Soledad

It doesnt always have to be murder but we do have examples of extreme shit like that.

At least the purge movies were fun.

I miss when the purge movies first came out. So many people insisted they would never give in to mob mentalities.

There's a lot of situations where people did things in groups because they thought they were right.

It was once again saying that my story and ocs sucked. Even though it was a very random thing that happened the day before. For fun. No where near fleshed out.

They just had to fix it for me I guess.

They ended up accusing me of doing things with my ocs without asking if it would affect their oc. Despite their oc never being in that scenario in the first place.

They did this often.

Weird thing to remember this morning but there was a time where a friend of mine just kinda inserted their oc into a story without asking me. They wrote a whole thing and sent it to me.

I remember they got so mad at me over it because I wasnt excited.

This mindset isn't new but the behavior is.

I wish I remembered what I did before I followed shitty advice.

This group is making me worse and encouraging shitty behavior. I was doing much better on my own.

Im glad we all have trauma responses with similar symptoms. Thats really cool. Glad it helps other people. Power of friendship.

Sometimes people actually are being controlling and they're just getting clocked by someone who snapped.

Good intentions dont change the consequences.

Someone who feels like they have zero control in their life and you decide to take action for them. Thats not helping, thats controlling. Thats how it gets translated in their head.

I am so fascinated by how so many cptsd people keep saying how their friends try to help but it ends up hurting them more.

I dont understand how people dont recognize why thats hurting someone with cptsd.

Rereading berserk always ends up with me going, "wait i dont remember this happening" whenever I get to the Lost children's arc.

Ryu and Chun Li also showed up and they looked sick as fuck.

Lil batman ran out from behind my car, struck a pose with a crooked as mask and just, "Im batman." Then he stared at me for a full 30 seconds until his older siblings showed up.

This does not apply to trick or treaters. I spent $142 on candy for them.

If im posting its because I didnt schedule at least 1 hour of blair witch time and Im trapped in a situation where I have to be a normal person.

Anytime I start to spiral I put myself in the corner and tell people I need to blair witch for a bit.

If I dont stand in that corner in the dark and in complete silence for a couple hours, I also will die. From stress.

This is after I told someone that I legitimately forgot two years had passed and got confused as to why I had blocked my "friend".

I dont know what im doing differently irl that makes people think im 100% fine.

Showing irl people this thread so they understand why im shocked when they say "you have your mental health in order" or in anyway see me as a role model for mental health.

You would be shocked how often I hear it.

At this point im so sick of people deciding shit for me that I would rather crash and burn if it means I was able to choose for myself.

Sure consequences but the joy I feel knowing it was my choice, even if it was stupid, is more than enough.

If you wanna help someone with cptsd, show them that they have the choice. Let them fail and and dont punish them for it.

Stop trying to save them. You dont get to choose for them. All you can do is be there. Thats it.

I hate to say it but it really is similar to getting an animal to trust you.

What happened with me was that someone decided that my boundaries were not realistic, so they instead reinforced my beliefs that were created by trauma. Which made it worse because they fed into a delusional mindset.

Im not surprised im not special in this situation but this is exactly what I was telling people. Getting advice, telling me its not that bad or forcing me to face it is going to make it worse.

There's good intentions but really devastating consequences that most people are unable to help with.

Anyway, I have to depersonalize shit so I'm looking at it from an outside perspective.

Its a really bad idea to tell someone is not a big deal, or try to force them to face the reality of the situation if they have cptsd. You are unknowingly unleashing hell.

The first time I tried to look into cptsd I felt so damn helpless. The way people talk about it makes it sound like you might as well give up.
Which is stupid cause Im busy.

Leopold
October 27, 2025

Idk maybe its not a good time for me to be in the support group yet. I still have dumb shit to deal with in my own life.

Joining a cptsd support group was great in theory.

I do not like the constant reminder of "you will never get better and all you can do is slow the decent into unbearable depression. Or maybe you'll get lucky and only lose your shit sometimes."

Like bro... I dont think this is helping.

Everyday I realize I have the most cliche issues possible.

Except for me. My anger issues are never justified cause I acknowledge that I have ptsd.
Actually its cptsd but who gives a shit, its trauma.

I can see why my therapist confuses my ex friend with my dad and my uncle now.

None of them are affected by their trauma but they have really weird and aggressive responses towards things. Its a good thing they all have anger issues that is justified but also an issue depending on the situation.