swizzlespoon

I love all five of those vids! <3

everyone should try and ship a rarepair at least once in their life. it is very fulfilling work. no fretting about numbers. just pure being unhinged about your favourite characters kissing. you appreciate every kudo and comment because the max capacity of interactions you'll ever hit is 10

I posted chapter 5 late last night or early that morning & then got a lovely & amusing comment from someone saying they'd been thinking so much about the fic they'd dreamed I posted thru chapter 6 today (I posted chapter 5).

I went ahead & posted chapter 6 today & made their dream come true. 🎉😂

Comment on latest chapter I posted: "How can you make me so happy and so heartbroken at the same time?"

Me, to myself: "Yes, my plan is working."

(Really wasn't sure it was.)

Happy birthday! (now I'll go say it from my other account like a weirdo.)

Something satisfying about round numbers and hey, I've now received a total of 300 kudos for my little viewed collection of fanworks that I've posted on AO3.

Still wild to me when I figured I'd never use my AO3 account for anything but posting comments & leaving kudos & saving bookmarks.

Screenshot showing the top part of a draft off the start of a fic I just uploaded. Oh God. What am I doing? Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply Category: M/M Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies) Relationship: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Sarah Wilson (Marvel), Pepper Potts, Yelena Belova, Kate Bishop Additional Tags: Post-Movie: Thunderbolts (2025), POV Bucky Barnes, Chatlogs, Everybody loves Bucky Barnes, Bucky Barnes & Steve Rogers Friendship, Bucky Barnes & Sam Wilson Friendship, Bucky Barnes & Sarah Wilson Friendship, Steve Rogers is Not On the Moon Language: English Stats: Published:2026-03-05 Updated:2026-03-05 Words:2,571 Chapters:1/? Hits:0 Title is Kids These Days, author is swizzlespoon

Screenshot of what is currently the very beginning of this ridiculous story, which starts kind of slow. Subject to change: Steve Rogers was not actually dead, contrary to popular belief, nor was he on the moon, though that rumor was good for a laugh only then Bucky started imagining it—what if Steve really was living on the moon? Maybe Bucky could visit and stay for a while and if it was just the two of them on the moon away from a too fucking complicated world, maybe they could sort some of their shit out— "You're lost in space again," Steve said, which made Bucky bark a laugh. "What?" Steve asked from where he was sitting in an old recliner that he loved, like the old man that he was. Bucky replied from his own old-man recliner, "Was just wishing you were on the moon." "Thanks, Buck." Steve sounded so damn affronted it took Bucky back to—fuck if he knew when, but a long fucking time ago. It was classic Steve. Bucky smiled. "Not like that, you punk. Just imagining a sweet moonbase where you lived and I could visit." "You always did love those kinds of stories, I could totally see you on the moon. Though I'm amused by you calling it a 'sweet moonbase' you must be spending a lot of time around those kids." [there's a horizontal line break here] Bucky did spend a lot of time around kids, though most people seemed like kids compared to him (and Steve, especially compared to Steve). (He wasn't going to bother explaining to Steve that he learned "sweet" probably from the internet or even just TV and movies—fuck if he knew.)

Not paying attention to the news or socials, nor am I editing & posting the six chapters of my Slow Horses WIP. Instead I'm on a very important (& ridiculous) side quest.

(This is just the start of a draft, there's a lot more yet to post/edit. Maybe I need a beta. Oh dear.) (God it's hilarious.)

🤔 Weird. Quality individuals, all.

So this MCU fic I started writing last night has me LOLing so hard I have tears in my eyes so it's been a blast. Maybe I'll manage to pull it together into something good enough I'm comfortable to share. I hope so. I should've known I'd eventually write a Bucky Barnes POV fic if I kept writing.

Chapters 5 - 10 are up in draft format and I was working my way through reading them and making some changes here and there when a whole new fic for a different fandom started being written in my head & it seemed like a good idea to write it down oh no. (I really should finish this first.)

posted chapter 4 and now i hide. i am a rational human being and totally normal.

(Talking about "Advanced Maneuvers Are Not a Requirement" and I may have also unlocked it for at least a little while. We'll see how long that lasts.)

archiveofourown.org/works/74371746

I was thinking "maybe it's because it starts slow and the first part is not as good" because the parts I love are in the 2nd half but then I reread it & made a few little changes and I think the first part is fine. I added some tags & changed the summary a little. Beats me. Whatever. I like it.

I gather, from things I've seen a few other people say, that it's not unusual to be surprised by which fanworks get a lot of love and which just . . . don't.

I got a comment on my work with the least Kudos & was so thrilled because I think some of the best things I've written are in it. 🤷‍♀️

3rd chapter up puts it at 13,404 words, that's not as cool.

I have two more written but am nervous about them because uh, I wrote sex scenes kind of? Totally my area of expertise (LOL NO). will i go through with this? Who can say.

I have no sense at all of how tall people are in movies or on TV or in real life come to think of it. (I'm 5'6" IIRC not that i've checked lately.)

The tragedy of me making a tiny edit and now it's not at 9,000 words.

Jack Lowden kissing the side of Gary Oldman's head while he has an arm around him (I think this was around when season 1 of Slow Horses premiered)

another photo from same series, Lowden has arm around Oldman

from the same series, Lowden and Oldman looking at each other with arms around each other

Different occasion/time, Gary Oldman and Jack Lowden seated and Lowden has his arm around Oldman

I was just trying to find a picture where they were standing next to each other so I could get a sense of the height difference for this fic I'm writing but okay guys, this is helpful, thanks, I appreciate it.

Gonna have to end the fic at 9,000 words because it's so satisfying of a number. (Nah, I can't, I've already got like three more chapters written why am I so wordy.)

Uploaded a 2nd chapter to a fic and the word count per AO3 is now precisely 9,000 words. Obviously I meant to do that. (oh no, now I'll find it disappointing when I don't get round numbers.)

When a regular commenter on a WIP doesn't comment after you finish it & you worry a little & then they show up and say they liked the fic so much they put off reading the last chapter because they didn't want it to end. awwwwww.

Being told I write well about death, grief, family, memory, and love is both great to hear and also hard because I really wish I was less good at writing about some of that or at least had less real world experience with some of it.

Making others & myself cry with my writing is still weird.

Oh jeez. Crying in the club again and for once it's not over the Minnesota of it all. (or my dead husband and the usual stuff.) (Someone left a really nice comment on that fic I posted.)

Finished a fic. 🎉

Still hate the title for it so of course I wound up trying again in the epilogue to make it work somehow. D'oh.

Really should not post WIPs anymore (unless I do). There are aspects of it I like, but . . .

Also what if I planned a fic rather than just making stuff up as I go?

And then the last chapter is over 8,000 words. Welp. Maybe once I finish this fic I'll add some of this chapter to that previous very short chapter. Hmm.

I have an epilogue in the works. This fic didn't go where I expected but then I didn't have a plan at all so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ .

Of course immediately after I did that I had a breakthrough and wrote a bunch of words so maybe I could've waited . . .

(Writing continues to be really weird.)

After having chapters of 5 to 6K words I just up and uploaded a 1,500 word bit as a chapter which was something I considered having part of the previous chapter and then thought might be a good start for a new chapter but I stalled out & it stands well on its own so I said fuck it & put it up there.

Oh no.

Rereading and editing previous chapters rather than finishing the new ones I'm working on. Productive procrastination, maybe? I don't know.