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I'm not ready for another full week.

Somehow, it seems like whenever I have a healthy sleep schedule and get decent sleep, I'm less motivated and disciplined than when I have an insane fucked up sleep schedule and get poor sleep. I've gotten so much more done when I went to sleep at 5pm and woke up in the dead of night, than I do now.

how much longer must I suffer in the cold, taunted by warmth I'm unwilling to search for

I am not a doctor. But if I want to take random unprescribed drugs and see how they affect me, and am able to pay for them out of pocket, let me.

i'm just curious :(

The most minor inconveniences derail my entire day. I went into work super ambitious and dedicated, got on a roll.

Dropped one of my headphones and couldn't find it, never was able to refocus.

I think I have a problem.

I don't know you or your troubles,
But I swapped all my lights
To configurable led ones,
Keep them on a deep red,
And I haven't had
A migraine or headache since

This is an anecdote, I have no evidence, maybe it's all unrelated. I'm sorry and good luck.

Whenever I'm faced with a new challenge, I'm so immensely passionate, and that passion is sustained, but I've never been able to translate it into action.

Tuesday night
Tomorrow is a new day
Suffering eternally, the 9 to 5

For the past five years, since I graduated college, I have had the intense desire to be my best self. It never really occurred to me to care before that. However, even since gaining this awareness, I feel I have made no progress. It weighs on me heavily, this time I have wasted.

This is my degenerate account, but given that, it also seems like the best place to be my most vulnerable self.

guh

I've never felt so alone as when I did today's strands.