mars

i feel so wildly apathetic towards everything

its sad but i havent hung out with anyone irl in so longg,,,,super nervous ill seem weird or speak/act wrong

first social event at my house in idek how long... im nervoussss

ahhh bpd episode its been a while

i have no need or interest to beat the dead horse, esp on main. but i be observing 👁 ppl arent gonna forget what u did !!

its funny seeing this dude come back & claim they were in rehab for months when theyve just been moving accounts/alias frequently to dodge the gross things they did 👍👍

idk every couple months i just get hit with unimaginable grief and cant help but sob. i wish i could hold her again

its been almost 4 years and i still miss her soooo much.

like idk i dont rlly offer much. i can make a silly joke but thats it. i often dont know how to comfort people & struggle to keep a conversation going

in one of those moods where i feel like everyone just kinda tolerates me and thats it

back to square 1 awesome i love being crushed by the weight that i may need to give up on the life i have now i hate this

idk why its so hard for me to just be a normal person. idk why i struggle so much. i wish i wasnt built wrong

i cant even be upset abojt it its entirely my fault

why must i eventually self sabotage every friendship i have

im grumpy for no good reason & idk how to fix it

a person is sitting on a blue couch with a shadow of a person on it . ALT: a person is sitting on a blue couch with a shadow of a person on it .

haiii lazy pinned post. ill make a better one l8r

my name is MARS and dis is my vent account. i ramble abt whatever sad thoughts are on my noggin

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