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i saw an opening for something and got excited but then got scared bc i still can't really animate @__@ i'd just be deadweight bc i'm menhera

it's so weird bc on one hand i feel like it is genuinely cool as fuck but i personally can't remember feeling any sort of way about it in the past lol. i think i was just like "...i want to play animal crossing on my nintendo ds" while i sat on a funny round chair

related to it. like for better or for worse idfk.

i think "tourist" and "larping" are annoying buzzwords but i do feel like it's true to an extent. or i feel sad about it it's the result of loneliness/nobody goes outside anymore bc of the plague

not to be like "thing japan" but it really does feel like they're one of the few places that have "tribes" in subcultures, but i feel like like it's disappeared over there too. i mean jirai and mizuiro are one of the more recent subculture tribes i've seen that have like an actual life style

but also don't like that a lot of aesthetic obsession is rooted in consumerist fomo shit. like i know cari's literally got the word "consumerist" in the group title but i'm talking more about the people that latch onto it rather than the people cataloguing things in earnest.

dead ass don't know if it's just the adhd that made me like this or if it's a sprinkle of autism i guess the we'll never know

—i feel like ppl were a lot better at this. idk like i knew what showa era aesthetics were but i wasn't like "i drew 80s anime" and drew sailor moon

like i get it bc i am also the kind of mentally ill that needs to categorize and name everything but i at least tried to wrap my head around the "what" and "why" certain aesthetic subcultures pop appear and look for further context. idk maybe it's bc it's younger ppl but when i was a teenager—

i used to really fuck w CARI when they used to catalogue y2k stuff. aesthetics have always been categorized and named long after their due date but i think people see it as some holy aesthetic bible rather than a guide to direct you in the right direction for what you're looking for for.

i feel like the whole "this was the future we were promised" thing w fruity aero does hold some weight but it's been so memory holed that it's not even close to what people were thinking of initially.

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i had a dream about a really insane rick and morty episode but i have no idea how to write a spec script without it sounding like i'm trying to sneak a fetish in

parasoul voice: take the fuckin shot already please jesus christ

fuck man

very hard to keep going when your own idol says "it's fucking over" lol

haha genuinely making me think about doing it again

im watching old vods and got my set up is ASS and people were right i do sound like kroni which is like embarrassing

stop liking my post i watch monogatari uncritically get away from me

ok nobody has the capability to be nuanced about the censorship thing we should just start killing each other

true yea yea. but also im talking about race here because people only point out that one aspect of the phrasing and it feels very surface level

adding on to this to say: i don't think it's a white point bc "XD white women LOVE dogs" or something. i feel like zoo/pdfs are the only thing people bring up and never like snow bunny/spade shit or like just racist material in general. i mean it's a nuanced topic. whatever.

i see so many people that hate qos and make posts abt any idiot that's into it but they're like "yeah!! censorship bad!!!" actually have nuance or don't say anything at all

not to be friend that's too woke, but it's also like a very white point lol. like racism is taboo and has a right to be depicted but it enables racist people. and i feel like literally nobody wants to talk about that bc race is scary to talk about but w/e

we gotta retire this point. like i'm on your side but it's so black and white and ripe for whataboutisms and people that want to act nefariously will use this as an excuse.

i feel like anime girls are an entire gender on their own low key

I KNEW WATCHING MEZZO FORTE ON REPEAT WOULD BE WORTH SOMETHING

ngl i'm annoyed also bc it makes me go "huh? am i wasting my time? am i FOOLISH for enjoying this world as much as i did?" which is dumb. but also i think it's the mental illness the fear of losing interest in a hyper fixation is sooo scary lol

like i'm sorry i can't stand like queer dark fantasy players that mod like crazy bc they're always like "my version of the game story is superior :)" and making like a whole thread about how they're going to stop playing. like you are so dramatic and for what

i rlly need to block a bunch of niggas on here that play 14 bc they're all exhausting and annoying and like genuinely make me feel bad about having fun LMAO like that's on me but also like god. you guys are such fucking cops.