Millicent Malice

Been a while since I posted any art, here's a couple studies of my left hand

My hot take for todays discourse is that social media platforms are an absolutely terrible place for productive discussion, they incentivise hot takes and treating everything like a "debate." Folks needa remember that were all on the same side and are just trying to make things together.

I've never tried gouache before, I do love working with watercolours though!

What a lovely addition! thank you <3 What medium are you painting these with,its acryllic right?

found my metric copy of 453gof

unfortunately missing my post-it notes, but this is why uncoated paper is best, fuck glossy pages.

My hoop snake!

they're all so precious 🥺

# I DON'T CONSIDER YOU AN ENEMY. DO WE HAVE THAT IN COMMON? SO I HAVE THESE TWO MUSICAL PROJECTS, RIGHT. THEY'RE BOTH JUST ME BUT I GIVE THEM BAND NAMES BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT I'M LIKE. IF I DON'T SILO STUFF I CAN'T GET A SENSE OF IT. DON'T ASK ME HOW MANY SINGLE TOPIC TUMBLR ACCOUNTS I USED TO HAVE. THE PAST FEW YEARS I GUESS I'VE BEEN WORKING ON ADMITTING IT'S OK TO BE A FULL PERSON. IT TAKES TIME. ANYWAY, THESE TWO PROJECTS. ONE OF THEM IS CALLED *PEOPLE YOU MEET OUTSIDE OF BARS* BECAUSE THAT USED TO BE WHERE I MADE FRIENDS WHEN I DRANK & SMOKED. I KEEP IT NOW THAT I'M SOBER & DON'T SMOKE BECAUSE IT'S FUNNY TO ME THAT IT'S MORE LITERALLY TRUE THAN EVER. YEAH MAN; I'M OUTSIDE OF THE BARS. LIKE... WAY WAY OUTSIDE. THE OTHER ONE IS CALLED *PILOTING THE ANIMAL* BECAUSE ONE TIME I WAS LOSING MY MIND AT WORK & COMPLAINED ABOUT "HAVING TO PILOT THE ANIMAL OF MY BODY" & MY COWORKER THOUGHT IT SOUNDED COOL. IT DOES SOUND COOL. PLUS IT'S AN ONGOING PROBLEM OF MINE (THE PILOTING, THE ANIMAL, ETC).

THE FIRST ONE, *PEOPLE YOU MEET OUTSIDE OF BARS*, IS ALL ABOUT PRECISE LYRICISM & MINIMALIST SOUNDS. THE OTHER ONE, *PILOTING THE ANIMAL*, IS ALL ABOUT ABSTRACT FEELINGS & DISTORTION. BOTH OF THEM ARE BASICALLY ABOUT UNZIPPING MY BELLY & HOLDING THE FLESH OPEN FOR YOU TO PERUSE. LIBERATION: THIS PERFECT MACHINE. LOOK HOW IT WORKS TOGETHER. EVERY DAY IT KEEPS ME GOING. THE RHYTHM OF THE HEART & THE LUNGS. AWED, ADMIRING: IF ANYTHING WERE ANY DIFFERENT IT WOULD FALL APART. LIBERATION: THE FUCKING MESS OF IT. BARELY HELD TOGETHER. EVERY DAY I DRAG IT FORWARD. THE DRIP OF THE BLOOD & THE OTHER FLUIDS. DISGUSTED, DESPERATE: IF ANYTHING WERE ANY DIFFERENT IT WOULD FALL APART. I'VE EXISTED IN SCENES MUSICALLY WHERE PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT BUT EQUALLY STRONG OPINIONS ABOUT WHICH ONE IS COOLER. I'VE LET MYSELF FEEL SHAME OVER THIS BEFORE. THE PAST FEW YEARS THOUGH I'VE BEEN WORKING ON ADMITTING IT'S OK TO BE A FULL PERSON. I WENT TO A MEETING OF THE SATANIC TEMPLE SOBRIETY FACTION & I PLAYED MY LITTLE UKULELE DURING AN ART SHARE & EVERYONE WAS HONESTLY VERY NICE. THAT'S SORT OF THE JOB AT THOSE MEETINGS. YOU SHOW UP. YOU ACCEPT OTHER PEOPLE. IT'S CHILL. LIKE YOU PROTECT YOURSELF & YOU DON'T TAKE SHIT BUT YOU SHOW UP & YOU ACCEPT OTHER PEOPLE & IT'S CHILL.

