Parker

My asexual ass after many chapters of will they, won’t they and they finally do: WAIT, NOW??

There’s just something about having a character in a show with my name that makes me so happy. It’s weird euphoria to hear it over and over again. On days when I have doubts that my name fits it’s like a balm to my soul ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #nonbinaryfeels #chosenname

The more money I find myself having definitely adds to my dissatisfaction with my life. I always thought having financial security would help and it does help the anxiety but fuck, it also makes me wanna quit my job and run away

You know your living situation isn’t great when you dread going inside after work and you just sit in your car until the music stops playing 🙃

But now I’m anxious 😕 like is this going to be a problem at some point? Is he gonna talk shit about me behind my back? Ugh I hate that I care when I don’t want to at ALL

Nothing like finding out the other supervisor who just started is bigoted when talking to another supervisor told her that he didn’t get my whole thing and he questions what I’ve “got going on” I clock as a butch lesbian & have just let people think that bc it’s easier and I don’t owe them anything

I totally think I broke my parents shades while stoned and didn’t realize it until right at this moment when my dad is struggling to fix it 🤣🤣 I will NOT be owning up to it even as he mumbles, “I don’t even know how you would accomplish that” lmfao me either dude me either

Not me getting anxious to go see my therapist that I love and appreciate 🙃 therapy is just always like minutes beforehand me thinking about emailing to cancel 🙈

Literally sitting in my new space that I have to live in for at least a year and said, out loud, “I’d like to go home now.”
So I’m doing really really well 🙃

I cried so hard this morning that I threw up so 0/10 not having a good time 🫠

Like where did that even come from? It came out of my mouth so fast that I didn’t fully process it until I walked away. And I really don’t know why I didn’t just say “nothing” lol like why lie at all???

I dont want to admit that Im movin back in with my parents for a year so when people ask me what Im up to these days - I just lie. Not to the important people in my life but to my coworkers.
Them: what’re u doin this weekend?
Me, internally: packing
Me, really: helpin my bro move
Also me: wat 😅

It’s days like today where I ask myself if the pay is worth my mental health. And honestly, the more times I ask it, the more often I feel like I need to quit. If not quit, at least step down and deal with the consequences in pay scale

Dr Oak from Pokemon Snap saying "Get up and go do wonders! That's what scares them more than anything else!"

As an ace person who keeps wondering about being aromantic, I’m just constantly watching romances and wishing i could have that human connection, the human experience. I feel like I’m missing out. At least Heartstopper had some Issac moments to remind me that there’s nothing wrong with me

I stopped looking into top surgery after realizing that things might go terribly wrong for trans folks soon. Since I don’t want to transition, after a point I’ll no longer be cis passing and even though that’s what I want, I’m scared of what my safety will look like

Them: what kind of music do you listen to?
Me, not wanting to explain what K-pop is: uhhh I’m really into pop punk mostly 🤔
Them: makes sense
Me, internally: does it?

Was supposed to help my brother move stuff today but now he’s working so I’m not sure what to do with myself now 🙃 my brain does not adjust to changes like this very well at all

I am having decision fatigue. I’m tired of making decisions, I want someone else to take the reins. I think it’s harder now that I’m a supervisor because I just make decisions all damn day and then I’ve gotta make big decisions in my personal life??? Leave me alone 😭😭😭

Happy holidays…was just told that I’ll be moving in two months lmfao so that’s amazing. I’m panicked 😱

That feel when you aren’t sure if your voice sounds off because you’re getting sick or if it’s the second puberty 🤔

Nothing says “don’t go to work” quite like the other supervisor calling off 😭

Felt that!! I thought it was going to be fanfic territory of omegaverse. But no, just a paranormal story! Not that it was bad, but just categorized wrong by the internet lol

As an asexual person I can’t tell when I like someone & I haven’t liked anyone for a really long time. Mostly I spend a lot of time wondering what it really means to like someone & if I truly do or if I simply am lonely & forcing myself because I know someone likes
/me/ and the door is already open

I’ve spent money really recklessly recently 😅 1) for the serotonin and 2) because I didn’t know my life would go south for a hot minute 🙃😬

I just like having a plan, ya know? When people say just lemme know when youre up and ready to go. Dude, I wake up sometimes at like 5am. And other times I’ll stay up late and sleep in. This depends greatly on the plan for the following day. My brain requires more info than this. Like thnx I hate it

First day back after getting food poisoning for two days and I made someone cry 🙃 so that’s cool 🤗

Got a new tattoo 🩶
He’s just a lil guy ✨

Me, looking for haircut reference photos on Pinterest: 😳 these are all actors from Asian dramas I watch 🤣

And people think media doesn’t influence you 😅