Amabel Holland

There is so much moral rot in mainstream media. I shouldn't still be surprised by it, and yet...

"Not all cis women" is just as bad when a trans woman is talking about her experiences of abuse as 'Not all men' when women are taking about their experiences of abuse.

Every time I write a critique of the New York Time's coverage of transgender people, people always tell me, "submit a letter to the editor."

I have, multiple times.

I don't think people understand how averse the NYT is to publishing a trans person.

It's almost frustrating that people ask me to.

Calling Cormac McCarthy’s authorial style a “mistake” that AI no longer makes is so funny

I don't tend to dwell on this. As I said, I have gained more than I ever lost; even if I had gained nothing but myself, that self would be worth it.

But this morning I remembered that person I had lost twice - first when they died, and then when I came to life. And I feel that loss acutely. 9/fin

My grandmother loved me dearly & fought for me fiercely but died before I had figured things out. My sister seems confident she would have embraced me & been happy for me. But I can't have that confidence. I can't ever *know*. 8/

Would this artist, who was openly quite progressive (albeit in a lib way), have celebrated Amabel? I have no way of knowing but I am made to doubt it. My ordinary grief at their passing now has a bitter taste I can't wash out of my mouth. 7/

We navigate the grief of cis people but there is also our grief losing them which also must be navigated. And that grief has a peculiar & alienating texture when it comes to someone who died before you transition, because you have no idea if their love was real. Doubt colors every remembrance. 6/

I have said before that I lost a lot to be Amabel, but that I gained far more than I ever lost. Which is true. And the things I gained are real, while much of what I lost wasn't. Love conditional on my suffering is not real love.

The grief is, though. 5/

Patience is not infinite nor is it always rewarded. You choose your battles. You decide while they're hurting you which ones you will forgive and which you will cut out of your heart. And some of those you choose to forgive & give patience to will come around & it might even be worth it. 4/

Part of transition is navigating the grief & anger of cis people who have "lost" you, who treat the person you never were as someone you have killed. It's repugnant & offensive, especially when you are right there, in front of them, alive, & might be alive for the first time. 3/

Maybe if they'd still been alive when I came out, the experience of actually knowing a trans person would have changed their minds. That does happen. I've seen it. Sometimes in a sudden bolt, sometimes slowly & messily after digging in & kicking & screaming. 2/

There was a creative professional who died before COVID, whose work I respected & admired, who I had the pleasure of knowing briefly & was very fond of. A couple years ago I learned what they thought of trans people, and it hit me like a kick in the stomach. 1/9

Yeah, he's been pretty openly right-wing and transphobic these last few years, and as someone who enjoyed his TV show many years ago it was disappointing.

Rally the Troops end state with Francis, blue, seemingly well ahead.

Fairly good win on that Cloth of Gold, doing well WITH the gold. As always there are 2 or 3 options each go, each with consequences further down the line that can help your opponent.

I know it's a lost battle at this point but I do wish the separation of rogue-like (games like Rogue) and rogue-lite (the run-based meta-progression games) had held because they really are philosophically different things

Some days you write a few thousand words for your book. Some days, the entire process of writing is beating your head against a wall , for hours, trying to figure out what on eath you're trying to say, and only having a few hundred words to show for it.

Guess which one I just had!

i’m bari weiss, not enough people are reading my shitty blog so i have to advertise on the network i’m running into the ground

like all jay has done as ceo is transphobia and have really public breakdowns. i could do half her job easily

Video essay: why Umamusume takes place in the Sorry to Bother You universe

It is really gratifying to hear that university students will have to read me prattling on about board games, Bertolt Brecht, and the bad coding of the swimming level in the Konami Ninja Turtles NES game

Cozy stickering and puzzle games | Here’s What I’ve Been Playing - February 2026 YouTube video by Board Game Blitz

My February game highlights included our second campaign playthrough of Cozy Stickerville from @unexpectedgames.bsky.social and a few puzzle games from @letibus.bsky.social ! Also attempting to figure out City of Six Moons from @amabel.bsky.social
youtu.be/R8Xl-FXmpt4

anytime i run into that "dem candidates don't owe you anything, not even trying to motivate you to vote for them" kinda stuff i try to picture how obama's campaign in '08 would've gone with a platform and message of "i don't owe you shit"

This is the classic BOAN defense:

"It invented EVERYTHING in the movies, just everything, you can't make it political... Seen it? No, I haven't seen it but it's terribly important!"

SB And Amabel Enjoy A Little Feast YouTube video by SB

Today on the stream, we open by continuing to look at the downhill trajectory of the Pitfall series, then play A Feast For Odin!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0N4...

A drawing of six weird eldritch dudes all spiked and looking like they got bad attitudes

Weird dudes from two weeks ago

Nomura no Famicom Trade was a stock trading application for the Japan-only dial-up modem add-on for the Famicom. Through a Nintendo collaboration, the game featured Mario on the information screen, doing a unique little dance.

"Cinema Sins" should be stuff like that time that director killed some children with a helicopter and got away with it, not "in frame 197 they have a picture of a magazine that wouldn't come out until 1991 and the movie takes place in 1990!!"

fascinated and confused by the concept of a "Hollandspiele gimmick"

spent the last two hours doing a word-by-word look-up to translate and then adapt a paragraph from Old English

this job I've made for myself is really weird and wonderful sometimes