Iโm at the weird stage of internet semi popularity where I genuinely have no idea what people follow me for but also have the crushing knowledge that my words and ideas have reached thousands. Like what the fuck does a โZayda the forward thinkerโ fan look like? What is a YouTuber? Am I one?
I just finished Homura Hime and absolutely adored it! The most spiritually ps2 game Iโve played in a while. Questionable translation, unnecessary super move mechanic, incredibly fun gameplay and immaculate game feel. It gets two big thumbs up from me!
Btw, if it's not clear:
The tactic the right is using rn is to start censoring fetishes and kinks that are generally accepted to be "bad" or "gross" by most people to slowly warm us up to the idea of censoring all sexual expression online.
Don't fall for this by going "this is actually based!!"
I know calling reps is very nerve racking. You're not sure what's the right thing to say, and tbh having a script thrown at me makes things just as nerve racking.
I called today, and I figured I'd write up a transcript of how my call went down. Hopefully it helps demystify the process
also this isn't a diss I actually kind of love that mmo's skew older
If you wanna fuck a single milf you should play an MMO. honest to god have never seen a bigger coalition of 40 year-olds than the average MMO player base in 2026. this shit is the unc genre
I could keep going all day but the point is: if you want to make good representation than just write people as complex human beings with lived experiences and feelings lmao. Also maybe use a sensitivity consultant if your really worried about it
โI want more black women in media but she can never be upset at anything, also she has to be the smartest most correct person in the room but she canโt be that way all the time because we donโt want her to be tokenized, oh also she also canโt be sexual in any way because I hate womenโs sexualityโ
โI want more trans women in fiction but she canโt be masculine in any way, or be feminine before her transition because thatโs erasure of feminine men, but also she canโt be sexual in any way, also her partner must be bisexual because mono sexuals cant love trans womenโ -the average tumblr user
I think the way people talk about perfect representation is so funny cuz theyโll just slowly walk back around to having the conservative opinion again if you let them go off for long enough
My 25th birthday is coming up and I feel the crotchety old lady in me forming like a primordial demon whispering in my ear making me want to yell at clouds
Never trust a bitch with an account who only posts bitching. Like if youโre so good at game design why arenโt you a game designer? If you know so much about healthy food why arenโt you a nutritionist? If you know so much about writing whereโs your work? Itโs amateur and itโs embarrassing
I think the worst part of the modern internet is how through content we treat all opinions as being equal. I cannot tell you how many god awful takes Iโve seen from video essayists, diet bloggers, health channels and political accounts Iโve seen that get empowered only because they have a microphone
Iโm so infinitely charmed by text based eroge cuz theyโre the only place where I can read some shit like
โThe refreshing taste of the sports drink cures you and you feel a part of you better understands hydration in its truest formโฆ +๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐๐ญ๐ง๐๐ฌ๐ฌโ
Also inverse of this is how a lot of techniques taught for screen acting actually make you a dog shit voice actor. Hence why so many celebrity voice actors from film and tv deliver such bizarre performances when put in a animated film
Just finish FFXIV ENDWALKER andโฆ holy fuckโฆ 10/10โฆ new top 3 video game of all time?โฆ I am a changed womanโฆ
I remember back when I was a kid my ifunny feed was like exclusively anime girls kissing and I was so terrified my sister (bisexual tumblr teenager) was gonna find out and think I was fetishizing lesbians
This was my version of Catholic guilt
Today is me and my partnerโs 5th anniversary! Be happy for us or DIE
Couldnโt fit my thoughts into one post so you get my Secret Technique: Notes App Blast
Sometimes I just sit around and think about the RWBY X Justice league movies because I think they may genuinely be the worst cross over of all time. Like I struggle to think of any other crossover so universally hated by both fanbases and with almost nothing to show for it lmao
Did my estrogen shot right before drinking a cup of cold brew and I can FEEL them waging war in my body over wether Iโm tired or awake
I think we just have to accept that the "long ass background noise yapfest" style of video may no longer be favorable to long term growth on youtube. so what's gonna work now? who knows!
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the video is underperforming and sabotaging it in the algorithm by not showing it in recommended feeds. honestly I'm kinda shocked it took me this long to figure out why my last two videos mega underperformed but alas. so what am I gonna do about this? I dunno honestly... 3/4๐งต
long form content in the background while being tabbed out... hopefully you see how this connects to me. looking at the analytics on my last two videos I can clearly see that almost all the viewers on my channel who watch on desktop are not being counted and then because of that youtube thinks- 2/4๐งต
Mini thread discussion time cuz I think it's interesting: recently the YouTube algorithm has changed in such a way that has now made it that views from a desktop with an ad block and aren't engaging are no longer counted. this has inversely impacted channels with tech savvy viewers that put on- 1/4๐งต
Love playing ff14 with my partner! LOOK AT US!!!
I yearn for employment fr fr
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We gotta make a lesbian version of the term bear, cuz like thatโs what I am. A mama bear if you will
