🔞 evil scolki

haha thank you

unexpected guests

good thing I didn't throw my old sketchbooks away
it's super cringe to look at some of that stuff but also. without it i wouldn't have learned how to draw the way I do now. dear sonics and narutos and weird animals, i owe you my life

oh my god gjsfhagha
behold, my art journey spanning over the age of 11-16 or so

-myself won’t be able to and will mess up both simultaneously :_)

-while having no intention of monetising nsfw stuff as it’s too dependent on my own mood and feelings) and I’m potentially harming my own reputation and all. which is also a bit silly because one is definitely able to build a balanced online presence with both images. it’s just that I’m afraid i-

it’s not really about being uncomfortable with my nsfw art leading to any personal info people could find on me (i think im hiding it as good as my career allows with art cons and such) and more about it contradicting with the sfw side of my art (that I’m also trying to make a living off of-

or is it just the preset about adult media needing to exist in a very narrow and masterfully hidden space pressing on my brain along with insecurity and i should smack this thought with a stick until it leaves

should i maintain a completely separate online persona for this to feel less uncomfortable… a secret fuckin night life o)—<

i don’t want to be associated mostly with nsfw art. but i like to draw such stuff. i don’t think it’s good for my career to draw so much porn. but ive been in a big mood for it. urghhh

finallyyy

im finally addressing the. egg situation. explodes

head in hands.

feeling shy about posting all over again o)—<

they're still everywhere and nowhere

they're forgetting what real life objects look like and how they interact with each other 🥲

thank youu

going to regret staying up this late soo much

sometimes smoker should be the one being manhandled and fucked stupid– who said that

ok the cropped version looks pretty suggestive but the full thing’s actually not (unfortunately)

COUGH. you're just on time as im in the process of sketching a ref sheet specifically for that....
some bioluminescence is involved. and uh. im shoving the second neural cord (kuru) in there too, and having fun with the shape
i could. show you in a bit

a reminder that this gem exists

just how crazy it is. thank you so, so much

(it’s Getting Emotional about Everything Ever kind of nights)

a sudden rush of gratitude for every single person that makes it possible for me to be as agile and free as I am, to make art that i enjoy instead of have to make and build a somewhat sustainable living from it without a dire need for employment (*while* im studying & am amidst economic crisis?)

mwahaha i learned how to make vinyl die cut stickers
(the amount of wrestling with my silliest ever printing setup i went through is immeasurable)

good luck, cal!!

COMPLETELY wrong hues on mobile, what.