i really want to practice anatomy for poses and to practice drawing backgrounds.
the drawings don't have to be finished, but need to give me an understanding of the shapes of what i draw.
it'll help me with drawing my own characters more.
so, i hope to stream that progress!
this year, i am going to try and stream daily as soon as i'm back from japan (and recovered from jetlag of course).
why daily? i want to practice art, and this is something i want to document to see if i improve bit by bit.
they'll be sketches only, though.
i had fun times with my friends too, and was glad to have spend time with them, bit by bit.
for 2026, i want to continue losing weight, work on my art and i do want to get better at being social. i need to at least try.
but first, i have a trip to look forward to!
why wasn't it all bad? well, i prepared a trip for 2026. it motivated me to lose weight, and i succeeded too. while i'm not at my ideal weight yet, i'm glad i managed to go from 107 kg to 86 kg.
i met streamers i follow and it was fun seeing them!
2025 brought a lot of concerns for me. i was at risk of losing my house, had to deal with some health issues and i saw friends having a hard time.
i learnt a lot about myself that year, my own shortcomings, and yet, it wasn't all bad.
wishing everyone a happy new year!
sorry for yesterday's rambling. they're genuine feelings i have, and just acknowledging my own shortcomings.
i know i need to work on being more social, it's just very exhausting at times.
i'll see if i can find a way to do so.
i just wonder why this is the case... it makes me sad. but i also don't know what to do.
i get drained so easily from seeing how i can't grow as an artist... and i don't feel support at all from my friends too... it's why i barely post anything.
i hear them talk about other artists, hearing how people should support them, but i never am mentioned. i always have to speak up and then they go 'oh yeah, you draw too.'. it's always been like that, and i kinda wish it wasn't like that at all.
i feel drawing is a wasted talent on me. i'm shy, i'm easily nervous, i can't grow as a creator because of it.
it's even harder now with ai ruining things.
but even then, it always feels like i'll be second choice, even to my friends.
hope it's ok to vent a bit.
for years, well, i never really got my art out there for people to see.
even here, friends i know don't even share or like my art, which lowers my growth even more.
to the point i get exhausted to post anything.
art sheet for one of the critters i drew! they're based on the gummy shark candies!
#art #smallartist
cat distribution system is doing its job.
loving the dlc to shiny hunt in XD that's the most shinies in a row i got of a single species!
already there, give back my nuggies now! D8 i'm hungry!
i haven't posted much here, sorry about that!
i didn't stream much lately too. next year i want to change that starting april.
i kinda just want to go back to my roots, drawing pokemon and my own characters for a bit.
so i want to stream that!
forgot to post here, but good news, i'm able to keep my house!! super happy about that!
i'm just glad that i no longer have to stress anymore about that, and now i can go on my trip to japan without any worries!
i can finally focus on good things!
Going live, doing art!
twitch.tv/dergontails
#twitch #live #stream #smallstreamer
i won't be streaming pokemon legends ZA until i finished a playthrough myself.
why?
well, one fear of mine is having someone ruin the vibe with spoilers, and with some people hating on nintendo so badly that they want to ruin it for others, yeah... i don't wanna risk it.
i'll draw today though.
i do feel bad for the pokemon devs with the leaks for upcoming years of content being dumped like that...
it's a shame someone does stuff like this... for what, some likes?
i just hope this won't discourage the devs to keep trying their best.
by stuff, i mean art, pictures, just things i feel like sharing.
i've been working on some fursuit stuff, just waiting for more fabric to arrive, hopefully i can get things done before end october.
just to clarify that i won't be a content creator. it'll always be just a hobby to stream things.
i just wanna have fun, play stuff i wanna play. it's why there's no set schedule, my health wouldn't allow it anyway.
that said, i'm aware i should post a bit more stuff here.
sorry about that.
however if we can't get to an agreement, he can force it to become a trial at court because we can't agree to anything, and the house gets sold fully, aka my side gets sold too, and i'd end up homeless.
so, yeah, that's why i'm stressed.
short description of what's going on:
my brother and i inherited the house mom had (she passed away in 2019). i caught him taking narcotics two years ago and he went no contact, breaking ties. now he wants his part of the house. we're discussing the price for it.
sorry for being a bit silent.
the day got delayed to 29th of october, so i'm pretty much unmotivated lately.
the reason it stressed me out is because it has an impact on my life if things don't go well, aka i can end up homeless.
just got to hope for the best.
10 days until i know if i have to move or can stay at my current house.
it's very stressful and honestly scary.
i'll manage, hopefully, but if you wonder why i'm not posting much or not streaming, that's why.
might not stream for a bit longer than expected.
i'm currently having a lot of stress and it has an effect on my sleep. stress mostly because of irl stuff, both personal and the world situation...
so yeah, i'm under a lot of stress...
had to take a week off. yes i was playing silksong. no i didn't get stuck in bilewater.
going to do some shiny hunts next week, though, and some more hollow knight because i really love the game.
aside from that, i'm almost done with making some stuff for my costume!
no stream today, gonna watch people play silksong and finish some dlc in a game. just wanna relax today tbh.
also, dad's getting a new kitten tomorrow, so i'm excited to meet the new cat!
You know the drill, going live again!
I swear I'll beat the Mantis Lords this time!
First playthrough btw.
twitch.tv/dergontails
#twitch #stream #live #smallstreamer #hollowknight
Going live once again with Hollow Knight!
Yeah, I won't be able to beat it before Silksong, but we'll finish it before diving into the sequel this week!
Come join!
twitch.tv/dergontails
#twitch #live #stream #smallstreamer #hollowknight
