Miss Melancholy

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Also like people talking to me on a sidewalk like please don’t I don’t know you but I’d feel too bad if I just walked away ignoring

I’m a fucking shut in loser who spends all her free time on a medieval point and click cookie clicker rhythm game why tf do I look like someone who wants to talk to anybody

I was navigating a transit station last week and some guy up and started talking a bit and he was being overly friendly and such, after a while when he started asking questions like “are you married?” “are you single?” and at that point I was like yeah I should exit this conversation and leave asap

I think that people are hitting on me more often when I go out and have to interact with people and it’s like what the fuck yall must be really down bad because I look like a grotesque monstrosity with a worse personality it’s like get some standards holy hell yall can do better

Oh my fucking god I am feeling incredibly upset and wanting to cry tonight but I have no idea what even caused that switch to flip and because of that I’m also frustrated and feeling more upset because of that lmao

I’d play it on mobile lol

Happy birthday! 🎉

Cat yawned, I zoomed up to put my finger in her mouth mid yawn, get trolled noob

Vanity is my 2nd worst deadly sin

I should probably tweeze my eyebrows tomorrow

Making breakfast at night for dinner

Does anyone have a good *budget* Fitbit alternative that is accurate and at least has most the features? I lost my Charge 6 I had for a couple years about a month ago and I’ll be damned if I’m paying those prices for a new one but also I really miss having a tracker I liked the numbers

Been really enjoying apples and applesauce lately too

Why does he say “would” and not “will”?

It feels dystopian about how sports betting just goddamn exploded and plastered everywhere and how easy it is to like you said lose 6mo rent in 3 seconds & that warped into betting on every goddamn thing under the sun up to and including “will bombs get dropped” and “leaders captured/assassinated?”

I could stop getting my nails done, hair dyed, snd comic books but doing those makes me happy and feel better about myself and I like to treat myself every so often. Also it’s been 6mo since last dyed and will be ~4mo more

Lottery tickets just makes me feel like a disappointed idiot who wasted $2

My store loyalty list is:
1) local comic book store where I get my weekly picture books
2) gas station chain I can use debit card to occasionally get lottery tickets
3) local nail salon where I get nails done
4) hair salon where I get hair dyed every ~6 mo
5) Aldi because it cheap af

Also I love Aldi I got 2lbs of dry pinto beans for $1.99 and for whatever forsaken reason getting non bulk sizes at a ≤$1 price point seems hella hard because 1lb is like two weeks worth so 2 is a month and honestly I don’t want to get like 10-20lbs to save money because they’d probably get funky

Also still terrified of people IRL knowing my internet name because lol lmao I post things

I should probably eat something soon though I had oatmeal like 11 hours ago and that’s been it

Just been posting on the bluesky about random stuff today depending on whatever I’m currently thinking about lmao

Throwback to when I tried to cook rice and ended up with charcoal

Also I guess bouillon cubes for both drinking and cooking beans in is variable based on cost and availability that might be the meat flavored ones but again cost over 100% avoiding plus I hate eating bland food when a few extra cents a serving adds flavor

Also I need freezer space to store two weeks worth of beans

Also soy milk is good to drink and I hate drinking dairy milk it’s just so weird and I am simultaneously the only sibling in my family who isn’t lactose intolerant while also being the one who eats the least dairy anyway despite that fact

I’ve legit grabbed a bottle of water numerous and started reading the nutrition labels and I just have to stare off in space for a few seconds because it’s plain water it’s all 0s all the way down why am I reading this out of habit

I’ve read so many nutritional labels because I am mentally ill I am pretty good at seeing something and just eyeball math serving size calories and get pretty accurate

I’ll obviously still eat whatever I have on hand but yeah soon I’ll be back on my beans and rice bullshit I’m already eating oatmeal again and ngl I missed oatmeal and I cook bean good and I miss that. I can’t fucking cook rice properly to save my life though so I got a box of instant rice lmao

I could do veganism but 1) I’m not reading the ingredient labels on things if it’s cheap since I already read nutritional labels on everything 2) I like cheese with my beans and rice 3) I like over easy eggs and omelettes as a nice treat 4) the fancy vegan versions of 2 and 3 are fuck off expensive