my music skills are embarrassing and miserable for someone who has been making music for more than 5 years
27.02.2026 13:45
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my music skills are embarrassing and miserable for someone who has been making music for more than 5 years
i'm never usung twitter schedule post feature again it downscaled my image to one megapixel for some stupid evil reason
if you record your drawing process with the built-in feature in krita and then use decimate with cycle=25 and then minterpolate in ffmpeg, you get weird movement smoothness which looks interesting (i might post this later)
man i need to improve everything
i released another track....... it's sad music dot mp3............... soundcloud.com/uefiser/crav...
(i might have worded the first part ambiguously, i meant getting to finally continue playing the watcher dlc)
after struggling and finally getting the opportunity to play rain world i just got a watcher ending and i genuinely started crying from an emotion i cannot describe
also i need to improve style
i have a cool idea for a dreadlock art but i would have to draw a HUMAN for that and that is the horrorest horror of all horrors
weird thing i'm confused by it
at least i'm still coherent after everything that happens to me
soundcloud casually asking for microphone access
i wonder if i could handle making original soundtrack for some kind of project
beer
happy new
me at 4 am
it is all done one by one, you feel like you want one instrument to evolve here, and later maybe modulate one effect there, and after some time a complex interplay might emerge by itself
kill suffering
and this is horrifying to me because i don't fully know how to stop participating in this and whether that is actually possible, or how to at least protect myself from things that lead to more suffering
the inevitable immense pain and horrible formations emerging from physicality are what is ugly and unattractive, and make the small, fleeting bits of beauty flawed and not worth existing for
it's involuntary existence especially in the form of physical matter that has its own uncontrollable behavior and eventually forms life with emerging urges and pain, and we all get boiled in this soup trying to avoid suffering, but our ignorance makes us do evil to ourselves and others
i didn't know i could fully experience severe parasympathetic acute stress reaction while sleeping and seeing awful things in dreams and still have it after waking up but i guess i have to live with that now
same
reality is so difficult
i hate bureaucracies they are so obfuscated and exhausting
