whatever i’m done now. i know i shouldn’t do it. just sucks. i don’t really care what people think about me but also knowing some people perceive me as this horrible person when i really try not to be is just. idk. oh well life goes on
i even have to go out of my way to do it bc she has me blocked lmao. it’s just frustrating to see reposts about bad friends manipulators and red flags from her when the video is basically verbatim talking about her. i’ll never understand people with a victim complex
my toxic trait is looking at this bitch who did me dirty’s tiktoks and reposts and pissing myself off in the process
AND THIS ONE IS 18 AND CANT TAKE A HINT BUDDY FIRST OF ALL IM TOO OLD‼️‼️‼️‼️
if another one of my coworkers falls in love with me i might actually go berserk
WHY ME WHY ME
god why can’t i sleep normally!!!! please let me sleep!!!!
just want them to prosper because they deserve all the good things in life and more :( fuck mental illness man!!!
i wish my bf had more confidence in themself bc they could do such great things. so very smart and capable but so very scared :( and i try to help but yknow when you have so much self doubt and anxiety it really makes you limit yourself bad. speaking from experience
i need more friends.. my irl friends don’t like me anymore for god knows what reason and i don’t think my online friends do either.. which that makes sense bc i am really bad at replying :( but i wanna be better
pretending i’m not depressed to try and do reverse psychology on myself. maybe it’s working
anyways whatever. it really doesn’t matter and i know that and i know i know that but it’s 2 am andi forgot to take my meds so of course i’m overthinking. whatevarrrrrrr
i’m not a bad person for cutting people out of my life when they’ve done something wrong!!!! *grinds teeth* just because people think bad things about me doesn’t mean they’re true!!!! *eye twitches* i have my reasons!!! *gags*
seriously though i wish so bad i could work like a normal person. i’ve thought about asking my boss for less hours bc it’s taking a toll on me physically but holy shit imagine asking your boss to pay you LESS. i sound like a jackass
it’s been like this since i was a kid it’s a miracle i’m even in a relationship.. i hate when people feel romantic towards me (besides my partner obv) it actually pisses me off
when i find out someone has a crush on me it makes me wanna kill myself. is that reasonable
i like the name shiloh. i think 🤓☝🏻
hey guys. can i try a new name or nah <- has tried at least 25 different names
roommate dumb as hell smdh
god i love moon knight
i was gonna say i think everyone always thinks so little of me but. i don’t think. i know they do
to the point where i’m like well if i die at least i won’t be tired anymore. lmao. sigh.
not to get Concerning but being so tired physically is making me increasingly tired mentally
like when someone asks and i respond with that and they’re like “EW why would u say that wtf” U ASKED… IM JUST REPLYING
one thing people either love or hate about me is that. if u ask where im going / where i’ve been / what i’m doing and the answer to that is “taking a shit” then i’m gonna tell u that. even if it’s like a coworker or stranger bro idgaf. everybody does it
there’s something wrong with my body for me to be this exhausted all the time but i’ll likely never know bc even when u do go to the doctor they don’t care enough to tell u what’s wrong
knowing that so many doctors just don’t give a shit anymore makes me unbearably upset
fucked up that i have to consider working two jobs to not barely scrape by but the one time i did work two jobs it drained me so bad. humans weren’t meant to be employees
