Also can't believe I won't get a phone call on my birthday from my grandpa, no more grandparents at holiday get-togethers or family reunions, no more going over to Grandma or Grandpa's house, no more birthday or Christmas cards, no more hugs...I can't believe they're both gone
I spent all day outside yesterday tending to my yard and planting my flowers and veggies. It's not done yet but it's looking pretty good so far! Dirt therapy was much needed
I feel so lost. So many heavy things are happening right now and it's overwhelming. I don't know who or where to turn to. I'm hoping something good will come out of this but right now everything seems so daunting
One thing about me is the Oblivion soundtrack plays in the background at all times
I'm beyond tired of hating myself. Radical self-acceptance is great and all when you're able to do it, but what if your brain refuses to do it? It feels like a mental block. Maybe I should create an alter ego or something
It's awful. Then you start wondering what you did and that just makes it worse
Does anyone else get overwhelmingly nauseous when people in your life unexpectedly start treating you differently?
Update on the German chocolate cheesecake: I read the recipe wrong and used pans that were too small. I ended up making two cakes. Both ended up cracking, which doesn't affect the taste, but the filling is a lot more solid than I wanted so we'll see. But I did it!
I'm officially making german chocolate cheesecake for Nik for his birthday this week. I've never made a cheesecake before so I'm nervous but also excited to see if I can pull it off
A page consisting of 4 drawings: snails kissing, a snail holding a flower, another snail holding a pink candy heart, and snails residing inside a tulip.
snail love 💗
I want to grow more greens, but at the time of buying seeds I wasn't considering it so I'll have to pick some up. I totally recommend Dollar Tree for seeds! Right now it's 4 packets for $1.25
With a possible food shortage on the horizon, I think I'm going to take full advantage of my outdoor space and make a victory garden. Extra produce will go to anybody who needs it or local food banks. So far I have onions, peppers, zucchini, tomatoes, chives, and cilantro.
Happy National Embroidery Month my friends!
Yesterday I saw an 18 count of eggs for over $8. A regular 12 count was just under $5. Absolutely outrageous and this is just the start of it.
It's time to use those years of repressed anger towards something productive
I would get sick right now 🙄
Background image of a grass and wild flower field with the text “touching grass is not enough i need bad things to happen to evil men in power.”
Today’s mood:
I don't even know what to do anymore. I feel so powerless. I know this is what they want and I shouldn't give in to this feeling. I didn't expect the future to be like this.
Weird that we have to say this, but the government doesn’t get to decide what gender a person is.
A family of splitgill mushrooms grow aligned on the edge of an upturned branch in a bare winter forest. They look like seashells on wet stone All photos by me
Here are some nice mushrooms
This year I tackle my internet addiction bc the way people were in a chokehold over an app going dark is nuts to me. I'm begging y'all to go outside and touch some grass
On a lighter note, I finally gave one of my friends their Christmas gifts and they loved them 🥹 absolutely warms my heart
Torn on maintaining a social media presence (which is barely there to begin with) or go radio silent and learn to maintain friendships the old fashion way.
Or get a cat.
A pink lunar moth lays on their back holding up a pink heart-shaped lightbulb on their legs. It makes the scene glow while several stars surround the moth. The moth’s eyes sparkle.
mesmerized 💡
This feels like when I left Myspace for Facebook. Oh how the turn tables
