Laurel Lavandulla

This is an obligatory Birdo appreciation post. ❤️

*oh*

A 3d print of an opossum screaming at his own ass. It is balanced on my fingertip as its less than a centimetre big.

You can do a lot of things with a 3D printer. One of those things is print out incredibly tiny opossums.

I don't know what I'm gonna do with it but it is now a thing I have (until I inevitably lose it 45 seconds after writing this post).

a view of the earth from space with clouds and trees ALT: a view of the earth from space with clouds and trees

Sometimes you have introspection and therapy and work on yourself, and some days you just wanna be orange juice instead. I get it.

The death thing does kind of amuse me a bit. Two car accidents I should have died in I walked away from. Hypothermia. Heatstroke. Severe fever(s). A few tumbles that should have killed me but just banged me up. And some others that are more... Content warningy.

I think that's a thing to hold on to. Most of my life sucked. I went hungry a lot. Shitty family. Homeless for a bit and had to couch surf. But things mostly turned out ok if you ignore the giant hole labeled "dead wife".

I'm surviving; I brushed death another time. Someday it'll be ok again.

These are all valid things, and I do my relationships a disservice by second guessing the choices other people make for them.

As miserable as things can be, a certain peace has taken root in me. A sort of polite acceptance that somehow grew from a crack in deep sorrow. >

And, you know, that's pretty stupid of me to have that insecurity. People see shards of me or masks I put up, and that's good enough for them to accept me. Some people like me because I'm sometimes charming and funny, others because I'm blunt. Some people like me because I used to draw big butts.>

She was the one person who really saw all of me, even the parts that suck, and just rolled with it. I teeter constantly on the fear that I'm just weird enough that all of my friends will leave, even the ones who are also weirdoes. I can meet people, but keeping them is difficult. >

Things would be very different and difficult for me if I had never met Moredena (or I met her earlier in life, when I was more of a shithead), and while losing her is indescribably awful, she made me be better in almost every way.>

It's the middle of the night, which means I'm being introspective in very stupid ways.

Like, despite how shit my life is at the moment, it could be measurably worse. People care about me, I can depend on my found family and community, and my kid is awesome.>

Meme. A Sailor Moon type anime girl in a giant shopping cart. Text reads "If you see someone stealing food, no you didn't"

Weiter sagen!

There's layers of tragedy and I think it's important to separate them. Some are immediate and horrific and leave a mark forever. Others are passing and are easy enough to get through. It's subjective in most cases.

I'm posting this because I dropped my vape in the tub. Not sure which applies.

TIME IS AS FAKE AS MONEY AND BEING "IN TROUBLE" BUT IT STILL RUNS THE WHOLE DAMB PLANET, WE ALLOWED AN ABSTRACT IDEA TO HOOK US TO A CELESTIAL PLOW AND TURN THE SOIL OF OUR LIFES, JUST BECUASE YOU INVENTED A CLOCK DONT MEAN THAT TIME IS REAL, CHUCK E. CHEESE TOKENS AINT LEGAL TENDER AT THE BANK SO WHY ARE WE LETTIN MINUTES AND SECOND'S IMPRISON US!!! WE ARE ETERNAL BEINGS AND WE ARE ALSO FUCKING TIRED FROM THE CLOCKS CHANGING FOR BASICLY NO REASON, ANY WAY THE TEXT SAYS "ENTIRE BODY AND MINED RUINED BY ONE HOUR TIME CHANGE, I HATE TIME, AWAKE IN BED LATE, LEG HURTS, ON EDGE BUT ALSO TIRED, HUNGRY AT 10AM, HUNGRY AT 1PM ALSO, ALSO AWAKE IN BED EARLY " YOU WOULD THINK IT WOULD BE ONE OR THE OTHER BUT NOPE AWAKE ON BOTH ENDS OF BED TIME, THERE IS NO JUSTICE ON THIS PRISON PLANET, WERE JUST MAKIN THE LICENSE PLATES - DASHARE.ZONE ADMIN

I HATE TIME - dashare.zone ADMIN

a screenshot of the music video Planet of the Bass, it has a man in a white outfit and angel wings, a woman in a robe and a crown, the caption reads "Women are my favorite guy"

happy international women's day to all my international women

Yeah, it happened on more than a few occasions to my late wife. She was cute and easy to get along with and kind of nonconfrontational. Way too many people took that as an invitation.

So, uh, idk, go give $20 and a thank you to a woman and/or afab person in furry who makes a thing you like, be it art or suits or writing or helps run a convention or whatever. They made your life better, it's the least you can do.

I'm not really going anywhere with this, maybe just something to be mindful of. A lot of the people who provide furry with its incredibly important visual element are women and/or afab. We wouldn't have this without their input and creativity. The fandom wouldn't be the same.>

Obviously I'm glossing over a lot since this is a social media post; there's a ton of intersectional stuff that is involved as well but I'm speaking broadly and regarding this one part of the rubric. >

There's also the issue of women getting creeped on/harassed/assaulted in fandom spaces and more often than not they have to pay the price for it and not the asshole who initiated it.>

It's a lot better than it used to be, but I still see women having to 'earn their keep' in the same ways I see in mainstream society. They have to be pretty or draw or build suits or do something else and even then... They have to work to be valid and can't just show up like a dude can.>

Outside of artistic roles of various types there was a definite vibe that girls really weren't allowed. I saw a lot of misogyny that took the form of exclusion & body shaming that would have a veneer of gay boy sass over it.>

When I started in fandom there was a definite divide in people who made stuff vs general fandom population. I know the lines for that in furry are soft and blurry by default but it was there. Most of the general pop was cis dudes. You didn't really find women at cons unless they had a table.>

So, it's International Woman's Day. One of the things in furry that doesn't get acknowledged enough imo is the volume of artists that are women and/or afab. Like, it's better than it used to be but I've been here for a while.>

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#art #digitalart #anthro #furry #bird

The bnnuy has been framed...

Hyden belongs to @chocodile.net

This Print survived a Con, Moving from Virginia to Alabama...

And now he has a home on my wall soon enough :] where I can admire his greatness foreverrrr

Drawing someone's fursona is a type of love normies will never experience

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