k. 𓊆ྀི❤︎𓊇ྀི

oomf who is not allowed to talk to ppl on the internet bc do not use that tone of text or phrasing with me i will literally end my life and then yours.

it healed me. aries i love you forever.

will listening to aries just make me miss the concert or will it make me normal.

it's okay 🙂‍↔️ shower. and then. oc's will save me.

i ALSO knew it was gonna happen bc i heard my dad yelling at the dog earlier today + slamming shit so i knew he was in a bad mood. so. my bad for being hungry ill wait till midnight like originally planned 🧚

bruh they got mad at me for not saying good morning, for not making them dinner, for leaving the cat door open for one night 3 weeks ago, for being on call last night, for "them not being able to have a conversation with me", at one point i explained things and they got mad at that too.

i was gonna wait till they went to bed to eat so it would only be for the morning/afternoon/evening but i figured i finished my hw so might as well grab smth to eat now bc im hungnthruryr. and then yeah. got yelled at lmfao. WXCEPT IT WASNT EVEB ABT LAST NIGHT LIKE AS A WHOLE

my dad got pissed off last night because i was on call so he screamed at me whtv whtv but didn't give me a word in so i Knew that would become a conversation today bc it was unfinished henceforth i avoided interacting with them bc im not into being demeaned or being angry all day

apparently not :) that's why i avoided going down in the first place because i didn't want to fight and then lose my motivation to do my hw. so i figured okay there's nothing to lose now except my happiness which is already devastatingly low in this house, went downstairs annnnd what do u know

"i'm not gonna eat or drink today to avoid going downstairs because i know we're going to fight" i finish my homework, finally cave in and decide to get dinner, spend the entire 15 minutes down there screaming at each other until i start crying and go back upstairs. Lmfao.

what did i fucking say.

LMAOOO i highkey thought most of my older mutuals were aware of that because ive mentioned it a few times like, in passing. but i am always here to supply fun kasper trivia when asked 🧚

also nothing is stimulating me enough to finish this aaaaa.

i have 2 poo.

yeah so idk what the fuck i'm saying in this paper but as long as it's done ... idgaf.

mmh! my father is russian, born and raised.

i hasatteee when written assignments don't include a word count expectation. like do you want 1 page or 10.

a few months when i was really young. my first foster family brought me, to help let me experience a little more of my culture. i only remember very little but there is definitely a call within me that feels at home there and mutually can never return.

was so brave and left my room for 5 seconds and i have never seen my cat run at me faster than she just did.

saint petersburg!! and though i do miss the baltic sea like a limb, i mutually yearn for the sakha republic.

starting with the fact that there will always be a part of me that yearns to return to russia.

gonna start posting random kasper facts throughout my homework bc i am So In My Head and i'm making it everyone else's problem.

I Will Be Okay. u can hold my hand so i feel less like neurotic prey animal waiting for the other shoe to drop though.

you need your time and space when the social interaction gets too much + too chaotic bc it tires you out and overwhelms you.

baby thats just you being a n introvert 😭

happy 2pm. i want to yap abt my oc's so mf bad bc i woke up thinking abt them but i cant. this homework is gonna make me Want To Die. ALSO!! i'm still freaked out by my dad from last night so i might just not leave my room today and eat at like midnight lololol.

RIGHT?? and then when i feel like a woman i can make ppl call me lucy. very genderfluid friendly.

i love that film so bad i need the depression it gives me back /hj

also if i were to ever change my name i would make it lucien.

also i wanna rewatch green street hooligans.