Em Dee Kay

The urge for an orchi is growing due to increasing t levels and terrible hrt swings

“Nothing finer then a good old dysphoria induced depression “
-mark twain, c1776

Here’s a first for me:

Found out I’ll be getting laid….. off in about 6 months from my company.

Still no drinking for me and I’m surprisingly taking this well.

Freedom and fresh start when I’m transitioning is a bit serendipitous to be my authentic self.

🙏🩷 Ty!

I’ve been sober for two weeks. The mental clarity has returned, my puffiness and bloating is going down, it’s getting easier to look in the mirror.

Honestly three weeks ago I’d not think I would make it this far.

Not out of the woods yet but seeing the light, a bit.

Really challenged my nascent sobriety and I managed to stay dry.

Nothing like some good old dysphoria self hatred to power my day. Can only hope the sleep and a meditation and a book will help end this two day streak

I know it’s a big adjustment for my partner to see me presenting as femme as I can but at some point her anxiety will settle right?

*sighs *. At least I’m sober 7 days!

Fuck dysphoria and my problem face. I can’t stand to see myself or be seen and I just feel so wrong.

Signaling 6 more hours of waiting in airport security

Too many bar graphs for a 9/11 meme but it’s got promise

I’m not sure the servers can handle the intense heat from the memes.

I admit this is a good one

Aside from being open and honest with my partner about my struggles and why I’ve been drinking, the choices and availability of non alcohol beer is a godsend.

Seltzer water with the hops 0.0% alcohol. Hot stormy day like today it was perfect, and I remember my evening.

One day at a time… but Friday morning I poured out the rest of my scotch.

My mental clarity is starting to bounce back. My bloat is de-bloating. Im not in a constant state of dysphoria.

Im present for my family.

This feels nice. This is what I want.

Pumpkin pussy and photoshopped hands gaping

When you’re standing in line waiting to buy a tv at Best Buy and you check BlueSky

I love the affirmations of doing my hair well, it’s just really awkward when your partner and kid ignore it and don’t give any.

My feed is contradictory but I spent a very cold NYE playing uncharted 2 waiting for the plumber to fix my
Furnace.

These motherfuckers are so dense and stupid they still use words like everyone, people, etc… and are upset at pronouns.

My most nihilistic self says this is not even the nadir before society resets, but I don’t think I’ll finish my life not worried about being erased anymore.will be a final thought

Doesn’t help I’ve dreamt of looking like an adorable snow bunny when skiing and things just get worse from there

Show me a picture on your phone that has your energy - no selfies

…the fuck is penis plaque?

Lol

Not crazy this is putting interstate travel for women at risk. Jesus.

I always appreciated his guitar virtuosity, and that is a talent with no leaning it’s a pure ability to play that instruments, but it’s time to move on.

At least I can close that chapter in my music fan life.

Layla, cross roads and bell bottom blues are incredible but I’d love someone to cover them and we can forget about the original.

It’s never close enough, that’s where it is.

While vegan I’m propound of how well I could cook a steak back in the day. the art form of cooking steak perfectly is a combination of cooking methods and searing.

J Jonah Jameson laughing

Shipping companies about to quote your urgent needs:

I love insane logistics costs

I’m oddly curious at how expensive that was after having had to overnight laptops to some crazy places lol