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FUCK!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO FUCKING SICK OF RUINING MY OWN LIFE WHILE IM ACTIVELY TRYING TO FIX IT!!!! I FOCUS ON ONE THING AND EVERYTHING ELSE FUCKING FALLS APART°°°°°!!!!!!!!!!!

idk what im gonna do lol im such a fucking idiot

how to blow up your entire life and cause nothing but strife in one easy step

i actually think quitting my job is the worst mistake ive ever made im my life i feel so fucking dumb

and if only i would just do things right, i could be like them too. well im fucking tired and i have tried to do things right and it feels like im fucking drowning and everyone around me is just swimming and looking at me with secondhand embarrassment like "why doesnt he just swim"

at least if im inherently defective, theres something sort of romantic and dramatic about that. because the alternative is that everyone is just like me but they are just better at everything. they are just better at being a person. they do things right and i do things wrong.

ive been trying to sweep my shit up n every year it feels like i just get worse at it. it doesnt help. doing it the way they tell you to do it doesnt help. its pretty hard to not feel like its because something about me is inherently defective

i see artists fulfilling their passions and getting opportunities, see people who are able to just get up and be normal every day. and im so fucking jealous. but theres no help for people who cant. if you cant youre just fucked and thats it. there's no option to lay at the foot of the bed.

if tumblr just allowed porn again it fully sweep every other social media by a long shot

and a discount$$$ if you want me to draw cyberpunk shit since thats the bullshit im on rn

been doing some comic page commissions too that are fun so between 140-200 for pretty much any comic page imaginable (typically 1/2 larger drawings and 1 or 2 small close-up panels)

good morning blueskyers, im open for a few commissions while im currently unemployed and figuring out wtf to do with my life so if anyone wants some art come get me!! ill work with whatever budget you're feeling but general range is 70-110 for 1 character, fully rendered, or 100-130 for 2 characters

old fat johnny yoinkin it

Ramattra doodle I drew high as fuck
i just want to marry him

old fat johnny yoinkin it

kerry bouncing on it. and by it i mean old fat johnny silverhand

meant to post this here

young johnny kerry cyberpunk having horny sex

the

u are funny as hell btw i love you. im already working "peanits exploded" into my everyday lexicon bc of your tags

c...cockwarming 👍

posting wips is keeping me sane while i work on this thing so

hard to decide between keeping flat colors (keeps the original gesture/vibe of the sketch a lot more clear) or rendering (sexy and immersive)

yeah

i started a new tumblr for my cyberpunk shit if anyone uses tumblr and wants to follow me :3 username is preem-milk

in fact take this too

take every wip idc anymore

THANK U SQUIB

yeah man you ever just

how it started, how its going (unemployed final boss)