Eve

Noel, one of my DnD campaign's npcs, an aasimar warlock. #dnd #dndart #artsky #ocsky #sketch

Financially, I can't afford to quit my job either. If I could, I would've already done that. So idk. Fuck the bosses who don't care about their employees, right?

I'm trying to do my best to maintain positive attitude and somewhat healthy lifestyle, but it's getting harder and harder. Asking for help feels useless, as nurses and doctors keep telling me that sick-leave won't fix me. Therapy is something I can't afford rn.

What absolutely destroys me, is that I WANT to love my job. No longer than a year ago, I felt so much joy and gratitude and pride for doing what I get to do and now it has turned into this big, dark monstrosity made out of stress and anxiety. I no longer feel love for my job.

I've tried to keep the hope up for my closest work friends, but sadly feel like none's there for me. I've burst into tears at work several times during the last few weeks, 'cause all this fighting feels useless.

TW: Depression

So, yeah. I don't think I've been this depressed for years, if ever. My situation at work sucks and it has become quite clear that neither my close supervisor nor the big bosses of our organization care. I've tried to be brave, bring the problem to the table, but nothing happens.

a knight and his steed #kcd2

a blue and gray landscape of spanish moss covered trees behind a house who’s roof is only visible. a white star with a halo passes behind the trees

passing by without a whisper

Here's my Art vs. Artist 2025 ✨️

Proud of my art and all the joy it brought to my life this year 🫶🏻

#artvsartist #artvsartist2025

"You remind me of him."

#dragonage #dragonageart #inquisitorlavellan #solavellan

No but tbh they were actually very supportive, which was nice. And idk why, but it felt really good to be so open and tell about how I'm actually doing.

As a Christmas gift to myself, I mustered my courage and gave an honest answer when a relative of mine asked the mandatory "so how's work" question. The look on their face was priceless when I started yapping about my burnout and how it has been going on for half a year now.

I'm super thankful for my friends, the Solavellan community, some of my friends at work and my cat for bringing joy to my life. All of that has mattered and will always matter a lot to me, but all this makes me appreciate it even more. Love you ❤️

a man says i need a holiday in front of a sink ALT: a man says i need a holiday in front of a sink

At this point I'm so tired my body feels extremely weak. I go to sleep feeling tired and I wake up feeling tired, this has been going on for a long time now.

I absolutely hate how I'm not able to enjoy art, writing, drawing or whatever just because of this.

A small part of Véla's backstory ❄️

#dragonage #dragonageart #inquisitorLavellan

Felt cute at bestie's birthday party ✨️

✨️ Inquisitor Véla ✨️
(this portrait took my sanity, but at least i like how it turned out)

#dragonage #dragonageart #inquisitorlavellan

artwork of the creature from frankenstein (2025). the creature is the central figure, his body abstracted into the swathes of blues and greens, with a tinge of red, with details of furs of his coat and candles lit with red flames. his torso is carved out, exposing red flesh and a heart connected with veins that have some sprouting flowers, and the final scene of the creature embracing the morning sun. framing the creature are various body parts as well as the halves of victor and elizabeth's faces.

i love frankenstein (2025) so much

#art

Okay bye Spotify, hello Tidal ✨️

The battlefield 🗡

I think dad still doesn't quite get about WHY I am so depressed, but he listened to me and said that if there's anything he can do to help, I just need to say it. At this point, hearing someone say things like this makes me really emotional and grateful. Dad is doing his best and I appreciate it.

I rarely talk about my mental health with my parents since they don't really understand anything about it, dad especially, but during this call I just... spilled everything out and went to surprising lengths about how my depression has gotten worse. And it felt good.

I spoke with dad on the phone and for the first time years I found myself being the one who didn't want the call to end. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, but we've never been super close and I don't have a strong bond with them. During this call though, I suddenly felt strange homesickness.

A portrait of Véla, my inquisitor character for a Solavellan playthrough
#dragonage #dragonageinquisition #dragonageart #inquisitorlavellan #ocart #artsky

verrot and ichnaea, two male elves, embrace in a hallway. they are surrounded by spirits and speckles with blood.

the night belongs to them.
#oc #ocsky #elfenjoyers

This same teenager and their friends came again today and asked me when do I visit their school again (I visit their school regularly) and it felt so nice ❤️ they also asked me how old I am and when I let them take a guess, they said I "can't be older than 26" since I "look so fresh". Awfully sweet ❤️

i've got like 5 followers on tumblr but whenever people reblog my art with these kinda tags, i can't help but love the internet and especially the solavellan/da community on tumblr. you're good people o7

someone on tumblr reblogged this with a tag that said "this was like a gunshot to the temple" and let me just say: i love you, unknown person

It was so beautiful, another journey to my childhood. They played music from the original, animated 90's Moomin -series in this concert. I felt privileged to hear Emiko Shiratori sing some of the original, japanese Moomin songs, her voice was beautiful as ever.