marzipan! at the vacation

Photo of pokopia on my switch 2 while I'm in a hammock on maui

Pokopia in paradise

Noms banana lumpia chocolate bark

I love u turon chocolate candy

@ my mom: don't micromanage a vacation you're not on challenge, difficulty: impossible

Lavender lemonade

Ube latte

How many purple drinks can I drink

My parents are big travelers but their way of vacationing is so fundamentally incongruous with me as a person that I was so anxious about this trip for months, only for it to be the most relaxed I've been in years

I'm so used to going on really intense, anxiety-induced vacations with my parents and this is the first time I've truly felt utterly relaxed and at peace on a vacation, it's insane

Pic of my hand with a moonstone ring on my middle finger. My sparkly multi color nails are leaving shiny streaks across the screen bc the lens was dirty

I took a pic of the ring I bought but my phone camera lens was dirty so my nails look crazy

Me inhaling Filipino food at the speed of light in Maui

no offense to my partner's family (2 people with us here are locals) but they keep mispronouncing hawaiian locations and it is killing me inside

I feel like in terms of risk lots of ready made food has weird risks all the time anyway haha

When we were waiting to get off the plane yesterday I talked about loving poke and my partners brother was like "you know all fish have parasites" and I was like "well in ~1 weeks I'll have a doctorate in chem bio and I think it's fine" and 2 people sitting behind me clapped and congratulated me

Selfie of me in my bathing suit in a hammock

I'm in a hammock. I saw a turtle. Best vacation

Ocean view

I'm on a Hawaiian island

Took my Ativan for the second flight bc I wanted to sleep and I slept most of the flight hell yeah

My therapist challenged me to try my first flight without Ativan and I did it. I still have an 8.5 hour flight left to go so I'll probably take it but at least I did the 3.5 hour flight ok

Tbh I probably wouldn't have gotten one if I hadn't been living in an apt with ~900/month rent...I certainly could not afford one right now 😭

I wasn't gonna pick it up bc low-key I think the ditto guys are a little ugly but the high review scores got me and I need something to baby me through my gajillion hours of travel time

I'm scared for my flights tomorrow so I preordered pokopia (also celebrating that I submitted my dissertation)

I submit my thesis tomorrow (it's due Friday but I'm leaving Thurs morning for a wedding in Hawaii) 😮‍💨

would kill to not have OCD and emetophob*a

Was doing totally perfectly fine when suddenly and without warning struck with an extremely bad panic attack I feel very bad I feel sick and like bad things will happen

ngl having volunteered at an animal science education center i think makes me have more sane takes about animals than most people

2 pages of white rabbit candy glued into a journal

Two pages

Yes!!! I will have the link Monday but my defense is the 16th 3-5est if you're able!!

addicted to bed rotting, unfortunately

Shout out to my out of state friends who will attend via zoom, I will pretend you are in person

Half my lab is out of town during my defense I'm gonna look like a huge loser 🤡

My program has a 5 year limit which is why I'm defending before sticking around to finish my manuscript but soon I will be in this situation 🫡😞

I went in today to discuss my dissertation and I'm crying I told my PI I could get her revisions by tomorrow maybe and she said nah she doesn't need to see anymore like LMAO my MS thesis was so much more intense my current PI doesn't even give a fuck LOL

webcam selfie showing how crooked my bangs are lol but i actually think it's ok

bangs