Tara but backwards it’s a rat

mmm wip..

2 days :)

i don’t like being sad around my birthday bc this is the one day a year i can be a little selfish and ask for attention.. the bad feelings amplify a lot because my brain tells me i should be very happy and taken care of. just feels bad. i don’t enjoy feeling sad

it feels so silly to be crying over this but it’s a reminder about how little my parents consider me. it feels like i’m only worth love when i am doing something for them. my mom will order a custom cake for my sister and pick mine up from the grocery store and not even get my name on it. man

last year my parents forgot to get me a cake and made us stop on the way home from dinner. today, my mom made me go with her to get my card + cake from the grocery store. when i said i don’t want to get my own birthday cake im now selfish. i wish my parents could make it less obvious they don’t care

i’m smart, multi talented. nice job. i think im fun to be around. i care deeply for those in my life. love just hasn’t found me seriously. i’ve had some almosts which ruined my optimism..

i know i have a lot going for me but i would like to experience being spoiled and loved by someone. bleh

personal but. really being struck by the feeling that i’ve never dated/ been asked out/ been kissed/ etc. and i turn 25 in less than 12 hours

i know it doesn’t affect my worth or anything but. thinking about it. just wish to be wooed and romanced but no one has ever seriously asked me out :/

mmm wip..

painted my nails for the first time since last year for my bday..

forever grateful to highschool tara who learned to paint her own nails out of spite bc shit is expensive

my beloved horsie

doc al’s laboratory..

you are much stronger than i am.. i tunnel vision a bit when i am really enjoying something. i hope it is enjoyable !! i’d love to go back through it with fresh eyes once the full thing is out

that’s so sweet!! fellow pi day birthday !! i hope you have a great bday tomorrow and it’s full of everything you enjoy

happy birthday!! i hope the cookies were delicious

can’t believe we’re gonna have nyc in ffxiv. when worlds collide. gonna dress irime in her pigeon outfit to run it

it was such a delight to draw the pony. i am sending him many carrots

the two of them.. i don’t think i’ve drawn them together and got a result that i liked

going through the live letter info.. feeling sad bc so many posts mention NA FF.. i hope it’s fun but im still really bummed about not getting tickets/ how much of a spotlight they shine on it

i’m not usually a fomo person but this feels scientifically engineered to give fomo

imo the whole shtick of these games is that you get lost in the game cycle for hours.. so much so you forget time exists. this game feels like it should do that but doesn’t have enough meat to back up the formula </3

def think they should’ve waited longer to release </3 fun but needs more substance

this is so real bc i hit the wall REALLY fast when the game first came out.. (not enough content at all tbh.. 1 seasons worth if that) i finished content rlly quick and then i havent felt motivated to pick it back up even though i really did enjoy it

24 hrs left of being 24.. taking poison dmg

my beloved horsie

idk if it will help w this but. i recommend papaya enzymes.. they help digest when food is heavy, too much.. my life savers

if you were hunching i suggest doing a little cobra/ sphinx pose.. opposite movement of the back helps

leave ur wol and i will maybe possible doodle them later. enjoying this new brush

very fun to play with exactly what makes them unique. irmela is very soft. bulkier. gentle looking

irime is sharper, more intense, but also fragile looking..

one forehead kiss for each of them

the two of them.. i don’t think i’ve drawn them together and got a result that i liked

cooking with gas !! i adore your lines.. cannot wait to see how this progresses 🙏

new brush lends itself to her unsettling stare..

since she can see aether pose light poisoning.. she has a bad habit of staring intensely at people during conversations as she peers at it

those who talk to her say they felt as though she was seeing right through them

quick egg drop soup for lunch.. first time and there are things i would change but it is yummy