fernfronds 🌿🏳️‍🌈🏴‍☠️

whoops! found last tuesday’s to do list and it’s almost exactly the same as this week’s. as in, i have apparently accomplished nothing in the past week. love that for me.

omg my doctor rocks. pretty sure she’s younger than me which is a bit of a trip but honestly i really liked that—i get nervous about people judging me especially in those kinds of dynamics but i felt like i could talk to her like a real person and be honest about shit. yay for good doctors!

thank you! it does feel like a big deal finally getting back on the wagon of taking care of myself in this way. thankfully nothing is super “wrong” at the moment but it’s still A Lot.

i get why they ask and in a way i appreciate being asked, but also big ugh to the pressure of answering!

ugh that’s exactly what it feels like, even though i feel like it wouldn’t even be that much of a battle, yknow?

🤝

exactly. i feel like i have an internal & external gender identity, the latter of which being separate from my gender expression. bc i also don’t really care much about gender expression. so like yeah sure perceive me as a woman if you want but that’s not strictly how i see myself.

when it comes down to brass tacks i do feel some shade of non-binary but it doesn’t feel like it’s enough to warrant adopting the label, & i know you don’t have to meet anyone’s criteria but your own, but it still feels like i don’t quite deserve it. but putting “female” doesn’t feel right either. 😑

a close up of a woman making a surprised face . Alt: a gif from (i think?) that’s so raven of raven chewing gum as her eyes dart nervously from side to side

i have a doctor appt today (yay establishing care with a primary care doc for the first time in two decades!) BUT i’m filling out the forms and the gender identity question is staring at me in the face and i’m just over here like

OH MY GOD i’m obsessed with the fern/tentacle visual parallel!! absolutely genius!!

and the chicken’s name is goofus doofus?? incredible. i wonder how long it’ll take until someone gets a goofus doofus tattoo, i feel like it’s bound to happen

PHENOMENAL thank you for this most important update

i have had absolutely zero time or bandwidth to hang out over here with all you gay pirates and i miss it and i miss you and i’ve got some big fomo about it. i haven’t even opened the auction page!! 😢😭

Not today Satan 😘🖤🦄

also hey wtf is up with feeling pain in dreams, i thought that wasn’t supposed to be possible

“oops, i’m up too late, i think ill try to sleep without having dimension 20 on in the background.”

*proceeds to have immediate dreams of a dog that looked like my childhood dog attack me and then two large, wild cats attack me*

*turns on d20 after ripping myself out of sleep somehow*

i will never understand it

Chin up sluts 💜✊🏻

🫂 🫂 🫂

it looks amazing!!

i was gonna say this is the most non-mercury retrograde that’s ever mercury retrograded, but i guess it’s actually mercury retrograding, just overwhelmingly in my favor!!

AND GET THIS!!! the gym membership i got 2mo ago but only started using this week? they’re resetting the clock on my 6mo membership bc there’s some weird hiccup in their system and my membership didn’t actually exist in it for some reason. i thought i had wasted two months but NOPE!! got ‘em back!

THANK YOU IT WORKED THEY ARE FIXING MY ENGINE UNDER WARRANTY 😭😭😭😭😭

frankly jealous of people who were able to move on to other fandoms i'm gonna be a senile old lady talking about the love of my life and it's a mildly successful gay pirate show

i am so, so very sorry to report that what they say about exercise’s benefits to things like mental wellbeing and overall energy and sleep are, seemingly, true 😔

made myself a google form to fill out each time i go so i can track routines and progress because if there’s one way i can make this more likely to stick it’s by collecting data for the prospect of a pretty spreadsheet

I WENT TO THE GYM TODAY. I GOT MY MEMBERSHIP TWO MONTHS AGO. PLEASE CLAP.

“i do really need to get some work done this week despite being off, i’ll just go in to work for a couple hours.”

*goes into work for 6 hours, comes home, works for another 4.5 hours, and still isn’t done the one task that needs doing* 🙃

have i mentioned lately that i fucking hate it here?

every DAY this goddamn bridgerton

fucking incredible

WOOHOO, THERAPIST-APPROVED!!