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My very Malaysian breakfast as dinner 🍽

I give up just one stroke lol whyyyyy

Went to a Buddhist temple for CNY celebration

Why my middle chinese name so hard to write 🥲🥲🥲🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

CNY dinner with company 🎊🐎🎊

I don't understand uncle logic. Cat bites you so you proceed to kick the cat. Wtf???

In Ipoh right now and I have to say the cafe culture here is more expensive than KL I'm from Ipoh and stayed at PJ, cafes at my apartment is cheaper than Ipoh wtf 😭😭😭

Reunion dinner 🍽

Doujins from @_fsmaichobpeg0 on twitter arrived, I am having a shuake week 🥰

they are two pancakes tall 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

It's only been a day or two after the announcement and there's only one Akechi left at Animate Malaysia today....he is now happily enjoying pancakes with ren 🥰

Haruka and Michiru - YouTube

someone uploaded all the Haruka and Michiru scenes from Sailor Moon omg bless youtube.com/playlist?lis...

I am now rewatching Cowboy Bebop Jupiter Jazz episode and god it's so good....I don't know what's the creative decision for Gren for the live action ver....his lore in the anime ver is just chef kiss.....man.....

Also, I don't know who was responsible for the entire aesthetic for Sailor Moon Cosmos, for the music they reused the old ver, I was looking forward for a new ver but I guess they wanna keep the nostalgia effect? The design for clothing from the old ver is definitely better....

SO! I watched Sailor Moon Cosmos and didn't know Megumi Hayashibara (my queen) voiced Sailor Galaxia. I would've preferred it if she uses her sultry voice like Faye Valentine, especially Jupiter Jazz episodes. Her voice for that particular episodes is perfect

Ohhh your comment gave me a new perspective.....thank you, I think I needed those words. Thank you so so much, I think I will try to survive 🫂

Hmmm I am not sure....but thank you so much, I will try 🥹

I am not sure if I have the strength, but thank you so much for the suggestions 🫂

I am not sure....I will try

Her hurtful words when I was young still haunting me, it's an endless circle....I tried to avoid talking to her now and I'm sure she will see me being selfish but I need my peace 😔

Thank you, I'm a grown adult but I still let words affect me....I need to do my best. Thank you so so much for your kind words

I will try my best, thank you so much for being kind to me 🥹

Noooo that's terrible.....I'm so sorry, hope you get to do more projects that you like 🫂

I am so sorry you had to go thru abuse....its really hard to survive, thank you so much for your kind words, I hope you find peace 🫂

I pun tak paham, would be nice if I can forget whatever she said but its so difficult

I can't even start, so that's a problem....I can still do my day job which is primarily drawing, so when I have personal time I can't lifts the pen....I just doom scrolling or rewatch Evangelion, nothing makes me happy right now....

Sorry for the gloomy posts, I just need an outlet. My appointment with my psychiatrist is next week, I haven't even be able to draw a line during my personal time. I am struggling at work too. I can't function....my mom's words still haunting me

She said I should be grateful that her scolding and yelling at me made what I am today with my career. I feel so worthless right now

I don't know how to describe this feeling. Am I worthless? If my mom didn't abuse me will my path been different? Drawing a line feels so scary right now and I am afraid of rejections. I haven't talked to my mom since and chinese new year is soon, I will need to see her, I don't know if I can do it

It's been months (3 months I think?) since my mom said if it wasn't because of her I wouldn't have a career

I have talked to my psychiatrist about this for months and he told me I should try to finish an illust for the next appointment

I still can't draw