And I’m not gonna like
Do a little dance and be like
Yippee I’m back
Cuz like
Ough.
The internet hellscape that’s being dealt with
And also it’s almost April so I’ll have to not exist for a bit BUT
We live. Despite it all we still live brother.
feels off to just link a tumblr post and vanish but I enjoy the epic raymond bunny edit
I didn’t think that my uterus would be a public fucking discussion
I can handle arguments or bullshit drama. I can handle me being a fucking cunt in the past and having people hate me for it
I cant handle this.
I can’t fucking do this.
Fucking dissecting me like I’m a frog
“Oh but you can’t have a kid if you use he/him and ohh you can’t feel dysphoria if you want a kid tho”
Fucking bringing up wikis and news articles about my fucking mental illness and debating on “should they really have kids” like I’m a god damn lab rat
Looked and saw I got some more messages on my other accounts that I forgot to turn off
And I think I’m just
Done ig.
You win
That horrible monster jazzy is defeated you win you fuckers found the one god damn thing to break me you fucking win
Sorry I try to not post my shit online that much anymore but y’know shit fucking hurts me to my core and it’s hard to keep up the Yippee!! /silly!! Yay!!! WAAA!! personality trait a lot of the time
staring at the baby pillow i got several years ago for when "we could have a kid"
thought I threw it out when I was breaking down
guess my husband grabbed it and saved it
trying to not sob uncontrollably rn about it
//thank u for the kind words btw, I do appreciate it, thank you <3
honestly should've known better than to say anything to begin with, so kind of asked for it by sayin summthin
anons got some dots confused on tryin to hit my low hangin fruit but
i'll be alright i suppose
already had to turn my anons off on my askblogs but I guess I gotta do the art one now too 😔
I suppose thats what I get for speaking up about something
Why
One fear
I can barely make a post saying
“Please don’t use colored text when interacting with me I can’t read it”
Without instantly being flooded with assholes spamming it just to get my goat
I cannot fucking fathom what would happen if I posted about my grief or the soul crushing despair I’ve been given
Local man only opens a social media post to bitch and cry about life problems
Wish I could make any sort of vent art without it looking like “edgy furry sketch vent comic” or giving people ammunition to hurt me about it
And it sounds so fucking stupid to wail and cry about something that you want so much but just can’t fucking obtain
I never thought I would be in the chair of this soul crushing fucking despair over it all but I just don’t know what to do anymore
Can’t just take a break from everything because that’ll leave me with nothing but everything I’ve made is now looking directly at me and mocking everything I’m going through and I hate it
First world problems who cares but me I care
That’s all I got man
I don’t know what I’m gonna do now
I can’t even really work on my blogs because so many of them either contain
Death
Or
Children
And I just have locked myself into a hell of “everything you created is now mocking your struggles” and I hate it I hate it
"Shaythulu... well, frankly, we don't know where or what it came from." Cherry says. Shaythulu gleefully laughs in the background, amused at the attempt to decipher its mystery.
I love my little eldritch entity
#Shaymin #Pokemon #PokemonArt #JanobiiArt
I LOVE and cherish when people give me doodles like these as references for commissions! Ppl have done it before and I get happy whenever it happens, trust me when I say these types of drawings help artists a LOT
(I have aphantasia too so it helps me A LOT more on top of it being useful in general)
Having a caprisun with my grilled cheese
I’m four years old
I haven’t made a grilled cheese sandwich since like 2019 wow
Posting a daily log onto my blog and then instantly reblogging fifty million things so it get lost and nobody ever sees it ever
Heh… once you dig through hundred pounds of bullshit… you’ll find I’m quite an open book… ;)
does he know how much I hate him
pathetic manthing....
Why do so many trailers just
Show almost the entire movie..
“Well there are some things they didn’t show” yeah but like
I know the movie now bro 😭
Why you showin summthin that would’ve been a good surprise/twist to view on my own man
Had a dream that I was stuck in highschool and was overly worried about finding a date for winter formal and was having a panic attack over being seen alone and be a loser
Woke up like
Oh thank god I’m not in school and married and don’t have to worry about that shit anymore
I just wish I didn’t have to do it at all
But like
:((((( man. I want to add tiny text to my posts and update/move around my tags if needed
Having to reupload almost 90% of Ask-Eden’s refs to match the new tumblr post format…
Spamming my fuckin followers BUT I had to rip that bandaid off now lmaO
