Musings of a Fluffy Orb

// mh -

Almost as if the peaks and troughs have increased in magnitude.

// mh -

Maybe it's the time change though I've been feeling this way for a while and now it seems like it's gotten worse. ._.

// mh -

euhh. Feeling burnt out again and it sucks.

// ph -

May have hit my left elbow on the thinner mat while doing a break fall in karate class and now it's aching quite a bit 😖

// ph +

Bit the bullet and got an ankle compress sleeve for my left foot.. I can walk a lot better now!

// ph - mh -

Left foot hurt & demotivated, what else is new

A page from a book of poetry titled “searching for myself”: be yourself so the people looking for you can find you

Be genuine

// mh -

Still feeling crummy.. 😟

Especially to those of you that have went for months (or years, even) without conversation and still see me as a friend, thank you 🥺💖

So uh, this may sound a bit sappy wappy but thanks to all of you who still think of me, I see you and appreciate you; I'm sorry for being so boring fgdfhghjf

// mh -

I will admit, I feel like I've stagnated significantly in recent years. The conversational ability I had prior to my college dropout has diminished. I've also been having trouble maintaining friendships. Staying relevant, especially.

// mh -

Ah yes, the question of the night: is it the fact I've expended a lot of energy at work today or the occasional depressive thoughts resurfacing again

But alas, the show must go on

// mh-

Especially with all the times I put myself in front of my phone or pen display tablet, the drive to make art feels almost.. nonexistent

// mh -

Been feeling largely uninspired, focusing a lot more toward work + financial stuff more than usual lately

// mh -

Was about to go into some depressive rambling but stopped myself bc I'm tired and probably shouldn't trust any nighttime thoughts after 9pm

// mh -

It's gotten to the point where phone reminders mean jack unless I can follow my routine uninterrupted and, lately, it's been the opposite

// mh -

Though I think it's mostly bc of the fact I forgot to take bupro for two consecutive days

// mh -

About to fall into a certain rabbit hole of existentiality

// ph ~

So it may have not been a cold but rather a bad GERD episode? Which I addressed in the worst possible way btw (cough syrup) so I'm paying the price for it but starting to feel a lot better now. Ginger peach tea to the rescueeee

// ph -

Oogh, I think I made a good decision on skipping class for tonight. Here comes the low fever.

"Ah, now that's a convenient domain hack for very cheap, what's the catch--"
*Domain contact information must be made public, no WHOIS data privacy services can be used*
"Ah."

Also that was only the rear brake pads; I did the front ones this X-Mas Day and it's all done now :>

Mine wasn't very much but hope y'all are having a Merry X-Mas Day

// ~

Did DIY brake pad replacement successfully today and I feel like noodles rn but at least I can drive my car more comfortably now yayyyy

// mh +

Actually. It will happen. That's my mentality going forward. Even if I have to drop one for the other. Even if I'm told "no." I just need to advocate for myself. That's my resolution going into next year. I will drop the midwest a visit.

// kink ment

Just ordered some self-indulgent clone TF art 😈

Esta bien hasta ahora. Estoy practicar los básicos. Quiero ser más fluidez en el futuro.

Picked up Bu/su/u recently bc trying to resume my Spanish studies..

// mh ~

It's the least I can do, especially considering I was allowed to fly to Louisiana on my own this year for a seminar.