20260218 Failed to animate in isometric, tileset not lining up, tormented by many reasons to not post my creations. Still switching protag-antags around to solve narrative errors. Luckily, Chimera_Gaming (reddit) gifted a BoF4 game to me, helps me study what I don't want my story to be about. STRESS
20251121 Can I keep these characters in my pocket just a little while longer? Memories of having my arts flung, smashed, laughed at while erasing, taken behind my back to unintentionally say I'm OCD. I only want to doodle like a caveman, leaving chalk drawings where only I know where to find them.
20250912 My eyes & spine hurt less. Some arm tremors but regained a finer grip over pen. This char kept photobombing other chars who are still under stressful redesign. It makes me smile every time I walk by this shot of them getting along together & goofing, life feels lighter with them around.
20250825 Happy National Day SG! I ate well for 2mths with new gov vouchers designed to support small neighborhood businesses. I have more energy to draw and solve narrative problems faster. Somehow, this dragon ended up crucial to the main cast which I'm uncomfortable about posting. Good Headache?
20250515 My tiny brain is imploding from adding, breaking and fixing concepts repeatedly. An utter inexperience in writing a story-ending in order to be seen as a complete work by others... I've been drawing to understand life, perhaps now I just want to be understood as having once been alive.
20250510 Managed to link up the underlying character motives more by repeatedly chopping down project scope. Keep it Simple. Yet unable to disconnect this side story from another over-arching story (which hasn't found a safe place to share). Waiting for health is like "waiting for Godot".
20250424 My physical health flip-flopped back to sitting up enough that my pen digs and scratches less into my tablet. Resolved some chaotic narrative themes under these 2 besties by slowly drawing an interaction scene. If I can't write stories then I will draw them as always. Life is Short!
20250419 Failed to create a game again. I do enjoy drawing these characters since creating them in 2020616 but they just can't seem to write themselves as comic or game. I'm loving this new bubbly pixel animation style that I've finally figured out. My physical health is still my biggest agony.
Promised myself to downsize my art styles and post some doodles this March 2025, to stop my spiral down "why post when anyone can just do a better job after I've done the tedious trail and errors?" Used to be able to study, work, gift art away for empty likes, and take a walk.
"ζθ±δΈη°οΌζζε°ε θ½." - ζ’ιθΉ
Concept Poster of characters that I've been working on fulltime since 20240628. Should I include the years of childish doodles, researches, rewrites, redesigns since I've played BoFIII? Fleeting ideas I've always held so tightly in my own personal collections. Trapped by my need to create.
Relearning Godot engine now that 4.0 is stable. Finally getting a hang of building tilemaps with my own concepts from scratch while figuring out how to juggle my body defects and damages enough to work more instead of curling on the floor for 20hrs/day. Posting this tiny progress to cheer myself on.
