rem 🫀 malnourished may

i swear twt breaks like every 5 minutes now

i finally broke thru and i'm out of no-yap jail on twt praise god

i just weighed again and i'm 0.4 lbs from being out of no-yap jail i'm getting out tonight dude i'm not touching a morsel of food or drink until i'm out

i'm litcherally wondering if my scale is broken bc it keeps showing the exact same number and it does not make sense for my weight to have not budged at all after several days of liquid fasting and then several more days of fasting fasting

i'm going to take my silly little nap and if i haven't somehow exhaled 2 lbs by the time i wake up i'm going to **** ** ******* ****** *** *** **** *** ****** ***** *** *** *** **** *** ** ****** *** ******

fasting timer at 56.5 hours

WHY HAVENT I LOST A SINGLE POUND

i didn't break it though i'm fine now lmao

i'm genuinely just built worse now. i hit the 48 hour mark of my fast and started feeling like i was gonna pass tf out and die. i wasn't even doing anything tf

i'm so frustrated that my wife threw out my other scale bc according to the one i have now i've gained a full pound in the last three hours when all i've had in that time is a fucking glass of water

photo of a very buff tattooed man from ig / strong.millionaire.quotes that reads "i am not perfect therefore i will be taking my own life shortly"

WHY AM I MAINTAINING WHY AM I MAINTAINING WHY AM I MAINTAINING I'M LITERALLY FASTING!!!!! I'M LITERALLY FAST7NG WHY QM I MAINTAINTJNGN WHYBAM I MAINTAINING 2HY AM I MAINTAINING!!!!! MY LIFE IS A FUCK8NG NIGHTMARE!!!!! FREE ME IMMEDIATELY

i'm going insane i need to go home and weigh myself so i can fucking drink water again

i'm at work and i very strategically mopped the entire house in such a way that i wouldn't step on mopped floor with the exception of the kitchen which i clean after breakfast, forgetting that this would effectively trap me in the kitchen and everything i have to do rn is in other rooms

my stomach is so angry at me rn like okay good bitch i hate you too

i'm so sleepy dude

i'm not smoking / vaping again dw one of the girlies just offered me a hit of hers and i was like ................yea

nic hits different on an empty everything

there's literally 200 lbs btwn my hw and my ugw btw if you ever feel bad about your hw just know mine was BAD

not my clients at work calling me out for my lips being blue 😭

just had a very vivid memory of engaging with a special interest of mine that's sleeping right now and thinking "please never let me lose my love for this" and now i kind of don't care about it and i'm like... sad

eating disorders are so stupid

trying and failing to not become afraid of electrolytes

fuck it i'm having nothing but water + green tea + my 10 cal energy drinks until i'm out of no yap jail on twt

my body is demonstrably physically measurably smaller and yet i'm up a pound wtf is the point of being alive

if i haven't lost weight when i weigh today i'm going to crash out

this isn't about anybody i follow btw i blocked them immediately

finally found somebody on twt who has one of the same uncommon and heavily stigmatized disorders as me only to find out they're one of the most embarrassing and annoying ppl i've ever encountered..... my life is a fuckimg nightmare

proud of u noah, if u ever need a sober buddy pls hmu whenever

what happens if i drink a bunch of prune juice during a liquid fast? will i die?

my wife threw out the old scale in the bathroom bc i got another one and doesn't understand why i'm upset bc i'm too tired to explain that i would weigh myself on both of them over and over until the weight was the same 3 times so i could be sure

the sexual tension between me and the can of prune juice with no one's name on it that's been in the work fridge for 3 weeks