🥀 Wilting Flower's Corner 🥀

I've also accepted that no one cares about me, and that's okay.
I'm not worth shit, anyway.

I've been shouldering this pain alone for a while now.
I've been so patient and kind with people, only to be taken advantage of and getting hurt in the process.

I don't expect anything from people anymore.
I don't think I can trust people outside my close circle anymore.

I'm so tired, chief.

Or maybe kill myself altogether, even.

I might as well fucking isolate myself from everyone else besides my wife and disappear.

I'M SO TIRED, DUDE.

I LITERALLY BROKE DOWN YESTERDAY BECAUSE THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD WAS GETTING TO ME AND NO ONE CHECKED ON ME BESIDES MY WIFE.

NOT EVEN MY AUNT AND COUSIN DO IT ANYMORE.

No one bothers to ask me "Are you okay?", "Do you want company?", etc besides my fucking wife.

No one reaches out to check on me anymore.

I feel like I'm talking to a fucking wall at this point.

I'm tired.
I want 2025 to end.

It's so tempting

What if I disappeared from social media lol

I'm tired of being hurt.

I can't trust people anymore, huh.

So much resentment boiling up and it's killing me.

Man maybe I should kill myself.

Man maybe I should start doing these as a side thing to vent idk.
This one is about the most recent happenings in the states.
But, I'm tired of living here.

(A positive vent for once!! Yay!!!)

I'm finally realizing how madly in love I am with my soon-to-be wife..
I'm crying over it.

I'm so happy to have her in my life.
And I'm so happy to marry her later today.

I'm probably gonna isolate myself now, too.
I can't deal with this pain anymore.

I'm even accepting the fact that I'm not worthy of love, either.
Especially platonic love and romantic love.

I'm so tired.
I'm not worthy of anything, and I'm accepting that now.

I already lost a few more friends and had more people cut me off this year alone.
Most of them being friends of a decade or more.

I'll be on my own again.
And if it does happen again, I'll accept it.

I have people who care about me, sure.
But what if they leave me?

Man maybe I'm not worthy of anything.
I'm just gonna be this annoying piece of shit, I guess.

It feels weird trying to make amends with people from the past, but it's also like...
A good feeling, too?
I can't describe it, but regardless, it feels nice to try to rekindle my connections from years ago.

How does one deal with a family member (specifically their bio aunt) telling you that you didn't mean a whole heartfelt and genuine apology and came off as passive-aggressive to you after attempting to make amends with the aunt?