It’s missing something without my own art on there, so I still can’t wait till I feel well enough to do the rest 😌
(…Another reason to use these two as subjects is that they at least fit overtop the humanoid pose dolls XD)
That said, the general quiet of this place afforded me the freedom to share some feelings I might not have shared on busier platforms (such as talking about the story that got called out in the first place) and may continue to stay this way 😅
...What I really wanted was to prove that I am still *me.*
Not that I can draw right now with my hands recovering slowly from some kind of repetetive stress injury I seem to have given myself, but I'd like to keep sharing my art and more "entertaining" thoughts in a multiplatform way. ^^
So, I restarted my tumblr. It's kinda sparse, but it's live...back on its traditional home of tumblr.com/desultory-novice
I spent a lot of time thinking before realizing that trying to change my identity (or "brand" or whatever😑) felt more like I *did* do something wrong I had to hide from.
You just haaaad to implant this idea into my brain, eh?
Any day I get to share with someone that there is a Kirby fishing fan game out there is a good day. X'''D I'm delighted that this is a thing that exists.
Thank you, Sorta! For all this poor AU has been through, I'm glad I could give it a proper tribute here!
Thank you so much, Kat! 💖 I'm so glad you think so! ✨
A human (gijinka) version of Dark Matter Swordsman from Kirby's Dream Land 2. His visor and armor are attached by veins that pin his arms back and thread into his body, feeding the parasitic eye lodged in his torso. His sword glows with dark energy, though judging by his tormented expression and the tears gathering in his eyes, this act is against his will.
Adeleine from Kirby 64 is painting alone at night in a forest by lantern and moonlight. She looks up at the night sky, barely able to make out two figures (Kirby and Dark Matter Swordsman) battling backlit against the moon. She cannot see clearly what is going on, but something about the scene makes her heart ache, even if she cannot say why.
~The Swordsman and The Painter~
Closing out 2025 with some Dark Matter Swordsman and Adeleine from #Kirby (Forever fond of my hc for these two.)
いつも皆に送る暖かな面白い写真という名の「プレゼント」をありがとうございます！メリークリスマス・アンド・ハッピーホリディズ・トウ・ユー・トウー！
Merry Christmas to everyone! (It's already the 26th over here!) Sharing a sketch of Adeleine and Ribbon in Santa hats! Not being able to put them in silly cosmetic items in game doesn't mean I can't *draw* them with silly cosmetic items...!
#Kirby #カービィ
Lol, I'm sorry to everyone who found me thanks to my Air Riders pic and then realized my last few posts were all weirdly depressive regarding some big trauma thing.
I'm...
Well, I'm just *me* I think a lot about Kirby and art and creating and things in addition to somethings getting mopey. ^^
Thank you! I feel like she’d probably like it more than the racing part too! 😁
Enough being sad…!
I haven’t been drawing a lot lately, but when I do, it’s loosely Kirby Air Riders related!
Adeleine might not be in the game, but she continues to exist in the hearts of the fans!
When I previously tried to say something in a public space, she sent a third-party re-open communication, only to send more hurtful comments and demands my way. But what am I supposed to do...? If I share how it makes me feel, I'm afraid she'll just hunt me down again...
I thought about remaking my tumblr tonight because of X's lastest frightening update and the fact that my HnK Secret Santa present posted and I wanted to say something nice about it but...the panic attack hit *instantly*
I've been trying to sort through all the pain and hurt and find what it is I really like/love, and if there's a way to do that and to just be *me* and not be consumed by doubts and bad memories.
I'm going to keep trying.
I think my passion has to come with a reason, at least.
Thank you so much, Kat. I miss talking to you and hearing your thoughts too...! If I thought I could take it, I would return to the Nexus server in a heartbeat but right now...
...Even without that old audience of friends and followers, maybe getting some of these thoughts off my chest will help...even a little? And maybe I'll be hungering to say it less on the inside if I just *say* it now?
I think leaving was the right thing but damn do I miss it...!
...I already know I'm madly craving the attention I used to get for doing things like this. ^^;
That, lonely as I might be without those familiar voices sending little hearts my way for every rushed stroke of my pen, this kind of 'thing' is just feeding a bad addiction.
But maybe...
And I find I'm still massively under the sway of my needier, more childish emotions even now, else I wouldn't be here posting this "tumblr-esque" decompression ramble about an ultimately minor blip in the fabric of the Kirby fandom that everyone but me has already moved on from...
I *dreamt* of doing more with it. Animatics and such. Maybe spread my little Dark Matter Swordsman theory around some more...? But I was dreaming too lofty.
I got over-invested. The rush of sharing. The interactions. The likes. I truly did feel like a *novice*
...Not at art, but at the *internet*
...I put a lot of work into it. A lot of heart.
I don't know where this is going. Do I feel regret for deleting everything? Possibly. I know that at least for *that* week, I was in so much emotional distress I couldn't bear to stay.
Not like my AU would have gone further than it did though...
Thanks to Air Riders, there's actually a canonical "Noir" in Kirby now. He's cool and edgy yet sweet and pitiable - everything I tried to make my Noir out to be...
I love the new Noir but the more I see that name around, the more sad I get. My little AU was always just a fan story but...
One silly, mostly unnecessary story (that I actually thought the "someone" in question might be happy (!) to see as opposed to object to it to the degree they did ^^; ) and I destroyed years of my own precious content.
But...I don't know... Maybe it was for the best...?
This is the story led to the deletion of my tumblr, by the way! I noncon, age-gap, forced-femme'd my OC (with a side of mindbreak) in an AU to write a good end (!) lesbian romance with him and his "girl + friend" and...
...someone responded to it in a way that really hurt.
...Oops, I forgot about this place so hard that I didn't bother to delete it when I deleted my tumblr, haha. Well, too tired to do that now so I guess this place can stay as the last bastion of what the Desultory Novice account was.
Kirbtober 2025 - Day 5 "Fav. Character"
They are all (Dark Matter Swordsman, Marx, Magolor) my favorite character and I am not picking between them! Doesn’t mean THEY won’t fight over it though! 😆
Kirbtober 2025 - Day 4 "Copy"
"My very best and strongest magic...
...and it is only a pale copy of you."
