Too sad to even sleep... great...
12.03.2026 06:04
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Well after showering I put my arms into the hottest water possible... it was weird that I felt it cold to a point (from how hot it was)
It helped me a bit to regulate
12.03.2026 03:56
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I don't care about anything anymore...
My mind is telling me to do things I will regret (not sh... but other stuff)
12.03.2026 03:13
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Tw/
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Sometimes I hate that I have good healing to the point we're I can't see my scars... it is just making me feel like I could do it again and they will be gone again....
Man today it hitting me hard... fuck you dysphoria
12.03.2026 02:11
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I'm feeling really dysphoric... badly...
I want to give up in all of this...
What's the point in trying...
I hate to see my friends and they have something better....
I have been feminine, and I'm so tired of hearing I am.... I want to kms.... (nit gonna do it, but I just want to cry)
12.03.2026 02:08
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Im so tired that I can't sleep... damn it
08.03.2026 21:46
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Tw// Bipolar
Sep 2023 I got the diagnosis of "suspension of bipolar" (or as the doctor said it "I'm giving you meds for it but I don't want to confirm it" lol
At sep 2024, with my new psiquiatrist I got finally the official diagnosis of bipolar type 2...
It has been a roller-coaster ngl
04.03.2026 19:39
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Now that I remember since yesterday my knee had been without any strength and sublixing a lot... might be eds sadly
02.03.2026 05:43
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Not sure if it is bc I was out from a place to another all day today
But my legs are starting to hurt as if it was eds pain....
Will wait and see if it goes away... as long as it doesn't get worst I won't take anything (I have already too many meds inside me)
02.03.2026 05:24
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Also a bit funny as it never happened to me before
But while telling my uncle about the rash... I said "we got a rash and bla bla" he thought I was talking about my mother and I... but the truth is that I said we as an I for any reason...
Plurality/DID I guess
02.03.2026 04:43
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I hate myself for thinking this way and know that I might regret it
02.03.2026 04:19
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🔞
horrible body dysmorphia and dysforia
decided to use my packer at least for a bit to try and help a bit
I feel a bit better
I got a Pic in undies... it made me feel a bit less disgusting
And im hesitating to just log into ekons account to post it and see if anyone could give a nice complement 😣
02.03.2026 04:19
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Why do I feel so judge
I should have kept everything to myself
28.02.2026 05:56
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I really was gonna read... but meds are hitting hard tonight
24.02.2026 06:51
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I feel so weird....
I don't know how I'm feeling.. who I'm feeling... who am I....
Man... everything is confusing
I feel like O wants to get I
Out but not fully can...
We are trying to communicate but this set of alters is really quite...
Woth ekon was very clear...
18.02.2026 01:10
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Man... why is taking my meds so damn hard lately...
It is not that I don't want to take them.. but I procrastinate it so much I forget about it (I take them way too late)
16.02.2026 06:32
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Okay... not I know why I had been so down...
Freaking shark week may be this week (supposedly today)...
I hate it
03.02.2026 17:32
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You know what worries me the most?
That when I get my psiqu appointment... she will prove up my dosage one more time or add another thing to the combo... and that means more money...
Whenever she will ask why I'm loosing interest I have no answer other than... I'm just tired of life
03.02.2026 06:00
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I'm...
Would it be bad if I tell my mother I'm really depressed?..
I just want to isolate... I don't want to go back to the psychiatrist... I don't have the money to do so...
But I want to cry hardly... (edit while writing this... actually crying now)
I want to quit everything...
03.02.2026 05:52
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Not me craving something so salty and spicy that will absolutely kill my stomach
03.02.2026 04:11
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It hits different when you want to give up and not live anymore...
And when you give up and keep living... without a will to continue..
I...
We are tired... all of us is tired...
I just want to stay in my room
03.02.2026 03:44
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03.02.2026 02:29
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03.02.2026 02:29
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Why I feel so tired... and still want to cry...
I'm better than last night b I t everything is do discouraging
02.02.2026 19:33
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I will take my meds and just cry myself with alba ...
I might not be around this week...
02.02.2026 04:44
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I need to do one more commission I sold at fucking 7usd... bc oh well my art is shit and nothing is selling so what's the point? I'm gonna do it and just close commissions forever...
I'm at a breaking point
02.02.2026 04:41
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I think I'm gonna give up in everything...
Treat me as you please... call me whatever you want... I see no point in keep fighting...
I just want to cry.... I want to not exist....
02.02.2026 04:40
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You know what?
Idc anymore...
My mind is making wanna just be adopted by someone and dehumanized me to a point where I don't have to think...?
Idk... use me, fuck me, make me regret being alive more than what I'm already to actually fucking do it and end it
02.02.2026 04:39
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What about if after all the presentations(mostly bc I already say yes and they count on me) I just leave the community?...
I'm not chinese... they shouldn't have left me join...
02.02.2026 04:31
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What about if I cancel my psychiatrist appointment? :) I'm tired... I don't want to be like this...
I have depending on meds... I hate my life...
Also I don't have the money to it... I will have to try and put it on my card....
02.02.2026 04:29
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