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At least I wouldn't bother anyone like I did her again

I'm sorry. Bad mental day and the constant dreams reminding me of my failure aren't helping me feel like I should do anything other than die off

I guess I kind of deserve to get assaulted by unwanted dreams of someone who left and abandoned me. I don't get to move on from that like they did. I will hurt for that until I get to die alone like I probably deserve and like they'd prefer

I don't think I belong in anyone's life at all, let alone arms 🫂

I guess I'm just scared I need to stay out of everyone's way. I don't belong in people's lives. I don't belong anywhere.

I just need to be isolated and left by everyone. I'm in the way otherwise

Sleep well, but I know I can be forgotten. Everyone has people they love and relish being around. I can never be that for a single human being.

I'm forgettable, and if I didn't force conversations like I do nobody would even know I exist, let alone if I died

I just know I can be forgotten about so easily by people that I know I don't matter. I can't. Someone who matters wouldn't be so easy to throw away and forget while she rots on her own

My brain is usually all I'm spending time around now unfortunately. I just feel pointless

I'm pretty easy to simply abandon. Forgetting me and my writing if I disappear seems easy.

I'm sorry. I just feel like I don't matter at all. Like my personality is nothing and if I died nobody would even notice.

I'm scared I'm a dry, personalityless husk writing about nothing

Really nervous maybe I delete that chapter, delete everything and don't bother anyone ever again

actually drop your mechsploitation stories below and she'll repost them all!!

And (if you don't mind double dipping) PACKMATES is something I am desperately trying to contain to a one-shot about a plural hound's unbroken alters rebelling against the system's conditioning and breaking free. If you wanna see a Handler get Her shit rocked, this one's for you!

Sent Stranded, the first larger, long term narrative part of Singing Strix.

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Singing Strix Side Mission #1: Fire in Her Eyes (the last real optional starting point!)

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Singing Strix Part One: Our Nest.

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Hunter Without a Nest Bailey Cluanaire is the best of the best, and it's making mech piloting a bore. But, when a contract with an odd rebel base teases a larger conspiracy, Bailey sees the chance to get her blood pumpi...

Singing Strix's optional prelude, Hunter Without a Nest.

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[REDACTED] Stranded Chapter 9 The White Hawk's Resolve 3021 Words (This section is placed next to a stylized badge for Operation White Hawk) Tags Mechsploitation, Drama, Angst, Mentions of Rape and Sexual Assault, Psychological Torture, Trauam, Serious These Two Chapters Are Darker, If This One is Too Much For You The Next One is MUCH Rougher, (This section is placed next to a Singing Strix logo) [REDACTED] Details: Nataliza Rayfield awakens once more in the steel pits of Hell, and is greeted by The Devil herself... (Next to this section is a scannable QR code)

Act One of Sent Stranded is finished. Now begins a two week trip to the pits of Hell itself to see how Nataliza Rayfield is holding up...

Chapter 9 is available to read now.

Operation White Hawk proceeds on.

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First ever early access chapter is up on Patreon! Read Chapter 10 two days early and see the absolute horrors Nataliza Rayfield is going through.

CW///Mentions of Rape and Sexual Assault, Surgical Gore, Psychological Torture

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Okay so got the QR code easter egg done for Chapter 10 and this one took a lot of thought and a good bit more effort than usual, so doing my mechsplo jam doc tomorrow or Monday.

Chapter 10 of Sent Stranded releases publicly tomorrow, and it's not for the faint of heart :)

A picture of Bailey Cluanaire, the protagonist of Singing Strix.

PLEASE REFORM TO CHRIST SHE LOOKS LIKE THIS I SWEAR

Traveling again today, feeling kinda bleh (hangover), requesting people say nice things about my writing :>

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mom pick me up, ela is having opinions on the internet again

Always nice to my friendy <3

I believe in you and will help however I can <3

Please note that the Communion wine may taste funny if you're a pretty girl. It's probably fine!

PUPPY NICEY TO MESEYS!!!

Glad you like her because she's not gonna be gone for long :)

Wholesome, my bestie and one of my favorite porndolls are getting along :)

But ALSO rest and look after yourself :c

Definitely contributes to it sadly yeah! I guess part two of my advice is also to simply have solid planning work done. I have docs on top of docs done specifically so I can write with a somewhat consistent schedule.

Planning work is SO important for making writing easier!