THE HEALTHIEST SCENES IN MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE HAVE BEEN THE ONE WHERE I COULD PLAY AS BOTH BANDS ON THE SAME BILL BECAUSE THE MAIN THING THAT DRIVES STUFF IS "ARE YOU FULL-THROATEDLY MAKING THE THING YOU WANT TO BE MAKING? DO YOU MEAN IT? IF YOU FUCKING MEAN IT, THEN WE'LL ALL GET ON BOARD." EVEN IF IT'S NOT MY THING. EVEN IF I KIND OF HATE IT OR I THINK IT'S BORING. I TRULY JUST CARE THAT YOU MEAN IT. OTHER THAN THAT I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. EVEN WITH THAT, I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. YOU DON'T HAVE TO MEAN IT. YOU KNOW? I JUST WON'T CARE. YOU CAN'T MAKE ME CARE IF YOU DON'T MEAN IT. FOR BETTER OR WORSE I COMPARE INDIE TTRPGS TO INDIE MUSIC SCENES A LOT. I THINK ABOUT HOW THE GOOD MUSIC SCENES I'VE BEEN IN HAVE BEEN DEFINED BY ACTUALLY LISTENING TO EACH OTHER. AT LEAST ONCE. OR EVEN JUST AT SHOWS YOU ONLY GO TO BECAUSE IT MEANS SOMETHING TO GO TO SHOWS. I THINK ABOUT HOW IT WOULD GET NOTICED WHEN PEOPLE ONLY MAKE IT TO THE VENUE FOR SHOWS THEY'RE PLAYING. I THINK ABOUT HOW ME & THE BANDS WHO ARE REALLY TRYING TO SELL YOU SOMETHING-- FOR WHOM THEE POINT IS SELLING SOMETHING-- ARE ABLE TO JUST KIND OF AVOID EACH OTHER. I THINK ABOUT SHOWS WHERE I MADE NO MONEY THAT RESTORED MY LIFE FORCE & SHOWS WHERE I MADE SOME MONEY THAT ONLY DRAINED IT.

ONLINE IS HARDER. AND THE INDIE TTRPG SCENE IS YOUNG, IN RELATIVE TERMS, AT THIS SCALE. I THINK THINGS WILL GET BETTER. I WISH THAT EVERYONE WOULD STICK IT THROUGH TO SEE THAT HAPPEN BUT I GET WHY THEY WOULDN'T? YOU KNOW? IT FEELS SO STUPID SOMETIMES TO BE SOMEONE WHO LOVES GAMES WHEN PEOPLE WHO ALSO LOVE GAMES SO FREQUENTLY WANT TO SAY THAT GAMES CAN ONLY BE ONE THING & IT HAPPENS COINCIDENTALLY TO BE THE THING THAT THEY MAKE. WEIRD HOW THAT WORKS. I THINK YOU CAN DO ANYTHING BADLY OR WELL. I THINK YOU SHOULD MAKE THE BEST VERSION OF THE THING YOU'RE MAKING. I THINK YOU SHOULD LEARN FROM OTHER PEOPLE BUT YOU DON'T ALWAYS HAVE TO LISTEN TO THEM. I THINK YOU DON'T HAVE TO TAKE WRITING ADVICE FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE SURPRISED WHEN THE TAKEAWAY FROM STUFF THEY SAY IS BASED ON THE THINGS THEY SAID INSTEAD OF THINGS THEY DIDN'T SAY. I THINK MOST PEOPLE SHOULD BE QUICKER TO ASSUME THEY MIGHT BE WRONG. I THINK IT'S BIZARRE TO TRY TO WIN CONVERSATIONS ABOUT GAMES THAT USUALLY DON'T HAVE A WIN STATE. I THINK YOU SHOULD LET YOURSELF HAVE FEELINGS THAT YOU DON'T INTELLECTUALISE INTO BEING ABOUT A MOVEMENT. TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT. DON'T WORRY ABOUT WHAT I WANT. JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT. IT'S OK TO BE A FULL PERSON. I'VE BEEN WORKING ON ADMITTING THAT TO MYSELF. I FIND IT EASY TO RECOGNISE ABOUT YOU, THOUGH. MAYBE YOU FEEL THE SAME ABOUT ME.

I DON'T CONSIDER YOU AN ENEMY

those lyrics remind me a bit of the poetry I like to write!

I've found Atkinson hyperlegible to help me a tonne, its designed for people with vision issues, but the design principles they have work similarly.

There really is just so much magic anf wonder in cold winters like that. Another of my favourites is the way thick layers of snow make everything nice and quiet

Those times can still be found in dark times like this, however fleeting they may be.

seeing freezing rain for the first time was such an alien experience for me as an Aussie.

woah I'd never thought of doing that, genius idea!

I use a weird mix of vim and a nextcloud backup, keeps an online accessible version that I can use the nextcloud app to access. It's a very wierd and niche setup that takes a little work to get used to.

A week left to get @lukegearing.bsky.social's glass men in the bundle!

LOGIC - Sometimes a kebab is just a kebab.

I know so many people whose lives were changed by this film, an absolutely incredible watch.

huh they added some new elves since I last played, I was talking about the sin'dorei, my preferred race

This hit like a fucking truck...

dont forget about the elf trees and corrupted elves (well related)

the cover feels like a threat

Three of these make up the vast majority of time I've spent playing games in my life.

I also lost my curls when I started hrt, apparently my hair just likes to change.

I was similar! born with golden-brown hair that grew darker over the years until it became borderline black

I'm kinda a beginner artist without a proper portfolio, could I send you some of my work in a DM?

shoukda just had the fuckin referendum by now

They require a license to kill to use more than a pinch of chilli, even if I have a spice license :(

I'm at the fucked up part of applying for my English passport where they make me revoke my license to use spices in my cooking.