to get 650K out of it. 🤞
Not on the market quite yet, but coming.

Got the MRI back on my hot mess of a left knee. Already severe osteoarthritis; no cartilage in the joint; a few bone spurs; now I have a torn/flipped meniscus. Orthoscopic knee surgery in the coming weeks. Great timing as I'm putting one house on the market and putting up brick on the new house. 😮‍💨

It's ok. This particular knee is on borrowed time. Lol

Knee seized up on me. Apparently my meniscus "flipped." I have osteoarthritis anyway. Knee is pretty much shot. Been putting off, per Ortho doctor, the inevitable replacement. For now, surgery has to happen. Likely a scope

Yay

Thank you. It's ok. I'm glad I got to chat with him last week for a minute. He's at peace now.

Good memories. Some fun nights and moments

Yeah. It got progressively worse. Especially over the last 5 or 6 months

For those interested, I asked his daughter about a funeral. This was her response:

I did reach out to his number and his daughter did respond to me. I gave her and her family my condolences.

RIP my friend. Give em hell on the other side in good old Clint fashion

I had just texted him a week ago. He had just been released from the hospital again. He had told me in April, when I visited him in the hospital, he was living on borrowed time. He could go at anytime. So this wasn't a surprise.

We've lost MikeyVP and now Clint. My Twitter OG brothers are dropping like flies. Clint, as harsh as he could have been, was a good friend. I even had my struggles with him a bit. He was a genuine, passionate man. Didn't hide behind a mask or online image. He was just him.