sitting outside at 1 in the morning finding some kind of comfort in the fog thats covering the fields. its relaxing. which is odd because of all the horror games weve played the past few weeks. its probably the association with the atmosphere? i dunno...
Ive been in a 46 hour discord call with x all weekend and were still going. We've played resident evil, went on a lottle adventure, ate a bunch of junk food, and built gundams/zoids all weekend. I went from having no real plans on friday to a full weekend of good times 🥹
Hes helping
Started playing Leaf Green and of course my cat doesn't allow it 😂
i dont think any of mine really are there:( I think i need to get the on in a bigger pot. i def have plans to get a lot more plans but money has been soooo tight lately with my heat in this old place D:
i doooo! i have one actual plant and the rest i have are actually herbs i grew from seeds. (i rarely use them lmao) i really want to get more!
THEN saying 'you've been quiet'. yeah bitch! cause i dont have much else to work off of lmao
legit cannot stand it. i get it can be situational but don't expect me to keep pushing for conversation after that. my ass leaving that on read
you know what is a complete conversation killer and turn off for me? responding with a one word/emoji response after i just typed out a meaningful message.
like how am i supposed to even talk to you after i just told you how my day was in detail and asked how yours was and all you say is "good"
i cant wait for it to get warm tho for real cause im sure that once spring starts to show up, im going to feel even better from touching grass and even just being able to open my window. i fuckin love it ;;
i was kinda venting today about how i spend 9 hours at work on screens...then get up and move to my pc to stream around 3 hours. ive been appreciating being able to craft especially but also gaming on a tv or even in a different chair at my pc. not wearing a headset has helped too.
i love streaming so much but with how burned out ive been from work/life... the days i have nothing planned sort of bring some sort of relief and maybe slight happiness. mostly just because i dont have any kind of time crunch or obligations and I can take a nice break from my pc.
Yessss I would love to do that more! I been wanting to hang more. Works been pretty tiring lately so i kinda been a hermit lmao
Worlds worst picture but ugggghh
so basically now i do the things i like to do alone but struggle with kinda feeling alone. its kind of a weird thing i dont know the answer to.
i dont rly talk about it much but i struggle with feeling alone often so the last year ive been working on appreciating being alone and its gone rly well. downside is now i want more to be around ppl again and i think i dont know how to engage or mange that feeling?
in this weird limbo where i want to be around ppl or at least specific types of people (the no energy needed kind) but also feel like being alone. kinda not sure how to handle it tbh
i spent most of today working on my first gundam. its pretty fun to do!
Oh and watching anime again! Kinda miss living like this
Watched x finish a horror game we started, had sushi tonight for dindin, and now I get to craft and play cute games until later when x is back. Good night tonight:D
Aaaaaaaaaa 😭
My IP is at it again making work a pain and possibly keeping me from streaming...which is like the biggest thing i wanna do rn 😭
Its hard to be mad at thrm because they always text when its out and when itll be up but man come on.... stop iiiiit
2026 life goal is to create a life i dont feel like i need to hide from. sounds silly but man if you had any idea how the last few years have been this is a huge thing. we'll check in in 6mo lol
wish there wasnt like 2k miles between us so we could hang out and i could give them something to eat 😔
spent the day playing a coop game with x was such the highlight of my day. intentional or not spending a holiday i dont rly like that much with them made me v happy. i also put together a lil gift they got me that came in today so that was a nice little addition:)
my cat absolutely destroyed the gift wrapping on presents for my friends a few weeks ago. i rewrapped them today (the day before going to see them) and this fucking asshat opened a bag and pulled the ACTUAL GIFT out to his water fountain and sat it in it. So now thats ruined and a new one ordered😔
o boy recert for my broke girl apt. lets just add more stress to my week lmao
Yeah for sure. I wouldn't say I really care much about what others say. Even this i dont care about. Its just annoying more than anything because theyre involving other friends
i literally was just saying how i missed hanging out with them less than a week ago too
im not like mad or even upset. maybe slightly disappointed.. or even really bothered by it. i know my friends and it just really confirms it lmao
ppl will just talk shit to talk shit. they wont have the full story and just spread shit to get attention or whatever satisfaction they get from it. i just dont get it ??
im not perfect or an angel by any means but if youre gonna talk shit get the story straight at least
hearing ppl you consider close friends talking bad about you thru your actual close friends is such a funny thing to me. i will never understand or respect you if you cant just talk to me directly. also.. my friends are going to tell me so why even bother? lol
lowkey just wanna be babied for a bit. like nothing too crazy. you know.. brought some food, be passenger princess a lil, cuddled on the couch & watch a show/game. im just so tired boss. i wouldnt mind someone taking the wheel for a little 🥺
