Charlene Caruthers

Another semester begins tomorrow! Honestly, I’m looking forward to be in a regular routine again.

I think I finally figured out why a story I wrote a few years ago hasn’t been working. This rewrite is going a lot better in my opinion

What gives me anxiety/ stress is seeing everyone I know reach their publishing goals and feeling behind/ jealous because I’m not there yet I’ve got three projects that I start and stop bc of lack of time
I just have to keep reminding myself we all move at our own pace and I’ll get there eventually.

Freshening up on my Spanish bc i gotta take a translation exam and it’s stressing me out bc I really forgot how many rules there are in Spanish 🙃

I’m just hoping I can pass on the first try 😅

A prof told me to consider sending in my seminar paper for best seminar paper award this spring semester 🥹

going into my second semester of this doctoral program 😎 high key excited for this Queer Theory course … idk what we learning specifically but I know it’s gonna be 🔥

Also this year I’m making a concerted effort to cut back on sweets … I’m ready to cave in 🫤

My dog really yelled at me bc she was ready for bed and I was still watching … Went to the room, turned out the lights and laid down and she finally stopped barking… I got a full toddler on my hands and it’s wild 🙃
Why is my dog so damn sassy?!?!

The way my vocab has expanded within the few months of being in this PhD program… I never seen/ heard the word epistemology and now I’m out here using in a sentence for an essay I’m writing 😅

Conducted a random job search just to see what’s there and I basically need to publish my novel and write/ publish some academic essays to even have a shot at getting the job I want.

So I’m basically gonna have an insanely busy winter / summer break 😅

One thing about my dog is that she will tell me when she ready for bed … all lights gotta be off by 9 or else. She must think that’s she’s the alpha in this house

Current season of Love is Blind is so painful to watch 😬

One of my classmates said that my ideas in class are really helping them understand the material and that made my day bc I really do feel like I make no sense when I talk about the readings … I stay feeling like I’m struggling 🥹

It’s been a hard week… and I’m mentally and emotionally drained.

I’m sure if I stopped procrastinating I could finish these next 18 pages before my eyes get too tired to even bother reading in the first place 🙃

Also, I just wanna express how much I love Toni Morrison! I’m reading Sula for the first time and I’m speechless

If I have to see the word canon or canonical one more time … I might actually scream. This book I’m reading for a class has probably used it at least 80 times within the first 50 pages. I’m so over it. 😑

It’s been a productive morning!

After a month of being in my new place I finally found the energy to put the rest of my clothes in my dresser… 😂 it’s been a rough couple of weeks

No problem 👌🏾

Rosalind and Celia’s character and the article was “And Browner than her brother “ : “misprized” Celia’s racial identity and transversility in As You Like it” Jana Segal

Am I a nerd for being extremely excited about an article that confirms a theory I had a bout a character in Shakespeare play As You Like It?

You know you’re a nerd when you’re excited about a research paper topic 😂

I have a flash essay in the latest issue of Bodega Magazine. This piece was difficult to write but it means a lot to me. Shout out to my RWW fam for reading the first version of it. (Content warning for sexual assault) www.bodegamag.com/articles/642...

Officially reached the point in the semester where I feel guilty for leaving a task/ assignment for the next day 🙃 .
Just glad there’s no classes tomorrow

Heading into week two of my program. I’m pretty excited 🥰

Obligatory First day of class selfie 🥰
#roadtoPhD

See the one reason I like school is bc each semester I always end up knocking at least 2 or 3 books off my TBR list and engage with them critically 😄

Thank you! ♥️

I start my doctoral program tomorrow! 🥹 🥰

I start my PhD program Monday 🥹
And my cohort is full of really friendly people.

Oh shit it’s happening … I just got my first syllabus for the semester… 😅
It finally hit me ya girl really bouts to spend the next 4 years working toward a PhD ☺️