ruweᯓ★☭ | surgery recovery

radio flubs are always so funny help

just had a real shower for the first time i feel so goof

my pet theory is that the appeal of costume dramas for the majority of fans is just like, getting to watch the actors dress up in pretty costumes, the same way that star trek has a holodeck so the writers could produce a hardboiled detective AU about their fave bamf daddy, captain jean luc picard

the episodes without him have some good scully content but at what cost 😭
also the character who replaces him (or really, scully replaces mulder and doggett replaces scully) is so uninteresting bc he doesn't really Do anything. no bark no bite nothing to hold on to... stay strong soldier

i worked in a kitchen for Maybe 3 months when i was 21 and i still get unreasonably pissed off when people leave pot handles sticking out into the walkway

i honestly would love to have a shower but unfortunately when my mother decided to reno our (famously not sound insulated) home from the late 1800s she put her office where she talks to clients right next to the bathroom so it's not really an option

good morning all i slept for quite long. haven't had devastating pain so far today so let's hope the phantom nipples are finally behind us

"women don't like BL for legitimate reasons they are fetishizing gay men" okay so like, while this isn't true, if it were, let's say there are women who have "a fetish for gay men" - why might that be? what might it mean? that's an interesting question. whither the desire of the humble pit lover?

Bugs Bunny in a tux saying "I wish all trans children a very live long enough to get revenge"

marx said this he told me so in a prophetic vision

it’s so inspiring to me how badly fruit flies want to live. i wish i had the same will

super normal post i promise

i want to **** * ***** ***** until *** *****

"from everyone according to their ability to each according to their need" also applies to my phantom nipple pain ☭☭☭

"I want this procedure/pronoun/garment/activity" is a lot easier to start out with, and will eventually lead you to the right "I am [specific thing]".
sorry i got srs but i had thoughts that i hoped could help a lil <3

last word of advice: try not to get bogged down w/ labels that articulate microscopic differences across the infinitely vast scope of human experience as a first step. instead, focus on finding practical descriptors of who you want to be and figuring out which words end up describing that.

any site and present yourself however you want to -- being approached online as nonbinary while i was telling myself i was just "pretending" to be it for an anonymous account helped me a lot in the end, because i realised: this is actually making me so happy, maybe i should do it irl as well!!

about the sexual desire aspect of discovering your gender & if that's a part of it for you just know, there's nothing dirty or wrong about it, it's normal and a good thing to pursue. luckily in our modern times we have the internet where you can easily walk into any chat room or open a new profile

there's not like, a magical threshold where you will suddenly Understand Everything, it's a process.
One Weird Trick: something that helped me understand what i wanted was to explore different ways to be intimate with others. idk if that's something for you but i know a lot of people feel guilty

resource for uncovering uncommon/obfuscated manifestations of gender dysphoria, like: sometimes something makes you really happy but also miserable -- that's guilt over gender euphoria. you know, "trans" just means "not cis", which is probably what you are if you're thinking about this much!

i tried to think about this some more to give more useful advice but really, "try out and find what makes you happy" is one of the best ways alongside "reject what makes you miserable/emotionally vacant". it wasn't around afaik when i was figuring stuff out but imo genderdysphoria.fyi/en/ is a great

kudos

does dan howell even know how oestrogenisable her face is

try some out with a select group of friends who'd be willing to indulge you and see which one makes you feel happiest

what if this isn't normal and i just have an absurdly high pain tolerance from having chronic pain and i'm actually dying right now

my preferred citation style is MLA but feel free to use whichever suits you best 🫶 12pt times new roman double spaced, no subheadings

tbh i'm a she/they at heart, like if the world was fair i could she/they the shit out of my life. but i cannot give people the she/they permission because they WILL overdo it on the she and they WILL underdo it on the they

OKAY WELL SHOW YOUR WORK...............................

reminded my mum to take bread out the freezer 3 times today and she still forgot. the roles are reversing...

i mean someone did remove my nipples but you know what i mean