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i really hate myself soooo much wow

having dreams about a random
person that leave a weird feeling in your stomach that you cant ignore

i feel like i ask for very little and then im made to feel bad when i dont get what i do ask for

this has been fun but ive had enough of being alive and existing now im gonna head out

i always get terrible news when im off my meds and not emotionally/mentally equipped to handle it like can u all wait until a better time

the bonjela isnt working anymore its over

i picked up a different brand of toothpaste and now i have like 3-4 ulcers in my mouth

moving house when you’re at the point of ending it all is an experience

i had a really bad mental breakdown a couple years ago and this has been feeling really similar so i am understandably Very concerned. unfortunately ive got no idea how to prevent it

think im on my period. tracks

i dont really want to be here anymore

what if i walked away and went missing

my mum may have neglected me mentally and emotionally but she transfers money to my bank account sometimes so thats fine

thinking about my childhood again and connecting dots

i wonder when ill actually be happy and content with my life

i try to be nice and kind but i am very selfish at my core

my ideal role in life is the person that controls the sims and helps them achieve their goals and keeps them happy

i wish i was like a little orb of light floating around that didnt have to worry about being alive but still able to see the world and watch the people i care about

im deaddd worried about finances once we move because this place is way more expensive but im hoping it will help with my mental health having my bf around and being in a nicer flat. maybe i can actually do more

being this age is also so weird like i feel so old and so young at the same time. like my life is just beginning really but w the current state of things it feels like its already over lmfao

ive been feeling really shitty and like a failure lately like i know my circumstances have been different from others so theres only so much ive been able to do but its so hard watching others succeeding while im still at the starting line basically

its “everyone hates you and wishes u were gone” hours

hii i still have a stress headache