I learnt (by watching people do it around me) a way to set up a bench at the gym for doing rows, so today I tried out doing rows and squats. Turns out I can row about the same as I can safely squat: 1.08x my bodyweight, which is significantly more, almost double, what I can bench-press. 🧗
I need to become more unhinged. 🕷️
Multiple fronts of close connections being made/deepened. For each person, my brain is calculating what is the frontier of connection that is to be pushed/explored. My brain is… working overtime… 🎭🎐
Empirical social experiences 🏳️⚧️
Negative emotional labour: don't do it
The Unix philosophy and craftsmanship in the new age 🤖
Democratizing disposable plastics 🤖
No. "Age limits" just means collection of users' legally IDs across the board, for people of any age. This is a threat to personal data safety, not to even mention privacy. You are pushing a bad policy.
Deleting X and only posting on Bluesky was a great decision, not only because X seems to be a bad place but also because it’s so boring here.
My feed here is mostly middle aged men posting way too many very uninteresting details about their lives. Brings my scrolling time basically down to zero.
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💀 A social group is holding an "equinox party", in a very joyous/cheerful way. I am incredibly not on the same frequency. 😂 I do NOT think I will likely be having a good time over equinox. (But hey, let's see. 🎭)
Empirical lack of self love: difference in behaviour when with a loved one vs when alone
A masculine urge for self-redemption
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A shame of withering when receiving no care
The destruction of truth, and then also the destruction of identities. It'll take some very optimistic and creative imagination to see and find a future in which the internet is not dead. 🤖😐⚫
It's a weird coincidence that it was almost my ex who introduced this character to me, in a very casual context today, while her current ~partner is also present. I suddenly saw a sharp reflection of myself in Mörkö. 😬 I said, "damn, that's kinda me".
A ghostly, dark-coloured figure, with two round eyes wide-open, and visible teeth, standing face-to-face with the camera, at the steps of a porch.
Today I learnt about the fictional character, Mörkö. ⚫ www.moomin.com/fi/blogi/mor...
Wherever she walks, the ground freezes, and people around are afraid of her. 💔
Oh man, I've been stuck in this state, in this problem, for a full year now. 🙁⚫
Another wave of 🐦🦋
My drive ("motivation", energy) is almost entirely predicated on "doing the thing well", for various things; so when things go to shit, and it
is shown that I suck, I "see no point in even carrying on". The feedback loops are brutally positive (i.e. amplifying). ⚫
When the tides fade and the music stops: solitude
Blurry line: maintenance vs investment/endeavours
> want, misery, horror, desire, fantasy
-- Agnieszka Polska, Book of Flowers
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The swan. The fable of the ugly duckling. The coincidental-or-not national bird of Finland. A symbol, at least in my mind, of pain, suffering, transformation, and redemption. 🦢🩰⚫⚪
(Invoking Andersen, Tchaikovsky, and Saint-Saën.)
> Ei talvikunnossapitoa
> Silta ajoittain liukas
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Spring equinox is a battle of the inner world; autumn equinox is a practical challenge of getting everything ready for winter.
I feel the mania of equinox kicking in. I understand why: the weather is getting better. The sun calls for me to be outside. And yet, my bottleneck remains inner work. There is no FOMO when there is kaamos. I am not ready for life.
Casual hangout vs kinky/neurodivergent communication style
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I still need to actually read and watch the details, but I think there's an element of *revenge* in Alysa Liu's joy.
I certainly remember dark times I was in, and when people near me asked "what would help you feel better?", I answered ~"a long and intense period of productivity", i.e. flow state.
Lack of routine, trust towards oneself, rhythm, process, reliability, credibility, track-record, ... lack of faith, of care; lack of honour towards the self of yesterday, and so clearly the self of tomorrow will ignore the self of today, ...
Insomnia. A version of it is fundamentally a distrust towards "tomorrow". Tomorrow will never come. It'll never happen; stuff will never be done "tomorrow" -- it HAS to be NOW; it's now or NEVER. ⚫
